today.

rainy day-

still had to run cross country.

anyway.

i practicaly walked

in the rain...

wtf!

making moii head feel heavy now.

wanna sleep.

not a good day today

went bk to pri sch.

lols.

saw them all.

hahaass.

i didn't go with them.

a bit bu shuang?

dunno why.

really feeling that.

it makes no difference.

if i'm dead or alive.

then.

i'm better off dead right?

yaahs.

i'll die soon.

sooner the better.

__sumtymes.

frenx are not the way they are_

erms~

yesterdae nite.

neber go to cdac tuition.

in moii dummy sch.

lols.

i got valid reason de wors.

i was having a fever.

real high lorls.

38/9++ degrees.

then slept at home.

headache ahs.

today

durin geo lessons.

noisy...

cnt concentrate.

hais.

then come home.

dunno do what.

tml bilan dey all coming to moii hse?

bake wadeva biscuits fer teachers day.

sighx.

nth to say?

dun noe wad i'm thinking now

am i on the right track.

or the wrong track-

can i still have that little chance.

dunno

think till headache.

go rest lers.

tml got assembly.

remenber tuh bring tie.

_ tired out

peacE!!!_

hmm.

just came back frm work.

as usual.

pasting stickers

lolx.

at jurong east.

blk 3o1-311/2?

dunno

actually-

need tuh paste till blk 316

then we tired ler.

took bus home.

tml aftersch continue.

it's quite near our sch anyway.

yesterday nite.

chatted wif icey.

at..

considered at e park

behind moii blk.

just cross a small small road

hahas.

at 9.3opm like tat.

then moii mum was like there

thinking i siao.

then nvm.

i went down anyway.

chat till 1o 45 like tat.

then went home.

she still wants to enter chi studies,.

i dun mind.

e biggest

and only problem is

thereare only 8o students to go in per year.

how can we get in.

and.

e cut-of point is...

13 or 14?

quite tough lehs.

urghhs.

still got lots of essay to write.

f&n and english dexXx.

phews-

sleep.

i was in moii room

reading xiao shuo all day.

from i wake up to the night.

except moii lunch and dinner

then read till dunno wad happen.

tml need tuh go sch lers.

prelims cumin le

stress greater liaos.

wanna die lers.

lols.

_yuan yuan de kan zhe ni

ye shi yi zhong xing fu_

hao lei ah.

after sch.

after knowing dunch need go f&n.

chiong to canteen.

take moii bag.

run after janice dey all.

run very fast.

i succeeded.

hehs.

then went tuh jp wif them

watch e movie.

the break-up.

wahaas.

the show was okay larhs.

lols

then after tat

walk walk fera while.

went home.

at abt 5pm..

hais

getting iriitated.

by nth.

fer no reason.

so sad.

_ wei she me hui xi huan shang ni

shi shua wo de mah_

awWws

frustrated.

wif evryhing.

yes.

including myself.

hating myself more ad more.

dunno why.

today.

at hall.

the cher called me.

by 4c no.2o

i was there wondering.

why this combination sounds so familiar.

then til yinwen shouted.

lucky sia.

she 19.

i was there

oic.

i'm no 2o.

stupidd right.

poor adeline also for no reason

tio called up.

then demo.

how to tie strings.

diaos.

then..like this lors.

during lesssons.

dunno where moii heart was.

neither did i noe.

where mii soul was.

in la-la land?

duno.

then after sch.

slept while waiting.

for chemistry-

then stomach cramp.

or wadeva.

didn't feel well.

ltr still hab to go cdac.

sians.

today.

was...

tired of sth...

for almost.

2 yrs.

wad can i do?

it's not within moii control.

let nature take it's course

i very much wanted to gib up.

how can i.

after all these days

shld have given up since e beginning

urghhs.

dunno wad to say.

