LOGIC

there are some questions in the world that will never have answers
some events happen and there are reasons for why they happen
but there are also some events and questions that doesnt have logic.
and it happens so frequently.

NEVER-ENDING

these days are so lost
there's no direction to be found
thousand thoughts flashing thru my mind
i caught one and looked at it intently
it triggered off a spark
that little tiny spark seen
seemed to lead me to the fire
the fire of memories
once started
there was no way to end it.
afraid that i would lose them again
i wrote them on a piece of paper
a piece of paper dint seemed to be enough
i wish that i could turn those into matter,
holding them close to me
though i know that they would always,
always be in the pocket of my heart.

the events that happened 6 years ago,
i guess i wont be able to forget it no matter how hard i try
the time, the smile, the tears, the words, that person.




my right feet is so painful.
it hurts when i walk.

NINETEENTN BIRTHDAY :)

ITS HAS COME TO THE DAY WHERE...
I HAVE TO WAIT FOR ANOTHER 81 YEARS.
TO HAVE BIRTHDAY STARTING WITH ONE.
haha, but today was quite nice.
pple sang songs for me, i got my STITCH(AND I LOVE IT LOTS)
I SHOOK HAND WITH ALOT OF PPLE, RECEIVED ALOT OF MSGS.
and some whom i dont evem know who.


THANKS TINA AND SITI FOR MY CAKE AND GIFT, NOT FORGETTING LONG.
haha.
due to time constraint(i have to study for chi test tml),
I CANT HAVE A LONG POST.

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR WISHING ME BIRTHDAYS, SHOOK YOUR HANDS WITH ME,SEND ME MESSAGES, GIVING ME PRESENTS. HOPE YOU ALL ENJOYED THE CAKE
:)

AND.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LONG MAOX.
I TOLD U I WLD WISH U AGAIN AFTER 6 HRS U WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIGHT.
HAHA.
HAVE A NICE DAY <3

ps:i'll post up the photos asap.
NITES.

SLEEP zZzZzZz (T.T)

woke up this morning very blur-
cant believe MIOO has ended.
HEHS.


I'VE UPLOADED THE PIX IN FACEBOOK :)

lazy to upload in BLOG
tml is MIOO holiday :)
but i dunno what to do :(
SO SIANS.
SIGHS.

post-MIOO

AHEM.
I THINK MIOO WAS A SUCCESS.

at least for the formal ceremony.
but not so sure for the carnival
it was so disappointing.
food supplies ran low.
long waiting time
organisation was messy
etc...
NVM.


shall give a short timeline of what happened today

morning:went for ake, carried instruments to hall, make-up&change
rest of the time +backstage: CAM WHORING.
performed.
had our lunch
CAM WHORED IN E ROOM
carried bk instruments.
changed
CAM WHORED IN CANTEEN.
went ard e sch
WENT HOME.

i was practically CAM WHORING THE WHOLE DAY!
took pictures with my ake frens, classmates, teachers,and MR LIM!
HAAHAHAHAHAX.


on the other hand, is very weird.
i feel very weird.
MOODY.
missed MI
and i'm still inside it.
imagine when i graduate.
and a lot of other things too.
all those nice times, memorable moments.
i think happy times flies.
thats why i hope MI was a 4 or 6 year course.
HAAHS.


i'm one un-understandable creature :(


will upload e pics soon.
I FEEL VERY TIRED

pre-MIOO

AS USUAL.
REHEARSAL.
THE REHEARSALS ARE EATING UP OUR LESSONS.
FORTUNATELY AND UNFORTUNATELY.
i skipped my cca again.
haahs
for the practice.
dunno why i feel like skipping so many things these days.


in the morning, i think i saw the funniest scene ever.
pple screaming ang yelling 'YAY' when the fire alarm came
it cldn't be heared in centrestage though, but there's this..
very cool two bright white lights blinking.
and so we went to rehearsal
i almost choked to death during my break.


anyway, during rehearsal, i think a cough virus decided to attack me.
and i cldnt do anything.
cos we were performing.
then went to tampiness with tina*finally back*
hmm.
went to eat at subway
there's this particulaly cute guy.
(whom we thought if he was in MI he might have won over AM and K)
i was like gg to get the water.
pressed for barley
plain water come out.
so tina asked for assistance
it took them quite a long time to install.
cos they got several drinks to refill.
so we waited
then after 30 mins,
he pasted sth.
so we thought we'll get ice lemon tea.
when i went there....
i realised there was sth written.

"SORRY, i'm dry :("

HAAHAS.
SO HILARIOUS.
then i came home, played with my 2 darlinks.
tml still got so much things to do.
MIOO.
i feel like shouting MOO instead.

6 years..
has it been so long?

you will always be my memory..GOODBYE, mr lim, our dearest teacher

i think i never started a day nor ended a day this badly.
with such vast sadness, feeling void.
guess what?


i dint thought that anything would change, at least not in MI
but today, i learnt my lesson.
it was near to the end of IRP.
then mr lim(george) left the class.
when he came back, saw edlyn they all coming in.
was wondering why...
he said that he was leaving.
as in transfer to another sch.


actually knew this sort of long ago.
when tina told me she overheard the conversation
between mr lim and mrs meya behind the stadium
cos we always tried to stand behind.
so i felt..sort of blank?
i only start to feel it until now.
a bit slow ...ard 8 hrs.
he carried a guitar, flashed a paper of lyrics.
then sang to us.
HE SINGS REALLY WELL.
and my whole class cried.
most of them, at least.

he took the song- ALWAYS BE MY BABY.
edited some of the words.
and it became-YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY MEMORY.
something like....

