I AM AN AIMLESS AND HELPLESS PIG.

I ATE ONE MCSPICY MEAL TODAY
ONE RAMEN IN SCH
ONE LARGE MASHED POTATO AND A SNACKER OF KFC
I FEEL LIKE I'M A PIG.


but i cant help it or rather,
i cant seem to gain control of myself
how i wished i was a robot.
doing things according to programs
then i would not questioned myself so many things.
i dont know who to talk to now.
i'm so confused
i feel like pouring everything out, its over the rim.
but i cant, if i do, i'll say everything out,
and all of me would be gone.
and becos of suppressing all these, i feel like crying, but i cant.
i cant let those tears run down m cheeks again, i promised myself.
and so i end up moaning, whining, saying funny things.
some of which i dont even know myself.
i'm blur at times not because i'm ignorant to my surroundings
it's because i know too much and its too much for me to bear and ,
i tell myself to pretend that i dont know anything, and maybe it wld be better this way.


today i learnt one thing.
if you wished for sth real hard, it'll come true.
of course, it must be realistic.
and expect it to take place the least you thought it would happen.