the last post of 2009 :((

the last day of 2009.
i'm still working.
haven got time to do the reflections.
but for past 3 consecutuive days, i had the sweetest dreams of my life.
like sequels.
i dreamt abt unknown that warmed my heart, A had sth to tell me and i met up with ah joe.
LOLS.
if theres anything i can say abt 2009,
i can only say that it has been a fruitful year.
it passed so fast!
now, even A lvls has ended
it was a happy year--as the saying goes, happy times always flies fast

2009 has been a great year
one that i cherished, had the happiest days of my life
and most reluctant to let go of...
too many things to say it all out
but its lie i'm left the last 5 mins of 2009.
so, i shall end my last post of 2009.

hope everyone that spent their 2009 days with me had fun too.
wishes that everyone have a good ending,
and a great start to 2010 !!!

-the sweetess dream-

i dreamt that i was sitting under my block
i was cold.
he was standing in front of me, looking down at me so deeply with his eyes.
then he removed his scarf, wanted to put it ard my neck.
i stopped him, and took it away from his hand and wrapped it ard my neck.
he looked so dejected.


omg.
i must be dreaming.
or maybe it happened in the other world, other dimensions
but i'm sure it wont happen to me in reality, in this life

A NEW WEDDING EXPERIENCE :))

Just came bk from cousins wedding dinner
New experience, all vegetarian.
For the first time after so many weddings, I felt touched.
Th e last time we had wedding was like only 1 or 2 each year.
Maybe like 8 years ago, somewhere ard there, there were like so many weddings every year,
then this cousin of mine suddenly like asked.
Someone ran the stanchart marathon.
i to the was asking another cousin.
Then everyone went silent.
Then I turned.
Everyone was looking at me in the bus.
Then I was like…ya?
He asked me 10 k or 21 k?
21k.
then he told me sth that stunned me
take water frm me nvr say hi.
I was like…????!!!!
So I asked him.
U mean u gave me water from ur hand?
Ya.
Oh.
Hmmm.
I dint see u

There were a few occasions where I took water from ppple hand.
Like 3 pple.
Ha
And I dint realize it was him
So he smiled at me.
I smiled sheepishly bk to him

The bride works at mindef HQ, I think
Cos according to the emcee, we were very safe tt day.
Due to the personnel present.
Then , my cousin is sth like.traffic police?!
So ..
They said we cld drink till we drop
Cos its safe to do so.
But then, when we went to the wedding, we were served chi tea.
OMG.
Was like….
Afer a while, a waitress asked if we wanted soft drink.
So I asked for sprite
After 1 hr of waiting, I decided to get some red wine.
Drank 2 glasses of it.
Hahas
We sat tgt with cousins, all one table, parents another one.
Then saw my cousin bro who younger than me by one yr wearing a suit….
He looked so smart , like some manager
He came to our table, told us he was damn tired for past few days.
LOLS.
Then my 2nd aunt was like counting, who gonna get married nxt.
Then we were like…hahaha
If we count according to age,I shld be the 6th or 7th in queue?
Maybe further.
So—its like 7-8 years down the road, there’ll be rows of weddings again.
I have a big, big paternal family.

Marriage have nvr crossed my mind except in GP
I dunno why.
But after today, it made me gave some serious thought to it.
It’s a part of life, and it determines the rest of your life.
Someone to share your happiness and sadness, support you when you are down, giving each other love, spend your time with, give care and concern to.
Its like—beautiful.
They met like in poly?
Then one of my cousin was like telling me most pple meet their other half in polys.
Then , jc like don’t have.
True , very true.
JC is only like in 2 years?
But I know of one last till 7 years alrdy.
HAHAS.
Shant say who he is.
I feel so happy for my cousin, and his wife.
They have finally found each other, in this vast world.
Bless them to have happiness forever and live in bliss JJ


Meanwhile, it was hectic to rush from work to the hotel.
Furama hotel?

THE WEDDING

I'M TOUCHED BY THE WEDDING.
it wasnt exactly grand, but it was nice--no doubt abt that.
but its the first time my heart was touched by a wedding.
shall blog more abt it soon.

