Wednesday, September 26, 2007

GOD.
finally ended my
gp chi lan, econs n mgt paper.
for promos.
frm mon to weds bia
ytd alomost fainted at 12 am like tat.
wanted to study econs.
in e end felt my head a bit imbalance
hais
then~
DIE la.
i hve a feeling i'll flunk all my papers
then i'lll be KICKED OUT
or shld i withdraw?
haish..
left one paper.
nxt thurs de.
my CHI LIT.
must memorise many thingys ah
die de liao lorhs.
fri goijn cut hair
long maox nvr work at dano le.
hahaahs.
then mayb go bugis also.
lol
relax a bit
then must bia agains.
so poor thigy.
but after nxt thurs.
i still have to wait for e followin weds
to reopen sch officially
then 19th oct gt wa promo day
also dun nid to go
then 26 oct is e last day of sch
hais.
time flies really fasy, isn't it

one day seems a few weeks when i cant get to see you for a day.
especially when my throat is so damn infected.
i have the bear the unberable pain inflicted.
hw... cld i stop it?

Sunday, September 23, 2007

hmm.
on week nvr blogged.
nt free
ntfeeling very well also
stressed up by promos.
coop myself in rm stud stduy n still study.
hopeless de la me
hope can pass promos.
cos i really dunno wad to do if withfraw fr MI.
hais.
sore throat started on thurs
then that PE teacher
ms ANG.
still ask us to go tennis court.
then sae wad presentation.
in e end.
we all play captain ball inside
all the same.
i still play defence la.
n i throw high balls only.
hahas.
enjoyed myself.
but besides getting tanned-
it made my condition worst
by friday i was havin slight fever.
bcos too heaty.
lol.
sounds ridiculous.
bu this is my body condition la
too heaty sure can sore throat.
then will trigger off high fever.
which i cant afford to
as it is less than a week 2 promos.
then drank lotsa herbal tea.
8 tablets of sore throat medicine in 2 days
when i'm supposed to eat only 6.
then today come my monthly gd fren
desperate for choc
cos i alwaes ea that when i have my 'tat thingy'' la
then nw cnt eat
cos sore throat
wan to drink herbal tea to cool my body
but cnt.
cos i have my M.
idiotic la
can only suffer n STRUGGLE.
I'M FED UP MATHS.
STUDIED ORGANISATION STRUCTURE OF MGT.
GP ESSAY NOTES.
LOTSA OF THINGYS TO BE DONE
PRAY FOR ME TO LIVE THRU' PROMOs
and PASS IT.
HAIS~

Sunday, September 16, 2007

nvr blog ytd.
ahahas.
cos me n adeline slept over at shi yun hse
lols.
feeling better.
we drank BREEZER and VODKA~
at TWO in e morning today.
then long maos drank le face damn red.
me nth happened.
hahas.
bought 4 bottles.
peach,lime,green apple,raspberry
and the last one sux
taste like fever syrup i get at polyclinics.
GOSH.
after we drank.
become warmer.
cos her rm she go on air con very cold.
then admire the night view at shi yun hse.
just opp her hse only.
feeel very stupid for me to slp over at her hse
cose my hse in front of hers a bit nia.
hahas
anyway
nxt week maybe go chi garden.
look at e lights.
mid-autumn.
make myself as happy as possible.
hahas.
cnt too stress.
if not i prom,os die.
and i still cant seem to catch or grasp the simplest idea of
WHO I LIKE.
tml gt sch los.
counting down.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

emms.
i'm BURNED.
during PE.
dun bother to talk abt it.
so sians.
after sch went jp.
wif adeline.
anyway
saw supervisor.
as i expected
chen xuan was transferred to dano.
will be goin out with her.

walked in jp.
till 9pm like that
but i nvr see sha qi.
he gt work la.
my in charge said de.
she still gt c him-
lols.
then.
just crapped.
adeline asked me y i dun wan get his no
i almost gt it.
but
maybe it wasnt meant to be.
my in charge lost it.
hahass.
going to ton at sy's hse on sat.
bringing alcoholic drinks also.
haha
ask my in charge help me buy.
need to de-stress
feel better nw.
thka,
my long maox, ADELINE.
wahahas~