********************************************

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY MEMORY

we were as one,babe, for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting that we would always be one
now i've decided to leave, and you're letting me fly
cause' you know in your heart, babe,our love will never die,no


you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
oh don't you know i can't forget you
ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my memory

and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way, nothing's gonna shake me
ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my memory

i ain't gonna cry
no, please don't beg me to stay
now that i've decided to leave,let it just be the way
but inevitably, we'll meet up again
Ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my memory



you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
oh don't you know i can't forget you
ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my memory

and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling so strong
no way, nothing's gonna shake me
ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my memory

and we'll linger on
no way, nothing's gonna shake me
ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my memory

*********************************************

such a nice song, sadly
he's been our home tutor for ard 2 and a half years.
and he''s leaving us soon.
i still remember his lame jokes
his maths lesson
the care that he has shown to our class
the nice smile he has.
HAHA.
he's a really nice teacher
thought we should wish him our best in his new school
and WORK HARD for him and for ourselves.
so we won't disappoint him.

well, i had a hard time though
dint eat anything till i reached home.
cause he sang to us before the start of lessons.
then after that was PE.
so my volleyball was very HORRIBLE.
the ball came and..
i was in a stance.
hit my shoulder and bounced off.
i was like ???
after that, the ball came and..
i squat down, let the ball bounce off.
then after PE, had CHI test.
dint have mood to study, think i gg to fail terribly.
then mgt
also got test, no mood to study also.

but i realised one thing
the sch he's gg to will move soon in 2010.
i think.
to opp. the stop where i take my 174.
MUAHAHAHAS.
which means it is actually still near
and i may get to see him
HAAHS

as a chinese saying goes,
ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END.
i'm contented that i met you, had such a great teacher like you to teach me
THANK YOU.
WISH YOU WELL WHEREVER YOU GO, WHATEVER YOU DO.
may the stars shine on you :)

ps:but dont u think it is such a nice 'present ' when its exactly one week before my burfday?
for freaking such a sad news huh?
so 'MEMORABLE ' and UNFRGETTABLE.
I WONT FORGET IT.

countdown, still counting XD

COUNTDOWNS.
i've got a lot to countdown actually.
lets say for A lvls.
its 172 days.
i think so.
cos my 1st paper is on the 2nd.
and its h2 chi lang!
OH...
and 1oth is H2 CHI LIT.
will get KILLED de la.


on a brighter side, its only abt one more week to my nineteenth birthday.
MUAHAHAHAHAs.
*not really bright cos i've become older*
seems like so many pple's burfday falls on may.
HAAHS.
cos i hear birthday songs in canteen every now and then
how i wish i cld skip nxt thurs lessons to go celebrate
anyway, i skipped my CCA today
really kinda had enough of rubbish in sch
what's the fuss over MIOO.
my pri sch had the first lady=our president's wife to visit our school.
and it was such a nice event, minus all those stuff happenning now.
seriously, luckily its only minister.
had it been PM, who knows what they will do.

i have more than valid reasons to support my pon-ning of CCA today.
1. i only stated that i would commit till SYF(which is over by almost gg to a month soon)
2.i have to study and do my revision since they eat up my time
3. i have ard 3 tests tml.
4. i have ard 2-3 essays to write
5.i think that my studies have priorities over CCA.

above are the reasons stated.
HAHAHAHA.
sounds so inconvincing huh.
but you'll understand if you were in my position somehow
my math has already screwed up
and i felt like ending my life the moment i got the result
luckily its only a h1
but sadly an impt one too.
i have to ensure i push my H2s grades where i can do better than H1s to higher grades,
like Bs or As(personally i feel that As are a bit too far-fetched)
its just 3 more days.
before MIOO ends and i can rest my mind off those matters clinging on to my head, my brain, screwing me up.


I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH.
maybe will go on MON.
find my chinchilla along.
see whether she wants to skip her lessons.
HAHA.


ps:LONG MAOX.
if you see this post tell me whether you free on 18th.we go beach!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i know you must be saying that i go'siao liao'
hehs. :D

there are so many things pressing me.
i feel so suffocated.
i can't breathe.


i wished i were a bubble
a bubble that vanishes silently,
disappearing into the air
from the surface of the earth.

skipping craze

today is MAY DAY!

which means i having my birthday after 20 days.

muahahahahhas.

the 21st..

which so happens on a thursday.

putting this aside...

i skipped mgt class on thurs.

last 3 periods=2 hrs

cos there was a test

wasnt confident to pass it at all

so i dint bother going.

i already had 2 tests before that on the same day.

like what the...

i'm sorry if anyone is not hyappy with what i'm doing,

and u pple may feel that i'm not taking my work seriously

seriously, with all those CCAS

and MIOO rehearsals going on and so much tests junked at us

ALL AT ONE GO,

i cant even handle usual sch work, let alone revise for A lvls.

to add on, the erratic weather that has been a great challenge for one's health.

look here, i'm not SUPERWOMAN ehs.

i'm just an ordinary human being.

i only have 24 hours per day.

i'm so happy it's gonna last for 2 more weeks and everything wld be bk to normal

at least, thats what i hope.

so, where did i went

i PON with adeline lo.

she pon her poly, i pon my MI.

then went to cut her fringe,

after that go yew tee point.

then went bk to her hse to do my "C.I.P"

HAHAS.

was so much relieved after that

such a long time since i spent time with my friends.

I LOVE STITCH <3

THIS STITCH LOOKS SO...


LOST, like me in my current predictament

AND AND AND!

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS STITCH(YOU!)