BAD, BAD SATURDAY

its saturday.
i'm starting work.
i dont feel like gg to work.
afterall, i still have to go for the wedding dinner.
why must humans be slaves to money?
i feel like snapping my hair off to shoulder length.

i feel like i'm missing a piece of me, left with someone else.
give me that piece of me back :((

MERRY X'MAS

MERRY X'MAS 2009!!!
hahas
pple asked; how do u spend ur x'mas
ans: i spent it at home, sleeping and resting.
cos i gotta work tml onwards.
hope everything goes right, and i'll be happy.
for the upcoming ard like 150-180 days?
meanwhile, its only another like..10 weeks to the results release?
wonder how i shld do my count-down to the end of everything?
the buffer time of 8-9 months

RETAIL THERAPHY.

i'm gg bk to retail, for the future 5-6 months.
its like bye, dano, hi MI,
then
bye MI, hi dano , again.
starting work this sat at JP again.
wanted her to transfer me to westmall.
but i think it'll only be a matter of time lah.
she loves transfers.

i want to earns loads and loads of money
so i can go overseas :((
argghs.
this means
i wont have normal off-days,
i wont get to enjoy public holidays.
but it is that type of work that wld allow you to sleep more :)
most of all, most importantly is that
you get to see many diff pple.
many situations.
and sometimes, being vulnerable in work helps spur you on too,
to strive even harder and better in life.
i really cannot stand office job.
imagine being stuck there for like 9 hours,
facing like 3 walls,
1 monitor
and cant talk much at all.
god.
i cant talk?!
might as well kill me.
its okay.
to me, money may be secondary
what's most impt is that i'll enjoy the job,
and i'm happy, not restricted.
anyway, looking forward to the new bl bus interchange, after like 2-3 years which seem like ages
opening on 27th dec
right inside jp.
i'll be working.
that means, i wont have to go for the wedding.
and not to worry abt what to wear!!!
seriously needs to expand my wardrobe

gingerbread men turned out to be super successful :)
hope that tml min's one will also be successful XD

found many interesting quotes to share

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

Only a life lived for others is a life worth while.”

Life is the art of drawing without an eraser.”

Ecclesiastes:
For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.


Smile, it is the key that fits the lock of everybody's heart.

There are hundreds of languages in the world, but a smile speaks them all.

after some random conversation, i realised that life, is all but a show.
all one have to do is simply--act and play till the end of the show.
dont see it too seriously.
do not be bothered by what pple will speak of you
whats most impt is--you know that you are happy.
i'm not scared of death.
sometimes, i embrace it
have no idea how i did it.
just think of it as sth like,
a long rest?
when you can finally rest and live in peace.

i guess..

you will never know what is gg on in my mind, my heart.
even when i'm standing beside you.
my tolerance was practiced during sec sch days
i have high tolerance
maybe feeling nervous inside, but act as if normal, or even nonchanlant.
you will never know how i feel, my opinion of you
who can i trust,whose shloulder can i lend when i need one.




meanwhile, my sis got top few positions for her N lvls in her sch
the sch's definitely much more nicer, but MI's hall is still better :))
saw teachers,
and i vividly rmbed sec sch days.
baking was successful, though tiring
went bookfest, bought loads of funny books, puzzles, just to kill time.
tues have to go jp find tt supervisor again.
sighs.

loves autumn's concerto till the max.
really love it.
pple who havent watched it yet must go watch--you wont regret watching it

whoever tt guy who called me ytd shld have called my hp, not my hse phone.
i was out..
ahhhh.
who the hell calls hse phone nwadays?
:(


