when you get your results...

when you get your results, how do you feel?
happy, sad, tired?
got bk my chi lang paper.
sighs.
only got 66 marks.
actually is not bad larhs, considering to make a pass for chi
thats means i have to score another --
24 marks for chi lit.
speaking of chi lit, i even tremble at the thought of entering the classroom on fri.
aaaaaaahs!!!
we are like waiting to be killed off one by one.
mon still have to arrive early for chi lang test.
and its every monday morning, 8.30am.
there goes my monday breakfast sessions
i want to get started, but dunno where to start from.
the pic i mentioned...
TADA~

some of my few besties: min and adeline XD

let's never waste a minute thinking about people we dont like and dont saw sawdust.

PHOBIA 2

watched phobia 2 with fafa and zahidah :))
the last part is so funny!
the zombie part is hilarious.
after the movie wnet to find maox again
then ate salmon pepper rice
muahahahas.
the chi exam was....
ehs, sort of know yet i dunno what i was writing.
still have to go sch tml :(
think will be getting bk my chi lang script.
sighs, dunno what it would turn out to be?!
saturday still got session with jan, shi and maox at bugis and marina
woots!!!
hoots!!!
suddenly, i've came to love OWLS.
they are so kawaii nehs >.<

what do i have in common with a panda and an idiot

what do i have in common with a panda and an idiot.
the ans is: i have panda eyes and is stupid and needs more brainpower and more time for sleep and study.
it wld be lucky if i cld work it out this time.
IT WILL BE A TIRING DAY AHEAD.
by the way, when does sch start again officially?

if this goes on....

if i cont' the life i'm leading now all the way to As, its gonna be a dead end.
like i went out to JP(yes, jp again--also known as my 3rd home)
with shi
cos the teammates told my friend they cancelling their meeting for the FYP.
so i went jp find her.(yes, throwing all my books at one side hoping that a miracle wld happen to me TML)
ate MAC.
wanted to watch movie, but non appealed to us.
went arcade, saw lots of stitch.
went NTUC , buy my pasta ingredients for dinner:))
i'm so gg to makan pasta today
then went home.
its less than 18 hours to the paper.
and i...
sighs.

ITS NOTHING BUT PACKs OF LIES!!!!!!
mind you, not a pack, its PACKS.

I'M DONE FOR....

i'm quite certain that i wont pass chi lit well.
it is in a situation like..
i cant even rmb the basics.
dead.
and i haven started on my 20 m topics
AT ALL.
its INFORMATION OVERLOAD LAHS.
maybe, i shld just leave it as it is and see how the results will turn out to mbe.

getting rid of boredom.

some nice messages i got, muahahahax.
came to post them; too bored studying.
and i just finished one book which is only worth 20m.
sighs .
its is chinese
but sadly, i cant copy and paste.
so i will phrase it in eng.

1. If the distance between us was a thousand steps, you just have to take that first and one step before i take the remaining 999 steps towards you.

2. those who love you are usually the ones who stay to argue and quarrel with you

3. It is only by giving your whole heart that you gain another, but you may also be hurt completely; keeping a distance would keep you safe, but destined to be lonely.

4.someties, it's not that one does not mind about you, but its because you see them too heavily.

5. stars that cannot be plucked are the brightest, fish that slips pass are always the most beautiful ones, movies that are missed are always the most entertaining ones, i dint understand these until i lost you.

6. love needs mutual trust. even believe lies a lie.

7. there is no 100% lover, only a couple made up of 50% each.

8. those who feel happy when you are sad are enemies; happy for you when you are happy are friends;sad when you feel sad are people whom you ought to place inside your heart.

and the finale.

