its like probably...the most sober state i'm in nw
even though i was yawning like mad at work.
i'm pretty sure what it means.
at the bottom line, i'm pretty certain.
hell knows whats going on.
i dont know, cant be bothered to know, dont want to know.
cos, i know theres simply no positive point in knowing
so, perhaps, its time to go outside my garden and get to know new people.



loves this cold rainy weather
so smoothing
and lets me think in such a sober manner, so clearly.
and i wished i had a nice cuppa cocoa
or perhaps, a few glasses of vodka.
i just simply wished; i wasnt so clear-minded.
no, at least not today
has bottled far too much negative feelings inside me.
needs to de-stress.

if time was just an illusion,
then ...