irritated

it's okay, really
after some precious water wasted on you, nothing's left
i dont see the need why i shld hate you or what.
you dont believe me, its okay.
but what do you mean by saying you believe me yet u are constantly accusing me?
isnt it contradictory
i'm sick and tired of you
just because i made the mistake once doesnt mean that i have to shoulder all the blames that happens after it.
u talk nothing but crap.
why my attitude towards you is forever like that?
cos i realised as i grow that there's no point in talking or arguing with someone that holds to her stands or views, with no regard to what the truth really is.
if you continue to refuse to stand from afar and look at problems objectively,
you'll never see the whole picture, let alone what are the facts
the trust between you and me, has long ago, has weakened to the extent that i dont see the need for it to exist.
my attitude wont be in such a way for no reason.
continue hurting, hurt more.
then i'll thank you for allowing me to practice, ignoring these problems, these accusations, the lost of trust, the tears to hold back, to be stronger both on the outside and the inside, to be able to completely what pple say to me, to have no reactions, emotions, no anger, no hate, no sadness.
if i had the ability, i wld have really went out of these dumb house.
i'm getting sick of it.
know what, nowadays,
i'hd rather and find it easierto believe in strangers than to believe in u .
dont u find that pathetic?
I WONT WASTE MY PRECIOUS TIME ON YOU!
I'LL CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES
and i'll try my utmost best to be unaffected by you
not to affect my studies.
if you ask me to depend on you, its a joke.
i know i can never depend on you, its too much to ask of you
thats why i have to go out and work even during the last year
i shant waste my time on pple that arent worth the time.