phew~
just had nafaer test abt 3 or 4 plus hrs ago.
wahahahahs.
the remaing 3 stations were not too bad.
summarising everythingy:


sit up:35
incline pull up:20
standing broad jump:181 cm
sit&reach:56cm
shuttle run: 11.4 secs

i broke my record of stb , sit&reach, incline,
and i think shuttle run too, i think lah.
the stb part was the funniest
he insisted that i remove my socks.
cos it's thurs, not mon.
so, i did as he wanted.
1st jump was 179cm.
so happy.
the furthest i jumped wass 178cm in hksS.
and incline
i could barely do more than 3 in hkss.
the worst thing was the sit&reach.
cos my hand was shivering like hell.
i heard my classmates say that la.
cos i very cold mahs.
hahas.
at the very least,
I'VE FINALLY PASSED MY NAFAR TEST
but not really that sure for the 2.4km...
hehs.

You Can Change Your Life

You've probably already improved your life a great deal, and you're no stranger to change. You're able to make very difficult changes in your life. It's all about state of mind. And even if you have some trouble changing, you're smart enough to get support or take a different approach. So go ahead and dare to make things better. You know you can do it!

Can You Change Your Life?

oh, really?
then why cant i change my sch frm M.I to any POLY.

helped tina to cut her hair.

still must continue to cut tmr.

hahas

after sch went to the rehearsal

and i saw that nt-fierce-act-fierce teacher

such an eyesore.

anyway.

me and jasmine was like chaating and

reminiscing all the dumb stuff that we did while we were young.

biting a boy's hand when the mum was outside looking at us all e while

suckling some ball pens ink.

and i think she said she took the black one,

and i took the green one.

and we both stained our tongues.

then on her aunt's wedding day.

we were floral kids or wadeva.

and fighting over a pink hairpin.

i got orange in the end.

hahas.

and that time where we went chi garden..

blah blah blah...

those were so....

funny and nice and good days.
and in the blink of an eye,

1o++ years just flew by us.

time passes really fast~

and i still cant believe that we met in M.I in the end

after soooo many yrs.

hahaas

then were were reading the programme..

the script was like got the bimbo thingy.

then the 3 of us started to discuss abt the nt-qualified-bimbo

and we imagined how would the sch react if she said she was a bimbo.

haaahs.

had shark fin and bird nest after sch.

sounds so rich and high class right.

i forgt to add sth.

i bought the both at pasar malam.

waahahaaas.

=D

PE tml.

and i'm still not in a very right condition.

i shall not talk much today

i had my dumb nafar test

i feel so retarded.

running the 2.4 km when i'm feeling unwell.

my pace of breathing was totally in a mess.

i felt like dropping just after one round,

instead of the usual 4-5 rounds last year.

after which,

one PE cher ask our class why this year the results is like..

nvm.

forget abt it

i think its due to having insufficient rest.

the whole class has been chiong-ing all the way

and i dont even know why i dont feel well.

i just feel very weak.

temp going up and down.

and ya.

luckily i did not go to the H1 chi class

it's so damn bloOdy noisy.

i cant even concentrate and think properly.

how to write the compo.

sighs.

lets hope i recover soon.

maybe it's due to the stupid changing weather thats causing me...

my not-feeling-well

i think...

i will get dark circles by tml

i think...

i'll not survive thru PE tml

i think...

i'll die halfway in sch or faint due to overwork tml

i think...

i cant concentrate in class at all tml

i think...

i'll not be able to walk out of MI in one piece tml

AND ALL BECAUSE OF MRS MEYA.

why is she our GP teacher in the first place

throwing us a project less than a week and wanting to present

it's like HELL.

with all the chunks and loads of homework.

assignments, tutorials,tests.

and i should be in my air-con room nw.

tucked cozily in my thick blanket and soft bed.

but NO!!!

i'm still doing my research.

oh god.

and she is so unkind to mr wong.

he came at e wrong moment today.

wonder he he'll survive in sch in the future........

sighs*

it's just ytd that i said i'll try to be happy.

hw can i now.

when tmr got nafar test.

the best part is,

our dearest PE cher told us to get enough rest and sleep.

oh.

so sorry.

we are unable to that even though we would gladly do so

cos we got our projects to rush

if tml 2.4km.....

i dunno wad to say laaaaaaaarhs.

need to go do work and then sleep le.

buHbyEx~

x.X

i just realised that i have wasted another sunday, somehow

just thinking abt sch made me so stressed up

that pple i know almost all ask me to go for the

DAE this yr

or i might join the JAE if i want too.

