ermx.
feeling better today.
al least better than ytd.
heh.
but during math and chem.
damn irritated ahs.
jus feel like dying.
during maths
i still cried.
if shedding tears is
considered as crying
anyway.
during SS

felt happier.
dey were discussing abt'
the graduation night
or shld i say after noon.
go dere for high tea.
i nth better to do if i go.
bo liaos.
waste money.
then we maybe go use tat cash
to rent a chalet
and play till siao.
waahaas.

aftersch.
went adeline's chi klass.
dey writing compo.
i helped adeline write.
finish entire compo in
abt 2o mins.
cox i wan leave sch earlier.
dun wan to see somebody.
jux makes me sad la.
so i write fast fast lolx
then janice say my brain fake de.
write and think so fast.
then mei ting also shocked by my speed.
ermx.
i've to write fast lols.
if not dunno wait for tat adeline wait tillhow long.
and.
SHE'S THE ONE WHO WANS ME TO ACCOMPANY HER TO LOT ONE NEHS.


haahs.
then we went lot one.
we ate long john silver.
adeline was so obsessed with her comic tat
she didn't even discover
janice keep adding coke to her sprite.
right in front of her somemore.
we laughed off our head.
then she ask.
wad happen.u all siao ahx.
waaahs
she no feeling de.
then we add agains.
almost halfof janice coke went to her cup.
omg.
she still didn't discover it.
we laughed till like siao.
haha.
she finally discovered it when she was going to drink it.
woah.so many.wad happen.
we there laugh and laugh

after tat.
wnt pet shop
saw hamsters.

1 week old only VERY KAWAII NEHS!!!
i'm obessed wif hamsters.
i admit.
HAAHS.
then went to take neoprints.
with bilan, adeline and janice.
turned out we didn't had enuff time to decorate it.
nvm.
we wereso blue.
due to we putting it super white.
then we went home.

i went wif janice to jp.
reached there at abt 7pm.
went to 77th street.
hen sports link
she see her cap
i see moii wallet
then went wallet shop[
saw mun yee and lydia.
theywere SOAKED.
stunned*
HEH.

then janicesay quickly choose.
could't choose one i like.
she hab t save $ for presents.
hahs.
then went home.
reach home at abt o7 3o pm
then bathed.
did revision.
came to blog
ltr watching tv show.
haahs.
continue nxt time.

-x because of you x-

sadness revolves.

sadness revolves ard moii.
dunno wad happened today
cried during maths.
kinda felt
helpless n mserable
emotions swing.
dunch noe.
dun ask me anything.
i dunno

after sch.
went chem remedial.
the wait for janice
decided to play wid therain.
then become wet.
tehn like siao gal liketat.
dunno many thingys
i was too innocent
to think abt the thingx i tot
but theyweren't thru.
haah.
stupid me.

went cdac.
yifangtoday got tournament
bb ball.
then they all win la.
pro lols
then.
i say she very bad la
then she say.
HAHA.
i wasn't in any mood
to laugh anywya.
couldn't bring moiiself to laugh
when u wan to cry right.
feel like my head's breaking.

hoipe i'm not sick tml.
shldn't have played wid the rain.
if i sick better.
die le better
or shld i use maii old methods of
cutting wrists with penknife agains
when i was in sec 1 or 2.
i didn't regret doing tat
i regret not cutting deep enuff to kill myself.
whycan't i die earler.
hais.
hope i can die earlier.

-x because of you x-

continue frm jux now.
just finished watching moii tv show.
waahaas
nice show lols.

suddenly recalled
abt tml wanting to go sch or nort.
cos i dun wan to present.
haiis.

i wun present.
if i really really hab to present.
she can be guranteed tat
i will give her attitude everyday.
from tml onwards
if tats wad she wants.

tmr got pe.
standing broad jump.
maii target = 18o cm.
hope can break maii record of
177 cm last yr.
this yr sure die de liao
havea feeling .
hahas
if i tio tat thingy i run 2.4
i dun need to try also noe will fail de larx.
cos experience before.
today
suddenly decided to
strive my best in F&N and CHINESE
i hope to do well.
without english.
it is impossible to pass.
think so.
it's cambridge nehs.
england.
link to english.grammer.
blahs and more

so having the content is not enuff.
linking the thingx u write and people
understanding it is most important.
hahax


hope tat i can make use of maii grammer
successfully
did a survey
by mr lawerence
title.
MOTIVATION.
then asking lotsa crapx.
got one qns.
WHAT/WHO IS YOUR MOTIVATION.
my answer
MY COUSIN WHO IS IN THE SAME KLASS AND ME.
AND ALWAYS GETTING TOP
AND HIS RESULTS.