_rang wo zhi you

_wei you wang le ni.fang qi ni

hais.

today WAS another long day.

just reached home after

moii poa extra lessons.

got test.

worst of all.

moii poa is far moree

worst than moii maths.

maths is i wan tuh do

also can do de

poa is like...

i totally dun know.

blur blur abt the principles lers.

hais.

another thingy was e class photo.

our klass is practically.

zhi lian.

ya.

reason.

they got damn high when

they knew dey

were goin to takle photozz

den ben long mao didn't bring tie.

went mdm tay homeroom.

lend frm B class.

miracle.

mdm tay didn't scold us lehs.

lols.

was very tired at maths.

then finally.

slept in the last few minutes.

sians.

moii bro is havin his chi exams tml.

teaching him

he cant get at least 7o++

hais.

stressed by this.

moii parents requirements of chi

is quite high.

like i get A1.

they say.

u shld get this grade wad.

taking everythingy for granted.

it just seems to me like

i'm taken for granted.

no choicee.

thish few days

thinking abt many thingys

suddenly like tat.

dunno la

_flustered me

wish that i 'm dead_

currently.

chewing on bubble gum

given by moii mei.

today.

as usual is sians de lors.

but i very guai nehs.

compo machiam whole klass

i got got like tat.

then chi.

as usual.

zhuo bo.

helpp joe joe

colour her colour exploration

then moii chi cher was like there.

tot i was art student?

i have to make tis clear.

i F&N student.

lols.

art.

is colourful.

nicee.

but stimes

very headache also.

during f&n.

like keep drilling theory.

sians.

discuss.

present

in the end..

haisss-

dunno wad to say..

aftersch

actually wan pon eng.

helpp adeline do art.

then

her cher there tell us go bk to klass

so.

bo bian lors.

then go eng remedial.

finally got moii prelim oral.

then chiong compo.

finish le then.

went tuh find ah shi dey all.

lost.

they went home le larhs.

3 3o go home le.

where i find them?

go home lors.

then met moii mum and mei

on e same bus.

hais.

today recess.

very diu lian

cannot even hold a plate properly.

then tilted.

sauce dripped.

luckily didn't stain till anyone.

hahas

still very sians.

ltr still hab tuh go cdac.

fed up.

by studies.

and *

can't be bothered.

or i can't even bother?

i dunno.

juz feel that.

he still like her lors.

then also so the

shuo huan ying mahs?

bu qing chu.

wo bu zhi dao.

bu zhi dao huo xu bi jiao hao.

deng shi jian liu shi.

wo ying gai ye neng wang ji ta.

rang wo liu lei de ta.

_no moree strength tuh go on_

just ate moii dinner

came back at abt 6.oo

reached at abt 6.3o

was helping adeline tuh paint her art.
after doing moii F&N homwork.

at art room.

at first kenny dey all say at library

i was there saying

got O level oral.

then we had no room to work in.

didn't want to go canteen.

hot there.

and-

somehow cnt concentrate

due tuh e pple dere.

noise?

or wadeva larhs.

during chi lesson.

as usual.

was outside doing own work wif joe

next mon.

they got test.

those needed to retake

need tuh take.

i ?

dunno also

like got nth to do like tat.

zhuo bo.

ytd.

quarelled wif moii cdac cher.

she's ridiculous.

not bothered tuh tok to her.

threatened to expel mie

wadeva

as if i care

u think i very happy every thursdae

after finishing moii sch

and chemistry or physics remedial.

then go u there.

i have to leave at 7 frm moii hse.

then go ur dere tolerate till 9pm.

go take bus home.

still got hw tuh do.

need tuh sleep.

it seems like.

i have a grudge

between all moii maths teachers.

lols.

from sec1 till now

hais.

giving up is an act which i dun wan to .

but the situation has turned

into one which...haiz

_wo xian zai fa xian.

ni li wo hao yuan..hao yuan_

hais.

today.

still okay bahs.

xiang tong le.

lols.

still feeling a bit low?

maybe due to low sugar level

moii oral.

really dunno wad tuh describe as arhs.

i am going to rely on moii only 2 components left

oral and compre.

hais.

during recess.

play hai dai quan.

janice play till so ke ai

hahas.

dunno how she duh the action.

i didn't play wif them.

no mood.

lols.

but i laughed.

the grp neber failed to make us laugh.

then after sch

pon physics

went to mac.

take away go sch eat.

then went to artroom

help moii poor long mao

help her paint.

hais.

helped till abt 5++

waited for janice and shiyun as well.

then theycame at abt 5pm

went home tgt.

saw moii 2 examiners.

used ah shi de file cover moii face.

dunno why.

now.

thinkin abt

drinkin wine or beer

really helps us tuh.

hmm.

let down our feelingx

then relax.

hahaas.

a stupid theory of mine.

having mood swings

dunno lehs.

justlike this fewdays.

very the ...

emotional.

sians arhs.

ltr still hab tuh go tuh cdac.

wu liao si le.

sighx.