off to gingerbread man land

FRUSTRATED

REALLY.
at everything.
from the dummy agent to everything else in the world.
dano called me.
asked me to go bk to bcum sales assistant.
1000 per mth
but it's like so dumb to me, in my opinion.
lesser pay, wld have problems meeting pple.
cos the off-days are always from mon-thurs.
but nvm.
i'm starting to hate the world afain
from my family to myself.
cant u respect me by not opening up my letters w/o my permission
WTH.
and its not like i wanted to be born in this family.
i dint want to.
u think i led a happy life?
no, i dint, and i wont.
i want to break away and find a life of my own.
and here i'm telling you
the sentence that parents always tell their kids.
shld have strangled u to death while u were still a baby.
shld have thrown you in a dustbin
shldnt have gave birth to you
let me tell u parents , I'LL TELL YOU STRAIGHT IN YOUR FACE.
I DONT GIVE A HECK TO BE ALIVE IN THIS WORLD
IF I WASNT BORN, I WLDNT HAD TO GO THRU ALL THOSE PAINS, AGONY
YOU WANTED TO KILL ME?
GO AHEAD.,
WHY DINT U DO SO WHEN I WAS YOUNG?
ANYWAY, U'VE STILL GOT A CHANCE
KILL ME NOW, YOU'LL SAVE MORE MONEY, always arguing with me abt $$$ for no reason
just need to use the last sum of $ on me, for my funeral.
you can dont bother to perform rituals if you really want to save on it,
just incinerate my body.
WHY BOTHER TO GIVE BIRTH TO CHILDREN,
WHEN YOU KNOW THAT THEY WONT ENJOY GOOD LIVES?
WHY BOTHER TO DO SO,
WHEN YOU CANT GURANTEE HAPPINESS?
you pple dont know my worries, my fears, what i really need.
such great parents i have huh.
since young, even if i fell down and hurt myself, i wld get scolded.
no hush, concern, whatever
you can act whatever you like outside strangers
deep down in my heart, i know how you pple treat me.
since you pple favour on boys, go ahead.
if i cld, i wld break away.
pay you whatever sum you had used for the past 19 years of my life
fees, food, whatever.
or best still, perhaps i shld just pay bk everything using my life
or maybe, even in their eyes, my life is worth nothing, nothing at all.
just a cheap life.
and yes.
I DEEM MY BIRTH AS A MISTAKE- A TERRIBLE ONE.

off to icy's hse for baking.
warm warm cupcakes for a cold cold, rainy day.
warms up my heart
<3

now i hate recruit express to the max :(

LAST MINUTE

CALLS.
is it, like reasonable to call me at 9pm plus,
after my movie, spoiled my mood.
tell me i have immediate job tml
and demand an answer,
when i have a date with my friend, set since last week,
and DEMAND me to push it away.
and think i duno u take hw much commission.
sighs.
anyway,
the job's for 3 weeks.
pay better than sales
admin job
i not comfortable 3 weeks run away....
in TUAS.
ITS LIKE--even though its rather near my area, BUT..
I'M NOT VERY FAMILIAR ABT IMDUSTRIAL AREA DUH.
sighs
sighs
sighs
10-4
office wear.
its gonna be hilarious
freaking hilarious.
like a child wearing mummy's clothes
considering whether to return to me sales job.
they need pple again .
AHHH.
SALES VS ADMIN.
:(((((

my heart's doing breaking, popping, locking

now, i think one characteristic of MI students is--they appear everywhere,really!

now, i know i can believe it

maybe its another coincidence,
or another trick that God has chose to crack on me.
like always.
i'm not one that believe in dreams.
but today, i was rather amused, and--AMAZED
at what happened.
that happened in my dream , though rather distorted, but it has happened in real life.
and in real life, i get the whole picture.
I, got the point.
and made some GOOD sense out of it.
BYE :))

I BELIEVE

i believe in.
can i believe and trust,
absolute trust?

what if you gave your all,
and all that you receive in return is pain and lies

Gift Of A Friend

Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself
Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone
It's easy to feel like you don't need help
But it's harder to walk on your own

You'll change inside
When you realize

The world comes to life
And everything's bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are, when you open your heart
And believe in
The Gift of a Friend


Someone who knows when you're lost,
And you're scared
There through the highs and the lows
Someone to count on, someone who cares
Beside you wherever you go

You'll change inside
When you realize
The world comes to life
And everything's bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are, when you open your heart
And believe in
The Gift of a Friend