hais.
dunno lehs
seems like i've become dumber
than BEFORE.
no choice.
i stupiid mahs.
hais

and according to moii horoscope.

geminni ish
*Changeable,
*agile
*dexterous
*communicative
*versatile
*restless
*lively,
*alert,
*literary
*sociable
*intellectual.

dunno wad the hell dey saying
sleeeping.
-x because of you x-

hating herself

wad the hell did i do today.
i dunno

was sleeping thru agains.
going to flunk maii mid year agains.
hais
but hope chi can get A1.
pull up everythingy.

during assembly
i was suffering
from the heat
i did cry.
due to the heat.
coz was very uncomfortable.
very sick
like yesterday.
very .
suffocated
difficult to breathe ahx
then frustrated.
the only one thing i cnt stand
is HEAT!!!
so hot..
then yesterday so cold.
horrible weather.
cold then cold la
hot and cold for wad the hell.
o.O...


after sch
got chinese orcheatra.
wanted to went out to buy bubble tea.
then i sit at the gate there.
fanning maiiself.
so hot!!!
then went bk to canteen.
went out agains.

after drinking.
till hot.
i must be mad these days
hais.
poOr me-
T.T

then in the end went to
com lab
dunno lab 1 or 2.
anyway.
helped tow peng balance her one day diet
carbohydrate too high.
then went to do maii menu card
overall is okay.

after tat.
finally went for co.
cld stay in music room
coz i in performance for speech day
need to practice
but.
i still cleared the song.
the beat.
me and joianna keep missing.
some slow
some fast.
dunno wad to do.
in the end still get it right.
=)

went bk to maii grp at #o2-o4 to slackk
haahs.
janice they all trapped
between classroom blk and water cooler.
waahs
then they call mr wong.
poor them.
=X

then we went home.
at bus stop
janice and we all
said many lame jokes
haha.
then waited for bus 99
for 45 mins or 3o mins?
damn long lols
cramped.
reached home at o7 3opm like tat.
hais.
very late.
then bathed and makan-ed.
then blogged.
hmm.
maybe i'll continue at night.
hais.
tmr still hab phyics remedial.
then maybe go 4b de chemistry remidial.
c first la.
coz after tat still hab to
go fer cdac at night
7 pm reach hkss for cdac
hais.
so sians.
wait till 9pm then tuition finish.
waahs.
wanna die.
i dun wan to present.
i hate MRS PEH!!!

every time PRESENTATION YOU NOT SIAN I VERY SIAN
AND TELL US BRING TXBK
NEVER TEACH
HEAVY U NOE
I WUN PRESENT MEANS I WUN
'DUN MAKE ME SHOW ATTITUDE TO YOU
I RATHER GET BETA THAN PRESENT.
OR GETTING OUT OF UR KLASS
WASTE OUR TIME
AND I HATE GRP WORK
WITH PPLE I NOT VERY CLOSE WITH
GET THIS CLEAR!!!

i hate myself for who i am

=x o8 3opm x=
-x because of you x-

I'M SICK

TERRIBLY SICK.

and i dun wan to go to sch tml.
depends lah.
today almost sleeping all the time.

during phyics.
i slept thru almost the whole lesson.
cos
i felt cold.
then hot.
hot and cold like tat.
siao ahx.

then when bell rang.
maii cher c i still dun wan wake up.
HEH.
too sleepy lahx

eng lesson.
tat relief cher do debating with us
then when i talk to him horx
he answer bk
'u are debating against me ahx'
when i ask him for points.
he say
'i join ur grp better ritex.'
i said.
'i don mind'
then in the end
i keep calling him to maii grp.
probed abt his age.
he graduatedfrm hkss.
with a L1R4 of 8.
andL1R5 of 13.
omg.
if i was half as good as him.


jux now went to aiting home.
grill stingray.
checked out different chilli
in the end.
sch and hse mixed de is damn nice.

next week having my f&n o level practical.
tues.
8 - 11 am pon all lessons.
then 1 3o -2 3opm.
we going to canteen
eatour dishes there.
and evaluate.
hahax
two tables specially for us.
nice hors.
but cooking is headache lols.
must memorise time plan
forget then die.
hais

tml got assembly.
sians liao
somore still got POA remidial.
biang ehx
kill cher la.
i hate poa.
cos tats the only subj i worst at
followed by maths.
all linkin with numbers.
i sure die.

haissS-
i'm so hopeless.
helpless.'
dunno wad to do la.
hope life ends soon.
no misery.
no pain.
no nothing.
no everything.
no tears.
no joy.
no sadness.
no feelings at all.

