argghx.
how i hate moself .
urgghs.
i tot i wun c him todae.
but in ened he appeared rite in front of me
yet i didnt recognise him
aaaaaaaaaaaaahssss.
wad a sad case ritex.
hais.
he was standin at sandstorm outside
i saw him walking out frm sandstorm.
then its like .
i tot is a customer.
n he stood there lookin at my shop.
fer bt 1o-15 mins
i also saw him la.
but i was there tinkin y this idiot keep lookin at moi shop direction.
then he suddenly went over tuh options e area there.
i saw him lookin in my direction.
lol
again.
i did c him n he did c me.
but i cldnt recognise him
hais.
then went toilet.
he was in sandstorm agains.
then was there lookin at him
begin tuh feel familiar.
then gt customer hab tuh go serve.
by e time i saw him
he alreadi at toy r us lers
hais
saw him n ye ren er hao
he go cut his hair.
then lyke noe liao
i still can blur till lkye tat.,
aiyo
stupiiid meeee.
then jessica n i have some sort of compromised tuh cut our hair on
fri.
the day i'm released e earliest lol.
abt 3pm like tat
then meeting joe too.
hahax.
n.
tats also e day i will keep everythingy tuh an end la.
in short.
somehow.
todae i go siao again.
go cut my hand.
this time more pro ahs.
ytd nitex use penknife
today uuse nails.
my nails very hard n long n sharp.
so useful rites
in e end realli got cut.
wrist there pain.
then whole day was like dunno y feelin somehw...
dunno wad tuh describe.
then is lyke some pple discovered sth was wrong wif me todae
cos.
they ysed weird looks to stare at me.
haah.
anyway
mornin i went imm
then in e end.
was wearin dano uniform
scared zi hui.
n some others too bahs.
cos .
ehs.
imm also gt dano
lucki nvr mitinto any dano pple there.
then is like last time i go zi hui there is
wear sch u de.
then suddenly i wear uniform 4 work
pple there diaos.
then e mini toon de short short guy semed tuh some sort
of recognise me
since e last time
he tried tuh serve us so..
seriously.
hais..
todae also kip tryin tuh serve.
i c no point.
cos there is clear stock de lol.
serve wad?
pple snatch ehs.
hai wo bang into a metal edge
leg pain now.
humophs
he is short la.
gt smoke.
hais.
then zi hui de boss suddenly cum
i run lol
go mini toons near there de
AXS machine play
then the taka guy like suddenly
walked towards me.
then looked at wad i was doin
damn ps de lol
.then went bk jp
cos rina workin at jp atrium.
todae last dae.
me also last dae le.
last dae tuh c him?
mus c e situation
c whether i can everyday stay at jp.
till closing.
frankly speaking is very tiring ehs.
have tuh wait til 9pm then can c him.
then is like i morning 6am wake up attend lessons till 5 plus.
then go home hab hw tuh do
then i cant c him fer e past 2 weeks although i'd stayed behind.
its like
i'm gettin tired of tis
make me so worn out.
if it's fate
then let it be
i'll jus have my own way of finding my
heart that rightfully belongs tuh me.

_am i thinkin too much or issit wad i'm tinkin is true-