And when your hope crashes down
Shattering to the ground
You, you feel all alone
When you don't know which way to go
And there's no signs leading you home
You're not alone

The world comes to life
And everythings bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are, when you open your heart
And believe in
When you believe in
The Gift of a friend

better days ahead, hopefully...

its finally monday again
cant believe e week is passing so slowly by.
during those days in sch, counting mon-fri was fast
like counting hours.
nowadays, counting hours is like counting minutes :((
looking forward to sunday's show
this week is more...FUN?
from weds-sat, schedule all booked :)))
thats good, i'll be dead because of boredom.
practically, the internet is nw the only source of killing boredom.
while torturing my lil bro eng, and of course, CHINESE.
i'm so bored that i'm back to google, type some words, search, and read up on them.
soon, i'll go to the library, pay my fines so i can borrow books and eat them all up.
or better still , camp there.
tumbled across this website when i was finding information about my horoscope, cos i was just far too bored.
found it quite interesting.
cos it hit on the nail, BINGO!

Your Gemini will never take a train when she can fly. (yapps, who will)
She'll never be silent when she can speak. (uh, so long as its not in sch.true for outside sch life)
She'll never turn away when she can help. (hmmm.)
And she'll never walk when she can run. (i'm not gd at sports, but i walk fast :)) )
Her mind is full of so many thoughts and her heart is full of so many hopes, (ya, quite true)
she may seem to need a computer to sort it all out. ( a thumbdrive may help better?)
Or does she just need someone who can run beside her and toss dreams with her-from here to tomorrow? (not bad huh, sadly only a few can)
If you're that person, she doesn't dare look over her shoulder to see if you're near. (... ...)
Some deep, unexplained fear within her keeps her from ever looking back. (tell me why since u've guessed it.)
When you finally match her speed, get her to slow down to your pace. 　(like what?my pace of taking, thinking, or talking)

thats about it.
meanwhile, hope i can get that MDIS job.
though its admin= its boring.
but i'm...cash-starved.
meanwhile, think i cant post any pics today.
blogger is so lag nw :((

THE ALPHABET-

D
influences me somehw.
after shi mentioned sth abt e fb friend request
yapps.
according to her, that someone changed his name to D...
i dunno whats the exact name, but she dint accept him as a friend anyway.
the more i think abt those days, the more absurd i think it was...
of all
what is the underlying reason, factor, whatever....
i still cant figure it out
then again, it has already been more than 6 years,
whats the point of me knowing all those, when its already more than..like 2190 days.
i've even been thru with A lvls already
just let those memories remain where they are supposed to be.

i'm so freaking happy that AKIRA is ending their sales tml, FINALLY.
sad thing is-- i have to go there again tml :((
to buy some hi-fi set
like so dumb.
know what, i've got 6 steam irons for 6 bucks.
yapps
and its not 6 dollars each
is for all 6 irons.
wondered if i can steam food using all e irons.

a better week ahead?
at least i know weds is for movies, ikea and dinner
fri is sis results release and buy lil bro's textbks
sat is baking with maox
somewhere in between...
shopping for stationaries for siblings sch reopening
look for jobs,
and yes.
one more baking day for min.
and OH,i'm dead.
theres a wedding in some hotel on 27th
WHAT TO WEAR?!

HERE WE GO AGAIN.

INTO THE LAND OF THE LOST.
everytime i'm at home, my mind will wander off to this qns.
what are u gg to do this 8 mths
after that?
and later in your life?
then, u see a frustrated me, gg to play with my hamster
as if my hamster will gimme an ans.

i've never thought of life beyond like ...20?
cos i thought i'll just use my own set of ways to end everything.
yet, some things, some people are holding me back .
theres simply too many considerations before actions can be taken.
that sentence, comes to my mind just now,again

we all came to this world alone,
and we will still leave this world by ourselves, all alone.

just came to blog.
for random, sheer fun.
now that i've so much fun, think i'll upload all e pics real soon?
tml still have to wake up damn early for e queue again :(


i hoped i have interpretated it correctly,
not another mistake again

THE TALE OF ...