i wish i was void of feelings.
heH

-x because of you x-

today had speech day rehearsal.
until six.
lols

dun wan to perform la
so tired.
make me chiong home and cum bk
hais.
so tiring.
started feeling depressed.
due to sth la.
hopeless like the song tian hui.
maii sky will neber be qing tian again.
due to tat stupiid him.

hais.
tat gal who want to beat me.
sec one.
and fat too.
i tell maii frenx dun need fight.
just fight at stairs.
kick her down.
and roll off.
K.O
then the result will be
i win!


haha.

anyway.maii fren.
scolded the wrong pple.
then a gal kanna scolded.
then the gal who want beat me say sorry to me.
say was jk.
so CB.
wan to beat then beat la
beat till i die better.
dun wish to live in this world

only sadness revolves ard me.
kill me straight and clean
let me die
comfortably.
-x because of you x-

BORED.BORED.BORED.
STILL DAMN BORED.
currently makan-ing now
morning.
9.3o like tat.
went jp.
buy dunno wad.
cake.meat.eggs
then went home
cox no shop tuh shop

listened to tian hui.
the MV very nicee.
haha.
touching.

blogging ltr part of the day.,
at nightx
hahax

-x because of you x-

DAMN IT
DAMN IT
i sprained maii hand
at the wrist.
then si bei pain lor
maii left hand
and worst of all.
i hab rehearsal on mon
wad to do.
ltr cnt play then i die
now like BAI CIU like tat
can anyone pls kindly leave a tag
if u noe how to let maii hand get better.
thankx

-x because of you x-

hais.
just came back.
yapps
so tired

wasn't late meeting adeline
she was late
resulting in mii getting off tat 187.
hais

reached bukit batok
went to collect the cans.
maii name was signed by simon
which happens to hab the totally same name as me.
except there is an extra simon in front.
then the person
had to rewrite maii name
how could he sigh maii name
when he didn't see a simon.
question mark was on maii head
moii fens all say he dunno do wad.
wan to become gal ahx
haha...


went to bishan.
no pple

then i suggested went to orchard
somerset to be exact.
i just stood at the mrt entrance.
and pple auto came.
wakakaka.
then i got the most.
but i think i only hab abt 13 dollars or above.
better than nth
went cineleisure ate LJS.
then heeren.
went bk to bukit batok.
lols

erm~i also dunno when or where it was taken




mi and wm at bus-
these 2 pics

ok.
it's a VERY GOOD thing i'm feeling normal agains-
heh.

later still need to go flag day.
must go maii sch bus stop dere
change 187 to go to adeline hse
de bus stop.
meeting her at 11.3o
yawnx-
now ish 1o am only sia.
so sians at home
i going out at 1o.45
reach sch hus stop at abt.
11 oo to 11 3o?
then i sure die.
lols-
must go bukit batok somemore.
there is damn boring lols
i rather go TOWN.
SO LONG NEVER GO LE.
anyway.
wearing pe shirt.
still hab to wear sch u somemore.
and.
ytd.
the minister of education?
yapps.
came to maii sch
his car is mercedes de worx
when we went out of sch
he was going off too
his carno is 1783i think.
forget the last alphabet.
hais
then janicer say
the most expensive caris mercedes in s'pore
i said jaguar
she say jaguar no use de
buy mercedes then change
window to bullet proof all tat.
only need 4ooo++ nia.
i was dere.
OIIIC.
but i didn't noe wad she was toking.

just wan to leave hksS earlier.
end all misery.
hehs.
leaving hksS
i wun de sad.
but i wILL
COS I'MLEAVING MAII FRENS.
AND THOSE PPLE WHO GAVE ME DEEP IMPRESSIONS.
LIKE TOSE WHO DI SIAO-ED ME.
i'll remember them anyway.
who noes if i'll ever meet them again
in rest of maii life!!!!!!


haha.

YEAHS-
wang min finally send me bk the pic liaos.
after i cut maii hair.
anyway.

maii god....
WHO CAN SAVE ME FROM THIS FEELING
damn MISERABLE
and UNBEARABLE..

dunno wad to do tuh maiiself now
can anyone teach me.
i'm
CONFUSED
totally-
having mood swing.
i dunno wad it is la

JUST KEEP FEELING
DAMN DOWN AND LOW
hais
so sians.
today went jp.
ate kfc.
then went arcade.
then adeline bought a jacket fer mie
pinK one.
i like it very much.
then went pet shop
the hamsterx
are soo CUTE
irresistable sia.

maii lips bled.
today
didn't discover it
maii frenx told me.
dunno la.
mixed up
in no mood.
just went to go to the seaside
and shout out loud.
so far
TATS THE ONLY WAY FOR ME
EVERYTIME!!!