_ wang ji ni

wui bi bu shi yi jian hao shi_

DUN FEEL LIKE

COMMENTING ON ANYTHING NOW.

ORAL WAS...

feel like eating

butter cookies.

mumneber buy.

i like tuh eat sweet stuff

especially

like a day today

feeling very na men and down.

WHY.

stressed.

_ huo xu wo ying gai fang qi ni

wo you na ge ji hui ma?_

_wo ke yi ma- wo you zi ge ma?

_wo...bu zhi dao

feeling weird today

some sort of.

anyway.

today started with a big scare.

so horrible.

opned the door.

then a small kitten chiong in.

i screamed, of course.

in morning 6 15 like tat

when u're not really awake.

u open the door.

see something greyish chiong past u.

will ya be stunned.

then they tried chasingit out.

while be still haven

recovered from the shock like tat.

then after that

i tried tuh umm.

lure it down.

felt it was ke ai.

also ke lian.

then wanted to let it drink some water.

then when i wanted to gib.

it was like wanna eat me.

sians.

i dunno wad crap i toking.

then.

no bus 99.

so.

me and shi yun

could only use the changing bus method.

it was either we take bus 242

to jp

or janice there de bus stop

and change to 198 or wadeva bus.

in the end decided to go jan there.

then

her dog almost chased us again.

her mum suddenly lost hold of the leash.

shocked agains.

haiss.

today moii klass had a dispute.

but i tot that gal.

got her desserts larhs.

anyhow scold vulgarities.

then only know how to find DM all this.

stupid arhs.

during chi klass.

self study.

went to the bench outside toilet.

with joe and peisi.

do moii maths.

in the rain.

today the B klass oral.

then heard a few funny incidents.

stressed arhs.

i haven even take moii prelim oral.

how am i going to handle tml.

worst of all.

i'm LAST.

need to wait till 4 3o or 5 like tat.

judging by the

A &B klass.

hais.

can freeze there.

stressed.

stressed.

stressed.

_ how am i to face

u whom i dunch noe_

today's post.

like nth to say.

not fun at all lehs.

cos.

was practically slogging all e way

except for one lesson.

CHINESE...

i did not hab to attend the lesson.

or listen tuh it.

and not needing tuh do the work she gave them

i was damn bored

wasn't in the moOd

tuh duh anything.

even sleeping.

i also very stressed now.

english oral cumin.

worstof all.

me is consecutive days.

tml is prelim oral.

weds is o level eng oral.

they say wad each person 2o mins.

then i can happily wait till siao liao

izzit?

mind u.

i'm not tat type in the middle.

or before that

nor after that.

guess wad.

i so unlucky till

i'm the last.

sians diaos lors.in library.

so cold.

i freeze there la.

sleep also can liaos.

can happily wait for..

2-3 hrs.

hais...

why must it turn out like tat????

came back home with sis today

met at bus stop

told me wad.

go dentist.

lame reason larhs.

go till 3.3o.

i even finish moii maths test liao lors pls.

then saw someone.

very familiar.

long time neber see le.

and.

just strange feelin after seein him.

used to it le larhs.

since few years ago till now

no difference made

urghhs.

stressed

_affection.

whats that stupid feeling_

_which i can't define

hais.

poOr mii-

i scaled moii forth finger

on the left hand.

lucky sia.

i use moii right hand dez.

machiam moii flesh cooked.

or has it been cooked already?

i already wrapped moii hand with ice le

for 1/2 hr.

then till now still pain.

wad tuh do.

mon need go sch.

omg.

all method can use de use le.

does anyone know wad tuh do?

pls tell mie.

to save moii forth finger!!!!

hais.

guess i was too stressed ytd.

coz i was very tired.

then went home.

then ate dinner.

blogged.

did this and that.

taught moii bro his maths

although i'm damn lousy at it

then.

i was there teaching him.

at moii bed.

then slept.

at abt 8.3opm like tat.

till today like 1o.3oam wake up.

OMG>

wad a pig i am.

i've neber slept till this late.

and long b4.

hais.

for like 13 hrs.

haiss.

tat person's stressed?

dunno due to wad.

we areall having stress now.

no choicee.

we're havin o levels now.

will help anyone whu wans me to.

currently.

damn irritated by moii sis.

fighting to use the com with me.

urghhs.

and for no reason.

i owe her a drink.

due to ytd at canteen

lols.

she was shocked with moii result.

i was some sort of shocked too kaes.

but everyone was like there.

the result i got was expected.

pls..

i ot as clever as you all tot.

i was there worrying till i tot

i was dying ler lorls.

anyway.