TWO BRAINS.
WHOSE?
MALES AND FEMALES.
sounds so fun.
it is true, and hilarious

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BxckAMaTDc&feature=PlayList&p=1D66FB4E24A120F2&index=1

anyway, went to AKIRA today at 6.
imagine, waking up at 5am(i dun even wake up this early when i go to MI)
taking the first few buses at six(and everyone's looking at u like a dong dong)
just to take e queue no to buy offer items
and yet was skower by 2 to qualify for the item:(
though there were some nice guys ard for my eye candy,
and someone frighteningly akin, similar to that motivation(that i wondered if it was actually him)
still, its tiring.
considering a walk thru bugis street and mall till 4 plus before reaching home.
PLAIN TIRED.

had late night talk below my hse again
chatted with min, then saw wx halfway.
then chatted with us when he was supposedly supposed to go sch to study.
abt this gal.
then it started everything.
the law of attraction...blah blah blah...
best thing that happened.
saw PMS guy with his gf.
pretended tt i dint see him and cont' chatting.
afterall, he went away after her gf went on board e bus :))
then cont' to chat.


conclusion was:
1. girls are animals that will never be satisfied with a male, even if they are perfect.its inherent
2.you can have nth, no $,no friends, no nothing--but you must have self-confidence, with this, you can get everything(sad la, i still dont have much of it)
3.once you have thoughts of giving up, you have already lost hope-you've also lost your purpose and direction in life
4.when you feel numb to everything, you are as good as being dead.(so i think i re-surrected a couple of times alrdy)
5. i believe that no matter what happens, a girl will still go bk to that 'he' that she decided on, even though she goes ard in circles, from guyA to B to C all the way to Z.


alright, i'm dead tired, off to nap.
suddenly, everyone is meeeting me for some baking sessions.
cupcakes, muffins, gingerbreadman.♥
and CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION ♥♥♥

i must be real bored to post 3 entries in less than 12 hrs.
sighs.
the more i think, the more lost i am.
shld i work for 3 months, or 6 months.
if i work for 3 mths, then its like i get my results bk.
then i dunno what to do after tt.
seriously, thinking of all these make me think that living is difficult, its miserable.
all those horrible 'is's that i imagined for my results.
its so...scary.
get me jobs pls.
anyone has jobs to spare?

off to bugis tml
but i cant possibly kill time off with friends all days right?

WE ARE......

SECOND!!!
although, its AGAIN.
at least we maintained!
MI got 2nd for e distance challenge.
at least, our sweat, aches and pains were worth it,

DEFINITELY <3!!!

STICKY , STICKY

MESS.
yes, absolutely.
i have totally no idea..abt hw i got into all these sticky mess,
that's left me, myself to struggle out of what it seems like a spider web
maybe it started since primary sch, or secondary, or somewhere, sometime thruout the 19 years.
something must have gone wrong, and i dont know what's wrong
and so neither can i do anything to fix it right.
so, someone tell me what is the problem so i can put it right.


meanwhile, i'm bored stiff at home.
still have to go AKIRA tml for some dumb sales with my muscle aches.
i wanna go out, hope days pass faster... ...
and suddenly, i dont feel like knowing what my results wld be
or rather--i have no courage to see it.

I'M AKIN TO--

A TISSUE PAPER,
A POST-IT PAD.
in terms of disposability


i discovered an amazing capability when i was coughing just nw.
my voice changes everytime after i cough, just tt its not bk to my org voice.
think i shall start reading stuffs on philosophy
discovered sth worth pondering--THEORY OF FORMS by Plato

''But if the very nature of knowledge changes, at the time when the change occurs there will be no knowledge, and, according to this view, there will be no one to know and nothing to be known: but if that which knows and that which is known exist ever, and the beautiful and the good and every other thing also exist, then I do not think that they can resemble a process of flux, as we were just now supposing''

ULTRA-SICK MODE :((

i still dont understand how pple actually think and act the way they are.