-x because of you x-

WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!!!

got teacher call me
and i dunno who's the teacher
die le.
WORST IF IS F&N CHER.
I SURE MATI DE...

hais-

at sch today.
TIRING
after sch.
got physics remedial.
anyway.
i didn't go
coz got chinese oral
then reading no problem
CONVERSATION
was disasterous.
I WANNA IMPROVE ON IT!
TO ACHIEVE MAII CHINESE O LEVEL
A1..

THEN ORAL TILL 2 HRS LIKE TAT
coz talking with maii cher mahx
then after tat wait for shi yun n janice
hais--

went for cdac.
no bus
reached there
saw some pple frm maii sch.
STUNNED
cox so late still got pple
hahax.
it was already 7.4o?

during cdac.
i got the photos.
from yifang class photo pri.6 de bahx.
then laugh till siao

MUSCLE ACHES
SAVE ME.
during pe today
we did sit n reach.
i only got 32.
to think i used to hab 47 cm.
tat was maii record
standing broad jump.
during demo.
i jumped 18o cm.
HAPPY!!!
reached maii target
wakakakakax
now.
stomach.back.hand.leg all pain pain
hais.
dun wan go sch le la

tml got go jp.
meeting them at 3pm at 187 booth
maii senior treating us to pizza hut.
wahha
so happy.

3 tears shed?
dunno
wan to forget EVERYTHINGY-

-x because of you x-

it seems like i am going to be busy
ESPECIALLY IN APRIL...

GOT MAII EXAM.
SPORTS DAY
SPEECH DAY
ALL BLAH BLAH BLAHX!

how am i going to cope with it huhx
i dunno larhx.

but april 4
f&n o level practical exam
O LEVEL lehs!!
so stressed
but.
can pon all lessons frm
8 to 11am
tatmeans after i ccok then
i go recess
wakkaka

on next mon.
got speech day full dress rehearsal.
yapps
2.30 after sch
then we can 1.3o leave class.
cos it starts at 2.3opm
haaahs.


so sians.
many thingx tuh do ahx-

have tried to forget
i almost succeed
somewhere there le.
yaahs
and must WORK HARD
=)

-x because of you x-

today is so HOT!!!
cos i was cooking grilled stingray.
wakakakx.
and it tasted nicE..
finished it during recess by all mai frenx.
lols.

some pple are so bo liao to misuse blog
and tagboard.
they still young .
nebermind de
hahas-

today was busy.
when i came tuh sch
straight away went to f&n rm
cox got practical
then gonna get all maii equipment
then.
we cooked this and tat.
i cooked foUR dishes.
in 1hr and 3o-45 minx.
think so.
thiunk can pass maii o level practical bahx
hope so lols

anD it SEEMS like i have forgotten him
as stated tat i only had last week
to forget all those stupiid thingx.
nvm

haix.

later goin to cdac
AGAINS
go bk to stupid hKss.
hopelesSs-

maybe go maii sch dere de cc
find maii senior

hmm.
goin to nap a while-
before i go to sch.

peace plS-

-x because of you x-

fine.
if tats wad tat person thinkx
i did not do anytin lols
he think i so free tuh do all tat izzit?
go die better larhx!

in a damn bad mood today
i'm alone at home.
right now at this moment
sis has gone fer concert
parents and younger bro went to movies

afternoon.
went wm hse.
watch her download songx.
tot it was already illegal?
she still did it anyway

watching tv.
nth to do mahs
looking forward to sch reopens.
seems tat sth will happen
cher's going to scold me
haven do maii assignments yet
hab been slackking the whole week-
so shuangx
haahaxx-


i wonder if the saying tat
when too much TEARS hab been shed.
there'll be no more tears.
no matter how SAD you are-
if onyl this was truE!

now.
i think it's not the right time
to say anything anymore.
since nth will be trust nor heard

or if i go on typing this post
i'll offend tat someone.
and i dunch wan tat tuh happen
blogging when i hab a better moOdx?

life's in a mesS...o.O
wished i was dead
then i wun noe any of his thingyx

-x because of you x-

wo zhen de shou bu liao le
hao fun ahx


hmm.
went wangmin hse' againx
almost all the time this few daes
i spent in her hse'
still watching the serial show
nicee
and touching
i lub xiao xue

today was darn boring lolx
wangmin and hai yan go je swimming complex
couldn't contact her
a pretty good thingy too
if not who noes whu i will meet if i go there.


but
wang min told me she met kun biao.
becuming more shuai lerx
cnt imagine i sat with him during p4.
the guy whu taught me hw to draw doraemon.
long time nvr c him le
but i remember
maii p6 klass
noe the gals and guys all bcum
chio and shuai le
didn't realise tat when i was still in p6.
how i wish i could go back.
to those happy times
when our whole klass was good
at playing captain ball-


anyway.
i'm giving maiiself one last week to forget him
ang concentrate on maii studies.