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

i'm bored
and stressed
so many work to do.
played monkey during PE ytd.
was supposed to play VOLLEYBALL
ENDED up wif MONKEY.
ni ceright.
hahaas.
anyway.
i still got loads of work to do.
just now there was an EARTHQUAKE>
in sri lanka.
s'pore cld feel e shakings too
cos siti msg
asked ne whether gt feel e shake.
ps.
i live in JURONG west
NOT THE JURONG east DERE.
COS JE THERE GT AFFECTED.
BUT SHE LIVE IN ST 41 THERE.
I LIVE AT ST 91
AND SO.
I WAS WATCHING MY SHOW HAPPILY.
HAHAAS.
TMR'S GP IS GOING TO BE FUN
DATING?
LOLS.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

数不尽的泪

我又哭了好几回

幻化成蝶 

停留在这片落叶

被风化的雪 

埋藏在千年以前

我用尽一生的思念 

只为等著你出现 回忆 

渐渐凋谢落在我身边

唤不醒原来还跳动的画面

就让我留在轮回的边缘 

等一道光线

看见某年某月我们之间 

曾经说(有)过的预言

就让它带走你的那瞬间 

成为我们的纪念

谁能发现我的世界 

曾经有过你 的脸

Translation:

The endless tears I've cried a few tmes again

I transform into a butterfly and rest in this fallen leaf

The snow was melted by the wind was buried a thousand years ago

I've exhausted a whole life of yearning just to wait for your appearance

Memories gradually wither and fall by my side

I cannot rouse the moving images from before

Just let me stay on the brink of reincarnation and wait for a ray of light

Looking back at time at the predictions we've once made

Just let that moment where it took you away become our memory

Who can realize that my world once had your presence

nice song.





no mood to blog.
sch'd starting tml.
i'm depressed.
wad shld i do.
i cant supress.
loads of work n revision undone.
will i stay.
i'm unhappy.
and i love this song.
like e situation i'm in like tat.
sobs.
wad will happen tml?

Thursday, September 06, 2007

well.
suddenly i feel so BLUE again.
dunno
maybe.
the step whereby i requested for a transfer to
jurong point's dano or match was a...
very BIG BIG MISTAKE.
and one whereby which i cant let go even after ..
abt 5 months.
popular is shifting down.
sobx.
tat means i can only go cut my hair or
eat at lai lai
in order to see him.
i really really wished i did not worked there.
but NEVER ONCE.
NEVER ONCE did i
REGRETTED working in jp.
pple being nice to me.
getting ll the nice customers to serve and crap wif.
enjioy the times where we joked.
we laughed.
the times we all trying to look ut for cute guys.
the times we were scolded due to
LOW SALES.
the times where we had to open and close shops.
and the BEST VALENTINE'S DAY I EVER HAD
EVERDAY WAS LIKE DAYS FLYING PAST.
i really wonder why the time cant stop.
and let me catch all those
very very SPECIAL MOMENTS.
like wad zihui siad.
i cant go to jp too often.
bcos ever since we worked there.
it has become a different place to us.
we cnt behave like normal shoppers.
HOW LONG WILL THIS LAST.
even till this very moment.
i still cannot let go og everything there.
maybe i'm too sensitive.
but-
WILL TIME HEAL EVERYTHING AS THEY HAVE SAID BEFORE.
IS THIS SAYING TRUE ?
Isn't that what we wanted all along
Freedom like a stone
Maybe we were wrong
But I can say goodbye
Now that the passion's died
Still it comes so slow
The letting go
p.s:AND I CANT SEEM TO LET GO.
Letting go. It is difficult for us in so many ways and on so many levels. Yet life calls upon us to do it, over and over again. Letting go is part of our growth process. We cannot move on to the new while continuing to cling to the old. There come times, in the context of love and romance, when we must learn to let go. For some of us, as described in the song, we must let go of a past romantic relationship. Maybe the relationship was not meant to be: perhaps it was hurtful to us, or perhaps it was hindering the personal or spiritual growth of one or both partners. In this case, even when there may still be feelings of passion, or attraction, or just the comfort of the familiar, we must be strong in letting go of something that is unhealthy for us. … Perhaps we have no problem leaving the person behind, but we continue to harbor animosity. In this case, we need to let go of the anger: holding onto anger does not serve us - and it might even serve to create problems in our physical health or emotional well-being. … In the realm of romantic relationships, some of us need to let go of unrealistic expectations. Whether we have idealized a past relationship or just read too many romance novels, some of us need to let go of the myth of the perfect lover: the fantasy of a relationship that requires no work and just brings us "happily ever after." By letting go, I am not implying "to forget" or "to ignore." By all means, we should carry with us the happy memories and the lessons we have learned from our past relationships. However, we need to let go in the sense of releasing emotional baggage we may be carrying around with us, so that we may be open to, and present for, a new relationship.
There is a saying: Let Go, Let God. For most, if not all, of us, the letting go that we most need to do is a type of surrender. We need to surrender to life, itself. This means that we need to let go of our illusion that we actually can control most aspects of our lives. In many cases, rather than to fight "what is," we need to learn to accept and to be at peace… Too many of us are trying to keep a tight grip on things that are out of our control. This is like trying to grip the water flowing in a river. Put your hands into the river. If you try to get the water by grabbing it and clenching your fists, it goes right out of your hands. If you relax and open, gently cupping your hands, the water flows into your palms. By relaxing, opening, and trusting, we can hold onto more of what is precious to us. By letting go, we actually allow more of the mystery of life to come in for us.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

