INTO THE LAND OF THE LOST. everytime i'm at home, my mind will wander off to this qns. what are u gg to do this 8 mths after that? and later in your life? then, u see a frustrated me, gg to play with my hamster as if my hamster will gimme an ans.
i've never thought of life beyond like ...20? cos i thought i'll just use my own set of ways to end everything. yet, some things, some people are holding me back . theres simply too many considerations before actions can be taken. that sentence, comes to my mind just now,again
we all came to this world alone, and we will still leave this world by ourselves, all alone.
just came to blog. for random, sheer fun. now that i've so much fun, think i'll upload all e pics real soon? tml still have to wake up damn early for e queue again :(
i hoped i have interpretated it correctly, not another mistake again
anyway, went to AKIRA today at 6. imagine, waking up at 5am(i dun even wake up this early when i go to MI) taking the first few buses at six(and everyone's looking at u like a dong dong) just to take e queue no to buy offer items and yet was skower by 2 to qualify for the item:( though there were some nice guys ard for my eye candy, and someone frighteningly akin, similar to that motivation(that i wondered if it was actually him) still, its tiring. considering a walk thru bugis street and mall till 4 plus before reaching home. PLAIN TIRED.
had late night talk below my hse again chatted with min, then saw wx halfway. then chatted with us when he was supposedly supposed to go sch to study. abt this gal. then it started everything. the law of attraction...blah blah blah... best thing that happened. saw PMS guy with his gf. pretended tt i dint see him and cont' chatting. afterall, he went away after her gf went on board e bus :)) then cont' to chat.
conclusion was: 1. girls are animals that will never be satisfied with a male, even if they are perfect.its inherent 2.you can have nth, no $,no friends, no nothing--but you must have self-confidence, with this, you can get everything(sad la, i still dont have much of it) 3.once you have thoughts of giving up, you have already lost hope-you've also lost your purpose and direction in life 4.when you feel numb to everything, you are as good as being dead.(so i think i re-surrected a couple of times alrdy) 5. i believe that no matter what happens, a girl will still go bk to that 'he' that she decided on, even though she goes ard in circles, from guyA to B to C all the way to Z.
alright, i'm dead tired, off to nap. suddenly, everyone is meeeting me for some baking sessions. cupcakes, muffins, gingerbreadman.♥ and CHRISTMASCELEBRATION ♥♥♥
i must be real bored to post 3 entries in less than 12 hrs. sighs. the more i think, the more lost i am. shld i work for 3 months, or 6 months. if i work for 3 mths, then its like i get my results bk. then i dunno what to do after tt. seriously, thinking of all these make me think that living is difficult, its miserable. all those horrible 'is's that i imagined for my results. its so...scary. get me jobs pls. anyone has jobs to spare?
off to bugis tml but i cant possibly kill time off with friends all days right?
MESS. yes, absolutely. i have totally no idea..abt hw i got into all these sticky mess, that's left me, myself to struggle out of what it seems like a spider web maybe it started since primary sch, or secondary, or somewhere, sometime thruout the 19 years. something must have gone wrong, and i dont know what's wrong and so neither can i do anything to fix it right. so, someone tell me what is the problem so i can put it right.
meanwhile, i'm bored stiff at home. still have to go AKIRA tml for some dumb sales with my muscle aches. i wanna go out, hope days pass faster... ... and suddenly, i dont feel like knowing what my results wld be or rather--i have no courage to see it.
A TISSUE PAPER, A POST-IT PAD. in terms of disposability
i discovered an amazing capability when i was coughing just nw. my voice changes everytime after i cough, just tt its not bk to my org voice. think i shall start reading stuffs on philosophy discovered sth worth pondering--THEORY OF FORMS by Plato
''But if the very nature of knowledge changes, at the time when the change occurs there will be no knowledge, and, according to this view, there will be no one to know and nothing to be known: but if that which knows and that which is known exist ever, and the beautiful and the good and every other thing also exist, then I do not think that they can resemble a process of flux, as we were just now supposing''
almost there, after our last A lvls paper. hmmm. was stuck at home all day today, watching videos and shows. and i dont even bother to step out of my com area, cos its simply too painful to walk even a single step. wonder how i'll spend my days, such a long way to go.
again, after some readings, i certainly felt that my decisions based on my instincts is right afterall. and know what? this morning after i woke up, i suddenly told myself let nature take its course dont try to rush anything--nor stop anything. just, simply accept it. maybe it'll be better this way.
anyway, in a couple of hours time, it'll be one of my bestie's 19th birthday YHAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, ICY
I RUN A MARATHON EVENT WITH NO TRAINING. feel so miserable now when u have ur gd sis visiting you halfway thru e race, and u haven trained for it and with cramps and stitches acting all tgt. and the worst thing is that it is the first time i've had a highfever and nosebleed after a run after i reached home and slept, woke up realised that nose3 had bled. then for another 2 or 3 times while i woke up, it still bled :(( dont know what the hell is wrong with me. I WANT WHEELCHAIR.
i saw...... 2 sec sch guys, one of them which asked a dumb qns during sec sch days the hamster face qns. HAHA. and i think i saw my cousin too. BUT, all not running one is medical staff, another is supporters.... -.-'''
INTO THE LAND OF THE LOST. everytime i'm at home, my mind will wander off to this qns. what are u gg to do this 8 mths after that? and later in your life? then, u see a frustrated me, gg to play with my hamster as if my hamster will gimme an ans.