A WEEK.

almost there, after our last A lvls paper.
hmmm.
was stuck at home all day today, watching videos and shows.
and i dont even bother to step out of my com area, cos its simply too painful to walk even a single step.
wonder how i'll spend my days, such a long way to go.


again, after some readings, i certainly felt that my decisions based on my instincts is right afterall.
and know what?
this morning after i woke up, i suddenly told myself
let nature take its course
dont try to rush anything--nor stop anything.
just, simply accept it.
maybe it'll be better this way.



anyway, in a couple of hours time, it'll be one of my bestie's 19th birthday
YHAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, ICY

this gonna be the last time.

I RUN A MARATHON EVENT WITH NO TRAINING.
feel so miserable now
when u have ur gd sis visiting you halfway thru e race,
and u haven trained for it
and with cramps and stitches acting all tgt.
and the worst thing is that it is the first time i've had a highfever and nosebleed after a run
after i reached home and slept, woke up realised that nose3 had bled.
then for another 2 or 3 times while i woke up, it still bled :((
dont know what the hell is wrong with me.
I WANT WHEELCHAIR.

i saw......
2 sec sch guys, one of them which asked a dumb qns during sec sch days
the hamster face qns.
HAHA.
and i think i saw my cousin too.
BUT, all not running
one is medical staff, another is supporters.... -.-'''

ITS DEC 6 AGAIN!!!time for...

MARATHON.
yes, and dont ask me hw e hell i'm gonna make it thru this year.
cos i haven run for ages.
and i think my monthly gd friend is gg to visit me by tonight
and i'm out home tonight till tml.
so call my HP.
mum went on cruise :(
dad's at work.
bro and sis went out :((
me alone at home with dear hamster.
suddenly, i started to miss home alrdy.
countless times, woke up to realise that my pillow was wet,
esp after the last paper.
you just feel at a state of utter desperasion to know what you really want.
and i want to stay at home somehw, but theres marathon tml morning
i feel like staying at home for e next 3 months, but sadly, we have to find work!
sighs.
think i gonna spend the night again at somerset, then cityhall and marina square as usual.


when i re-visit those times, i seriously feel that there may be sth impt i missed out,
but i still cannot manage to figure it out.
kindly enlighten me....

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered.
It keeps no record of wrongdoing.
It does not delight in evil,
But rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves.
There is nothing love cannot face;
There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things that last forever:Faith, hope, and love;
But the greatest of them all is love.

我累了
全天下应该只有我笨到去相信你，
把你当朋友吧原来真心换来的只是谎言,空头支票，
还真讽刺啊
把人们玩弄于股掌之间很好玩，
很有趣吗？
有些人在一年看穿你
有些人用两年
而我却用了三年。
我应该为我至少到最后有看清你的真面目感到庆幸吗？

its okay,will take it as a lesson learnt.
just tells me one thing that people cant be trusted.
have to run on sun, but havent trained yet.
wondering if i can make it.
these few days, thinking abt the days in MI,
thpse time spent in lessons, crapps, breaks, was all so fun.
and i realised that i may have missed out sth all along.
a fact that i had dismissed, and deceived myself,
maybe its clearer to see it after everything has ended.
but maybe, its just coincidence, and it was just an mis-interpretation?
i sorted out everything.
that motivation, was just sorta a 'passing crush'

someone told me
you wld need the same amt of time to forget one as the amt of time you loved them.
this is...so untrue.


just realised that this world is totally ridiculous.
i'm living in a ridiculous world, with some ridiculous pple.
WOW.
and it took me years to understand this theory.

MISTAKES.done and cant be un-done.

IT WAS A GRAVE MISTAKE THAT GOD MADE,
ever since 7135 days before today.

KNOW WHAT?

a lot of things finally had light casted on.
3 years have past
my A lvls are over.
it was just 5 rows beside
i've completed formal educatuion
and, i've really lost myself.
i need to find jobs.
to kill off 4 months.

off to cine for sushi buffet tml ;)



there are many things that i know i shldnt do,
yet i still do them.
there're pple i know who wld hurt me,
but i still choose to stick with them.
i dont know.
can anyone tell me the reason?