You Are a Banana

You are mellow, easy going, and a total softie on the inside. People find it really easy to get along with you. You suit most tastes. And while you're very sweet, you're not boring or ordinary. You have an attraction to the exotic, and you could show up anywhere... doing almost anything! You are spirited, energetic, and a total kick to be around. You're also quite funny. Your sense of humor is on the goofy side, and it fits you well.

What Type of Fruit Are You?

Your Deadly Sins

Gluttony: 40% Pride: 40% Sloth: 20% Envy: 0% Greed: 0% Lust: 0% Wrath: 0% Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14% You'll die from food poisoning - and then the natives will feast on your fatty limbs.

How Sinful Are You?

thats it.

i shall eat less food.

i dun want to die frm food poisoning.

okay larhs.

i shall end here for today

tml going sch alone.

>.<

monday, another start of new week.

a week less to CNY

a week less to common test

another more load on my shoulders.

nvm.

i shall try my VERY BEST

to be HAPPY.

=D

oh my oh my.

the weekend is here again and without fail,

i have to spend this dumb weekend again.

yepps.

u dint hear wrongly.

it's AGAIN.

with all my whole loads of assignments and revision piling up on my study desk.

like MOUNT EVEREST.

i dint meant to exaggerate.

but that how terrible it is, that is ever since the academic year for 2008 started.

initially i thought it was so-not-possible.

but NO.

ever since i set foot into that tiny, narrrow,small side gate of MI which i suspect whether it was even 1.7 m wide or so,

i was being stretch-ed.

and they have been saying that stetching is good for us.

i'm not disagreeing with this

but everythingy should have a LIMIT.

and thank god.

the teachers in MI dun seem to know this word.

LIMIT.

i even seriously ponder, wonder whether if they have crossed paths with this word before.

even if they dont, they should know that a rubber band will snap eventually.

when it is stetched to the max

and i'm like almost reaching that "max" point

not far away from it.

there has been so many things bothering me.

heres a great list below.

1. should i go attend the H1 chi lesson

2. the CCa thingy

3.why cant i change my GP grp

4.my ''violent" gp partner

5.my econs teacher is speaking in a language that i dont understand.

6.my communication with pple after all the traumas that i've suffered during sec sch.(and u cnt imagine hw horrible it is)

7.the mood-swings i have been experiencing

8.the depression and temptation to cut myself

9.finding a reason to persuade myslef that i deserve to live

10.......

i cant go on anymnore

theres so many thignys to type that i cant rmb all.

i feel so sympatheic to my poor life.

hanging on, just hanging on there

clinging to sth that will prevent u frm falling

and sometimes,

i really feel like letting go of that hand.

i sound idiotic

i sound so dark.

and wadeva-so ever

i cant understand myself either.

so many sides of me

thati do not even know which one is the real me.

and sometimes i wonder

why i just cannot grow up.

mentally.

i'm so childish

of all those dumb wishful thinking of mine.

i dun even know where i gt them from.

i dun know so many things suddenly after going on in MI

or should i say

even before i stepped into MI.

the last two yrs in hong kah

was tormenting too

the only thing, feeling different is that

i could find solace in my frens at that time

they were always beside me, ard me.

now, i cant really seem to put trust in anyone.

not inside MI.

i feel that i'm so selfish, timid, useless

being so afraid to e hurt by others

and putting on a cold front.

and somehow,

i hurt them.

i feel so guilty of this

i'm trying to hide myself under that mask

that very unfamiliar yet so familiar mask.

and i know it isn't fair to me,

or to others,

to everyone.

Your Birthdate: May 21

You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature. Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas. People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life. You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone. Your strength: Your thirst for adventure Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures Your power color: Hot pink Your power symbol: Figure eight Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

What Xin Yi Means

You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore. You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions. You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

lol.lame sia

You Are a Cupcake

Cute and fun, you never take life too seriously. People are constantly surprised by how delightful you are.