i've never thought of life beyond like ...20? cos i thought i'll just use my own set of ways to end everything. yet, some things, some people are holding me back . theres simply too many considerations before actions can be taken. that sentence, comes to my mind just now,again
we all came to this world alone, and we will still leave this world by ourselves, all alone.
just came to blog. for random, sheer fun. now that i've so much fun, think i'll upload all e pics real soon? tml still have to wake up damn early for e queue again :(
i hoped i have interpretated it correctly, not another mistake again
anyway, went to AKIRA today at 6. imagine, waking up at 5am(i dun even wake up this early when i go to MI) taking the first few buses at six(and everyone's looking at u like a dong dong) just to take e queue no to buy offer items and yet was skower by 2 to qualify for the item:( though there were some nice guys ard for my eye candy, and someone frighteningly akin, similar to that motivation(that i wondered if it was actually him) still, its tiring. considering a walk thru bugis street and mall till 4 plus before reaching home. PLAIN TIRED.
had late night talk below my hse again chatted with min, then saw wx halfway. then chatted with us when he was supposedly supposed to go sch to study. abt this gal. then it started everything. the law of attraction...blah blah blah... best thing that happened. saw PMS guy with his gf. pretended tt i dint see him and cont' chatting. afterall, he went away after her gf went on board e bus :)) then cont' to chat.
conclusion was: 1. girls are animals that will never be satisfied with a male, even if they are perfect.its inherent 2.you can have nth, no $,no friends, no nothing--but you must have self-confidence, with this, you can get everything(sad la, i still dont have much of it) 3.once you have thoughts of giving up, you have already lost hope-you've also lost your purpose and direction in life 4.when you feel numb to everything, you are as good as being dead.(so i think i re-surrected a couple of times alrdy) 5. i believe that no matter what happens, a girl will still go bk to that 'he' that she decided on, even though she goes ard in circles, from guyA to B to C all the way to Z.
alright, i'm dead tired, off to nap. suddenly, everyone is meeeting me for some baking sessions. cupcakes, muffins, gingerbreadman.♥ and CHRISTMASCELEBRATION ♥♥♥
i must be real bored to post 3 entries in less than 12 hrs. sighs. the more i think, the more lost i am. shld i work for 3 months, or 6 months. if i work for 3 mths, then its like i get my results bk. then i dunno what to do after tt. seriously, thinking of all these make me think that living is difficult, its miserable. all those horrible 'is's that i imagined for my results. its so...scary. get me jobs pls. anyone has jobs to spare?
off to bugis tml but i cant possibly kill time off with friends all days right?
MESS. yes, absolutely. i have totally no idea..abt hw i got into all these sticky mess, that's left me, myself to struggle out of what it seems like a spider web maybe it started since primary sch, or secondary, or somewhere, sometime thruout the 19 years. something must have gone wrong, and i dont know what's wrong and so neither can i do anything to fix it right. so, someone tell me what is the problem so i can put it right.
meanwhile, i'm bored stiff at home. still have to go AKIRA tml for some dumb sales with my muscle aches. i wanna go out, hope days pass faster... ... and suddenly, i dont feel like knowing what my results wld be or rather--i have no courage to see it.
A TISSUE PAPER, A POST-IT PAD. in terms of disposability
i discovered an amazing capability when i was coughing just nw. my voice changes everytime after i cough, just tt its not bk to my org voice. think i shall start reading stuffs on philosophy discovered sth worth pondering--THEORY OF FORMS by Plato
''But if the very nature of knowledge changes, at the time when the change occurs there will be no knowledge, and, according to this view, there will be no one to know and nothing to be known: but if that which knows and that which is known exist ever, and the beautiful and the good and every other thing also exist, then I do not think that they can resemble a process of flux, as we were just now supposing''
almost there, after our last A lvls paper. hmmm. was stuck at home all day today, watching videos and shows. and i dont even bother to step out of my com area, cos its simply too painful to walk even a single step. wonder how i'll spend my days, such a long way to go.
again, after some readings, i certainly felt that my decisions based on my instincts is right afterall. and know what? this morning after i woke up, i suddenly told myself let nature take its course dont try to rush anything--nor stop anything. just, simply accept it. maybe it'll be better this way.
anyway, in a couple of hours time, it'll be one of my bestie's 19th birthday YHAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, ICY
I RUN A MARATHON EVENT WITH NO TRAINING. feel so miserable now when u have ur gd sis visiting you halfway thru e race, and u haven trained for it and with cramps and stitches acting all tgt. and the worst thing is that it is the first time i've had a highfever and nosebleed after a run after i reached home and slept, woke up realised that nose3 had bled. then for another 2 or 3 times while i woke up, it still bled :(( dont know what the hell is wrong with me. I WANT WHEELCHAIR.
i saw...... 2 sec sch guys, one of them which asked a dumb qns during sec sch days the hamster face qns. HAHA. and i think i saw my cousin too. BUT, all not running one is medical staff, another is supporters.... -.-'''
HERE WE GO AGAIN.
