courage versus confidence

i dun think i have C-O-U-R-A-G-E.

or rather...

C-O-N-F-I-D-E-N-C-E.

dun ask me why.

cos i also do not know WHY.

afraid to face some people.

somehow being over-protective of myself.

but these pple have similar characteristics or features

just like the ones i met before.

so uncanningly similar.

there is nothing i can do to stop myself from avoiding them

i just cant FACE THEM.

sch today.

SAME OLD THING.

was rather upset due to some events.

but nvm...

not everyone is like that, i believe so

pple may think tt i'm naive.

but i still hold on to tightly to the belief.

--the belief that the world is still full of hope, bliss and happiness.

but sadly, through days, i've saw the ugly side.

the side that i couldnt bring myself to believe in.

after sch.

went to find ADELINE.

she had to work.

i thought it was pepper lunch.

it turned out to be the taxi survey thingy.

her work destination wld be at IMM.

till mon.

so..went there accompany her lols

sat outside from 5pm onwards.

outside ADIDAS shop.

then got a lot of extra pple blocking us.

i was playing wif her PSP....

wahahaas.

she had to work till 11pm.

but i left at 8pm.

cos need go home mahs.

if not i reach home 12am le.

haha

gg to find her tml

to study while she doing her survey.

frm 11am-11pm

but i dun think i will be staying tt late

maybe earlier?

hahas.

after you've realised you've given someone everything you have,

it is hard and impossible to take them all back again.