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

i hang like a rock on a thread

never knowing what will happen to me the next moment.

the limit being so blurred

that i cant differnentiate the difference.

so tell me now.

what should i do.

sch's as usual

SAME wif mrs meya too.

anyone who goes out for presentation will be SUFFERING.

from her SO-WHATs.

gosh

and i feel so SICK and life-less today

so stressed up in MI.

should take advice given

go JAE again.

then go poly.

how do you know that you exist in this world?

没有矛盾何来爱

爱的矛盾之一

爱是奉献的,也是掠夺的.

爱具有掠夺性,我们甚至可以说愈是从别人那里夺来的,

愈是显得珍贵,当'"竞争"消失的时候,爱情反而可能受到影响.

爱的矛盾之二爱是要付出,也要自我保护的.

"学习爱恩的第一步,就是爱自己.因为自己也是人.

如果你连自己都不爱,怎么有条件去爱别人?"(引自爱的艺术)

所以,爱是付出,又是求自保的;先自保,才能付出.

爱的矛盾之三爱是走向相聚,也是走向分离的.

每个人都是与生俱来的母亲或父亲.他们是走向相聚的,走向与爱人的相聚.

也是走向分离的,跟子女的分离,父母的分离.

爱的矛盾之四爱是追新,也是怀旧的.

从遗传的角度看,爱是追新的.从相对的角度看,爱也有着恋旧,特质.

爱的矛盾之五爱是没有尊卑贵贱,有好像有尊卑贵贱的.

常奇怪,爱似乎没有尊卑贵贱但在人们心里又是有尊卑贵贱之分.

爱的矛盾之六爱是无所谓对错,又有所谓的对错的.

爱是没有绝对是非对错的,完全看你站在哪个角度,哪个时间来看事情.

命运就是这样的因缘,只因为有人把一个弃婴放在你门前,你生命当中就多了一个孩子;

你就多了一种负担,多了一份爱;你就多了一种感觉.多了一种情怀,

多了一个割舍不了的东西,这许许多多的爱,就是缘.缘,无所谓对错.

爱的矛盾之七爱是牺牲,又是要回馈的.

爱是付出的,也是要求回馈的.你不给我回馈就不行,而且要求它完整.正因为如此,

爱的眼睛容不下半粒沙子.为什么爱的隔壁是恨?因为恨是忘记爱最好的办法.

爱的矛盾之八爱的角色是不变又多变的.各位年轻的朋友,

不要只想找个世家有钱 的对象,以为能够少奋斗几十年.

要知道,那捡来的幸福的日子,缺少了恩情,往往经不起考验啊!

反倒是一起奋斗,一起过苦日子走过来的爱情更持久.

爱的转换就是如此----从一开始"没有你,我会死",到"没有我,爱会垮",

到最后则是"有一天我走了,你要好好活下去"..

爱的矛盾之九爱是能够表现,又不能表现的.

当对方以比较好的方式把爱表现出来的时候,你也可能用恶劣的表现来去回报他,

更可能扼杀了这种爱的表达.

爱的矛盾之十爱是自私自利,又推己及人的.爱常常是偏心狭隘的

i've been so busy these days.

and i just cant to seem to CONCENTRATE.

this is sooo not right.

sighs.

PE on tues was like hell la.

see the other grp, even the boys grp like so slack

only our class de gals grp running for e whole one hr.

consequences.

we got muscle cramps lors.

at the side of our thighs.

then is like u sit down PAIN.

u stand up greet teacher PAIN.

u walk down the stairs PAIN.

and if u stand up too fast,

u will FALL.

so sad.

i skipped my CCA today agains

dunno wad LML going to say again la.

i wan change of chi lang cher.

sighs

anyway, during the 2 hr break today,

mr wong treat us to drinks...

so nice~

and i dint forget that he scared and stunned me at the

chicken rice store

using that type of low low voice saying

"ooooi, faster la..."

i tot who sia.

in e end.

we had some sort of 1 hr plus de "religious lecture"

seem to see tina's hot stuff everyday

and he walk past us 3 times today

tina was so high~

*i tot my shirt was going to be torn.

cos when she very high she will pull my sleeve.

haaahs.

have lotsa thingys to do

nt even done revision yet

and theres presentaion cuming.