my gosh.
i feel so tired today
for no reason.
and sick too.
went to JJC to get notes from my yuhua laoshi.
YIFANG!!!
waaah.
she slapp my bk very pain lehs.
lucky gt bring jacket.
thanks anyway.
fer all ur notes.
hahas.
then in e end cnt make it to find hafizah dey all.
sobxXx.sorriex.
feel my temp. shootin up.
why.
i dunno
i miss someone dearly.
forno reason
i must be out of my mind.
lol
tmr still hab to go sch.
sians.
hahas.
loook forward to seeing YOU.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

went jp
watched ratatoolie.
nice show.
shaw that sissy at sandstorm
e edgeof my mout cant help put keep goin up
seein all e familiar faces at jp 2nd flr.
haha
n i din c my in charge at vid.
dunno she at dano or where.
anyways.
i saw sha qi
but he was kinda concentrated o cutting pple's hair
haha
i saw his side view nia.
sobxXx.
then e osim guy
hahas.
dun tok abt it.
tml goin to get notes frm yifang
then go study wif hafizah
BROKE.
I'M BROKE.
mood's nt too good these days.
i really stressed over many thingys.
can anyone answer this question.
WHAT HAPPENS WHEN U FALL FOR SOMEONE WHOM U SHLD NT OR CNT FALL FOR?
WHAT CAN YOU DO.

Monday, September 03, 2007


hols r here.

but i feel kinda boring.

yapps.

u dint hear me wrongly.

i said its BORING.

n the funnty thingis that i have many things to do.

well. lets start from today.

i have to finish my holiday assignment all by tml.

then tml still hab to go jp.

watch movie.

n c shuai ge at e same time

well.

that is provided if he is still there.

hahas.

they shld have forgotten me by nw la.

so shld be quite save to walk past there.

anyway i still have to buy pen

ink finish le.

then weds

take notes fro yifang

thurs.

9-11 am gt mgt lectures.

1~4pm gt maths lesson.

fri.

9-11 am gt mgt lectures again.

other than that.

i still have to revise

ALL MY WORK

ALL THE FIVE SUBJECTS.

OMG.

i rather have my H1 chi bk.

argggh

we dun take h1 chi cos we h2.

then pple gt 3 hi we only gt 2.

sad case la.

must BIA my MATHS.

MGT.ECONS.CHI LIT/COMPO.GP

praticaal ALL.

SO SAD

AND THERE GOES MY SO-CALLED ONE WEEK ''BREAK''

so much fer a break right.

hais.

resig to fate.


suddenly one phrase or saying wadeva it is

is stuck and ROOTED IN MY MIND

SAID BY SHAKESPEARES..


"TO BE OR NOT TO BE"

GET IT?

HAHAS.


AND I LOOK FORWARD TO REOPENING OF SCH
AND MOVIES.
MISSES*