-x because of you x-

hais...
yesterday.
went ice skating.
lots of kids there
banging in all directionx
almost fell
but didn't.
lols.


now.maii leg
like swollen.
due to the shoes
haix
bai ka liao la.
not very serious.
but nerves and ankle feel like
being srained?
dunno lehs
not sure

about today
had to wake up at 6.45am.
just to go fer
moii chemistry remidal
guai horx
i never late
took bus 99 at 7.2o like tat.
reached dere almost on the dot
(=


during chemistry lessonx.
almost fainted
i mean i almost fainted.
cox i didn't eat brekfast and
think maii
sugar level in blood quite low
resulting in me almost fainting.
then mdm tay gave us biscuits to munch on
so good.
and also hab the chocolate.
i gort two.
cos she say i giddy then
gib me wan more..
hahas

after that.
i pon maii physics klass
by walking the other corridor
then went to maii fren de hse to sleep.
lols
cannot go home.
then at wang min hse.
continued watching.
then do this and tat.
then went back home.
went fer cdac.


at cdac.
yifang was telling me abt
maii sch de boyx
frm her pri sch
then i told her some thingy
tat she laughed off her head.

times fly really fast
already thinkin of how i'm going to die in maii o levels
how nehx
let nature take its course lolx-
we all got no choice wad.
hais
wad a sad world it is tuh be in!

-x because of you x-

ermx~
today i didn't wanted to stay at home.
anyway.
went to wang min's hse
slackked there.
used her laptop watched
qian nu you hun
nice and kinda touching.
one big good news

i'm going to ice skate
at jurong east entertainment there.
frm 1o am to 5-6 pm
ya.
very long ritex
need to bring maii jacket tml
shiyun and candice going to.
they decided
to pon mdm tay de remedial
cox they rather do at home

think also got many pple go bahx
the guyx.
lolx

watching the new tv show no
i really look forward tuh tomorrow
hope more pple can go.
then have lots of fun.
hahax (:


-x because of you x-

today.
spend almost the whole dae at schl.
hais
so sianx`

Doing F&N at sch
frm 1o am to 3 pm
who can stand it
and i'm facing the comn almost 9/1o of the time



but for the sake of maii f&n o level results.
i shall do moii best
gonna waste lots of paper
anyway.
there's only two subject i can depend on to get A.
which is chineSe and f&n.

when i was at bus stop waiting for bilan and ai ting
some stupiid pple do sth stupid
opp the road
staring at the air.
was there wondering if i noe the guy.
looked kinda familiar


then when we was walking into the sch gate
saw the a class de add.math pupils.
like all go outing like tat
dey were having a break-
so good..

after we do till very long.
chio bu came
didn't wan to open the door
in the end i stilll open

then pple cum he didn't wan to open fer them.
so when he wanted to cum him.
we stalled him fer a while
b4 letting him in

when he went to find cher
we went to his com
and typed

we are goin to mac and eat.
hab a good time doing~
buHbyEs...

jux to suan him.
lols.
and we went to mac to eat our lunch
at 3.30pm
more like snack ritex
anyway.stayed there till almost 4.3opm
saw they play ball.
got one guy throw the ball.
out of ten times.
i think he can only get the ball in for
nort more than 2 times.
hais
the ball
touch the brim fer the other 8 timex

then took bus home

and ltr need to go to sch again.
fer maii cdac.
going ask maii yuhua lao shi~yifang
teach me do mathx
she pro mahx-
maii personal tutor.
lolx

after cdac then continue

-x because of you x-

hmm.didn't blogged yesterday
cos i was sick
had cough, sore throat, cold, blocked nose
and a slight fever.
and this is wad happens
after i am soaked in a sunshine rain(tai yang yu)
stupid right
shld hab brought maii umbrella-

anyway
went to expo
bought a storybook
going there again
to buy more
then went westmall
went to zinc.
could't find bag we liked
i still think the bags at cineleisure there are nicer.


then went home.
and slept.
found out i had a slight fever
haix
wondering how i'm gonna die in maii o levelx
yapps.
dying
have to study veri hard nehx
hais~
bothered in maii heart.
dunno wad to do.
think more sad more
so forget about it lolx

-x because of you x-