OMG.

save miiiie~

can i skip sch tmr???

this is so NICE.

i've finally clearded my tutorials.

but haven do my revision yet.

sch's bk tmr.

NAFAR test is this week

pray hard that there's cool weather.

and-

I MISS MY SCH HALL.

for the aircon*

haahs

ANIMOLOGY: What Animal Are You? Your Result: Ocre and Gray Dolphin Sea! You're a very hearty person being a good friend. You attract many friends because of your lovely personality, but you're sometimes pretty weird. Your soul mate is the Bronze Goat. You hate the Peach Pig.
Tan Giraffe
Gold Falcon
Red Jaguar
Teal Cat
Yellow Trout
Blue Fox
Silver and Red Wolf
ANIMOLOGY: What Animal Are You?

How will I die? Your Result: You will die in a nuclear holocaust. The country responsible will be an unexpected one. I hope that you will be close to the epicenter of the explosion. Radiation is terrible. Your death, however, will always be remembered.
You will die of boredom.
You will die in a car accident.
You will be murdered.
You will die while having sex.
You will die from a terminal illness.
You will die in your sleep.
You will die while saving someone's life.
How will I die? Create a Quiz

waahs.

my death will be remembered lehs.

heh.

after one whole week of sch days,

weekend has finally arrived AND

i cannot believe that i'm still doing my HOMEWORK.

tsk tsk tsk*

and i have to clear my econs, mgt tutorial

my gp 1000 words wordbank

and my maths assignmt

before i can do my REVISION

for the common test.

and my maths test on tues.

theres so much to read and study on

i becoming a nerdy gal le larhs~

but nvm.

cos i shall work very very hard these two days(xtra xtra hard*)

andi can watch my movie BODY#19 on tues

but its very late.

however, tina is going to watch it wif mie~

at 6 45pm at my usual favourite place

jurong point~~~

which evokes so many many memoriies out of me.

both happy,angry,sad...

wadeva emotions u can think of

WAHAHAHAHAHAS.

i'm getting bk to my old self.

of being cheerful and a bit...

crazy and over.

ever since the reopening of sch

partly thks to my frens.

THANK-YOU-ALL.

muuuaaks. =D

long time neverfelt so carefree le.

think because of the period of time that i

was exposed to the working world.

so many conflicts....

that made me become a porcupine

trying to hurt and avoid evryone to see thru me becos

i dun wan to get hurt.

i've been so selfish.

sighs~

luckily i have come to my senses now.

oh yaahs.

and thks to my ht tutor, GL

i have added this to my resolution for 2008.

I SHALL BE NOISER *

hehs.

arghhhhs*
i hate TUESDAYS AND THURSDAYS.
cos i gt PE
i dont mind playing, running a bit(to work off fats)
but somehow i think its worse than the intensive training
that the sports grp have~
outline of my pe lesson today:
- ran 3 rounds ard stadium as warm up
-stretching-catch the tail game(where my shirt was flipped up)
-abs muscles exercise
-leg exercises
-circuit(running up the stairs of my sch's dumb stadium's 1st staircase and run down the last staircase)
and we did 16 crunches before we went for the nxt round..
and i also dunno we do another what exercises
then do the part whereby u have to bend ur knee down and hold it there~
they call it the 'squat'
its the most torturous thingy after running.
and we had a 'warm-down' session of 2 rounds again
the lamest thingy was like the cher share a novel he was reading
OMG.
it sounds so WRONG.
esp in a PE lesson
but somehw i find that i've read that story before ~
hahas.
anyway
after running, i felt very gidy and tried to puke~
after that, have a TERRIBLE HEADACHE.
I DUNNO WHY~
had i known this would happen i shld have heed my mum's advice
go doc and take MC.
sobs*
and tmr i have GP!!!
mrs HOD of MI GP department
sometimes i find her so dramatic.
but she's very nice~
xcept when it cums to work`
heh.