JIAYOU>

for urr chi.

and moii maths.

must also buck up le!!!!!!

gonna go do some

maths paper.

mon still got test.

haiss.

_you might neber noe who i am.

but i'm happy with the current condition_

hiya

everyone.

today was a hard

day to get by.

anyway

it has past.

and i'm happy with this fact.

first.

i got nervous at around 9am.

then stomach cramp.

due to being over nervous.

was wondering how to save up for moii

o level chi exam-retake.

heard the results were released at 1oam.

but didn't go.

was afraid i would cry at the sight

of moii pathetic result.

in the end.

i waited till recess was over.

then yinwen shouted.

u owe me a cup of drink

then i was there...

diaos...

wth!!!

did i make it?

i was there.

kinda stunned-

hahaas.

then saw the result slip.

i was there...

phew.

i got wad i wanted.

i was quite happy.

till i went to the chinese notice board

outside the staff room.

i saw the result of tat person.

then was like.

dunno wad to say.

at least he passed lors.

hope that he'll go to retake the exam

and get a good grade he so clever.

like tat very wasted

he look so sad today?

then like i also cnt be happy.

no choice~

then the whole day till now still like

stuffy stuffy de.

JIA YOU.

TO EVERYONE WHO WILL BE ACHIEVING

BETTER GOOD RESULTS!!!

after sch.

just caught a glimsp or 2

then he went home?

dunno larhs.

then went to jurong ent ctr.

took neos

lols.

then rush back settle moii coursework.

today must hand in mahs.

chiong till 5.3o like tat.

sians.

tired.

monday still must stay?

not sure..

only know i'll be dead tired by then.

_you were so near

yet so far_

hmm..

just work finish.

today very goOd sia

the location.

at jurong east.

so near.

unlike all other times.

at cck..bukit panjiang..

finish at 2 4o like tat.

then went tuh eat mac.

adeline is shui tong.

drank moii coke.

and aiting's one.

and her one.

somemore moii wan is large de..

so sians.

why all the blocks in JE so big.

siao arhs.

like moii block better.

easy.

fast

haiss.

tmr

is an important day

one .

is moii f&n submission of coursework B

then

is release of o level chi result.

have intended tuh

takee neos with the result tmr.

hahaas.

with sch tie loose

like bad kids.

was on the bus.

saw someone.

but not the person i tot tuh be.

still can't get over the person.

few years past ;lers

sians.

ltr still hab tuh go cdac.

i dunch wan

mum dun let mi pon.

so hab to go?

c 1st lors.

_i beginning to

losE confidencE in moiiseLf_

today

okay okay larhs.

quite happy.

wahaas.

>.<

i'h high today.

lols-

wad am i saying?

blurzZz lerhs.

just can't get over tat idiot.

no link hors.

yaahs.

stressed nowadays

can countdown liao

chinese o level.

it's either me treat pple tuh drinks.

or they treat mie.

hais.

really very worried lehs.

dunno wad tuh do.

except wait.

till tat day

hais

so sad.

strtess

i wan at least an A2 fer moii chinese.

but.

c like tat.

no hope liaos.

moii oral.

tat time nervous

then machiam tok crapx.

hahaas.

ltr still need tuh go cdac

sians.

bo liao.

tml.

not confirmed.

due to ah shi

if shr go.

i also have tuh go.

then anyway.

tml afternoon will sure

go bugis.

and town/orchard.

go destress.

b4 friday.

waaaaaahs.

helpp muiii~

loOkin forward tuh friday. 1oaM_

erms...

today was a long and fun day

woke up at 8am

tuh go ai ting granma hse.

which is quite near moii hse as i have said.

then bake and did stuffs till 11.45pm

then took moii oven home.

took cab go ai ting's hse.

then go buy thingys.

played games.

ate steamboat.

watch comedies types of movies.

hahaas

watched superband there.

till abt 95opm like tat?

then they gave us a drink

alcoholic one.

i wasn't drunk.

lols.

i didn't know how much percentage larhs.

overall

had a fun&enjoyable day

thanks-

HAPPY BURFDAY AITING.

SWEET SIXTEEN!!!

tml maybe going bugis.

sing K and buy thingyx?

c first lors.

sleep lers.

nitex`

_the distance between you and me is

very very far away

and i can't seem to catch up_