To live is to love, to love is to hurt

the week has finally ended

hehs.

i was so desperate today to skip GP lesson
in the end it turned out to be okay.

after all that maths lesson

we had break

the funniest thingy that happened in the break was when

we went to collect our adidas shirt with tina

i was like frantically writing and recalling.

cos i dint do much training.

only walking and running ard the stadium.

the only one thing i knew was that i had a fever

a few days before the event.

lets go bk to what happened in the process of collecing it

we were going to pe office

then mr ram walked out from the washrm

we were shocked

cos dr suddenly opened mahs

and this is nt the 1st time.

anyway....

he go and called one cher called mr tan

then look thru our log book

then say what we write in one day

WRONG!!!!

i wrote it all within 10 mins or so like that lol.

then i was laughing like hell

tina was like blur

then cher say i laugh till like dunno what then also know what we do le la.

we waited for him to take the keys

then he said sth which made me feel

whether i had common sense or not.

he show us the key and say he dunno if it could open the door.

OMG.

i was thinking like..did i hear wrongly?

anyway.

we must be VERY LUCKY.

cos he said so.

why?

cos for the past 2 days he could not open the door.

i personally think the door and key like to go against him.

hahas

kidding

so we gt our shirt.

and he went on blah blah blah~

until he said consider joining half marathon this yr.

oh~

i can tell u.

i have to consider seriously ~

its 21KM, not 10KM.

and i din't train.

hehs

nvm.

after that we went to hall for hse meeting

they were selecting committees.

then i was sitting between tina and edlyn

practically jking there la.

i was so blur.

din't realise tina's hot stuff was the guy.

i was saying

that guy look so much like ur hot stuff hor

and she told me

of course, bcos he's the one

i always get this guy with his classmates mixed up,u see

all look almost the same de.

he's *****

i shan't say his name

haha

anyway.

after sch me n tina go buy bubble tea
many pple there.

then queued for almost 3o mins.

then i went home and she went for training

after i went home and changed clothes all that

went to meet shiyun

at jp

she asked me whether she can top up $2.

i was like...

so we went to try

although i knew it was impossible.

so malu sia.

so we walked to jan's hse

the dog was barking all the way as usual.

anyway.

went there and crapped.

hehs.

we went home ard 7 plus bahs.

then went up bus

saw TJJ.

so suay sia

bcuming worst

and one thingy

i discovered AVERIL is in M.I for PAE.

she's my pri sch classmate

haahs.

she's in 08B dunno wad

forget le.

haha

nvm.

shall c if can mit into her again

When your in front of me I always pretend that you're not around..but when you're far away i keep on finding you..*can somebody pls tell me why???

erms.

frankly speaking

after so many complaints and trying very very hard to accept MI

i stilll cnt

omg

gp and the cca matter

makes my headache and life in M.I even more miserable

i almost practically broke down la.

and i think it's only a matter of time er yi lo.

nt jk

seriously, nvr so tired in my life before

just have been supressing everythingy inside me.

nw lets say abt PE

the training today

okay la.

cos i have been playing with that kind of poles since young

like monkey sia me.

stretch~

in M.I

i have to avoid and AVOID.

some pple.

to get things in control.

" when you walk away from the person you love ,

then that is when you can say that you really do love them"

uhhhhhhhhh.

sch's started.

introduction has been made

height and weight has been taken

targets has been set

blah blah blah

almost everythingy has been done

but i'm still in a mess.

i dunno why.

anyway

pple might think that i'm going crazy

or even sick

for the past few days.

hahaas.

so different from last year right.

but justto inform u all.

this is actually who i am actually.

hahas.

unpredictable

and always changing-

i mean my moods and likes

i dun think i can stick with sth i like for~

more than one month at most.

ehs.

shld end here.

i know its a bit..abrupt stop

but...

i need to do my chi lit hw and maths revision.

hahas*

very sians

just came bk from sch

sch ends at 5 25pm on thurs~

sighs

anyway

there's a whole lot of pple in the PAE this yr

my new class.

i dun have any comment leh

maths grp spilt but my maths tutor is still GL.

haahs

econs mix with a lot of pple.

but nvm.

its the funny teacher.

looks so angry and then smile till like dunno what

mgt cher

her style of teaching nt bad la.

gp kanna HOD!!!

mrs mayer.

sian diao lo.

overall.

i still hate PE.

cause so late

but nvm

if i pass the nafar test on this month de end.

all will be over.

BUT WHAT I HATE MOST IS THE PART ON CCA.

drifting on a log.

searching for a direction

i'm so ,so lost.