The Hyacinth florid--when it withers and die, the way to revive it is to cut away those withered flowers, and give new life to those flowers reborn.
'Be dead, and rise from death.'

i'll go bk to my lala(book) land for now.
SO HOT !!!SO HOT!!!--the weather.

when PEPPER LUNCH meets KFC

as i had forseen myself, i was stuck in JP from 11 till ard 9 tonight.
just reached home.
feeling tired, having blisters from the walk.
nonetheless, i feel happy :))
very much so.
had a great time walking all ard again, asking for jobs.
so maox got 2 shops leaving her name,
and i guess icy got some of her pics done.
dont worry, can ask me out again to take pics of them again.
at the end of the month maybe?
next sat gg out to bugis, with maox :P
MUAHAHAHAS.
though i dint get anything done today.
i got almost my whole week planned.
i call it the wild week
cos i will study very hard after it.
afterall, icy will be gg off to jap again, on 29th oct for one week.
mon stay at home study for chi lit
tues: after chi lit go find (or rather, pull) someone watch phobia 2
and have lunch wit maox at JP during her break :)
weds: no plans yet
thurs&fri: bk to sch
sat afternoon-evening:out with maox
night:maybe go to park to play candles again :)))
HEHS.
so long dont have full schedule alrdy
and i can eat pepper lunch at half price.
cos of maox =D
AND KFC at one dollar off for 2 pcs chicken meal.
due to maox's popular card.
will update a very special picture when i get it XD

when u're in the middle and vulnerable.

it happened.
and it still happens
being stuck in between.
suddenly, all my friends are so FREE!
all poly students are having their holidays!!!
and thats where the problems lies, unfortunately.
i having PRELIMS now.
and less than 38 days to my A LVLs.
and just 3 days before my chi lit exams, which is a miserable event for me.
5 poems , 5 proses, 3 modern poems, 3 short stories, 1 playscript and one novel.
and thats 7 books there waiting to be read.
so far, i only completed the poems, and 1 and a half prose.
but its okay, i've found a solution
i'll go accompany you go find jobs from morning till afternoon
i'll go help you with your FYP from afternoon till night?
i'll study in the meanwhile.
and i'll go bowling with you after dec 2.
but, for tonight..
i'll have to study and mug.till one or two.
and maybe go MAC earlier tml to study while waiting.
to make up for the lost time.
OH, i can see me stuck at JP the whole entire day.
but its okay.
i believe that my friends should not be compromised for exams.
at some point in time.
i believe that time can be made.
and maybe, there's sufficient time for everything.
well , except for sleep ;)

what will get you home and paint your palette blue and gray?

My love will get you home

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright light blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
boy, my love will get you home.



If you ever find yourself ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home
boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home.

find this song very soothing
you can actually sleep while hearing, feeling secured and at peace
maybe due to the melody.

at the same time, studying chi lit is eating me up.
i only studied 3 poems today :(
after all the series of nightmares these 3 weeks.

after some thoughts and hints given,
i finally figured out what ''stupidity" i had that will be the greatest danger of my life.
maybe it's something like losing sth or someone important once, and losing it again in time to come.
to put it across simply,
its---REPEATING THE SAME MISTAKES TWICE.
but, did I ?

ECONS.
the sentence i told my frien outside the exam hall was'i nvr study mkt failure and capital a/c'
then it turned out to be our qns!
i just wrote on and on,
and i dont know if its correct or what?

cut my hair at sch area today.
turned out to be..okay, or not?
its okay since i dont think i'll be gg to sch for next few days although i'm tempted to for sme reasons.

after watching dramas, i think i'm done for.
its intriguingly amazing how they can affect you and make u feel related to them.
that SEGMENT OF the show just now, was simply touching.
to think one would be able to sacrifice everything even at the end of one's life.
the best part was that it suddenly let me recalled that i had once promised to wish for someone's happiness at the expense and exchange with all of my happiness.
now and then, when i think of that, i think its ridiculous and stupid.
but on a second thought, i always have a good laugh at it.
what was i thinking at that point of time?
maybe i was too young,
and this shows that time does make people grow :)

i learnt sth new today
love is the triump of imagination over intelligence

a very much flattened me

i feel just like a balloon deflated.
for no apparent reason, as it seems.
the MOB pp, i still dunno what i'm doing,
but i just kept on writing.
hope can maintain my grade or at least pass-
i waited downstairs for a whole one and a half hr becos there want anyone at home, and i lost my keys.
sighs.
fed those mosquitoes with my blood.
guess they dont need eat for at least 3 days after today.
econs tml, and i am so not in the mood to study for it.
uhhmmmmmmm.
maybe i'll JUST go gatcha my hair tml :(

B.L.A.N.K

20.09.2009

SUCH A NICE DATE TODAY :)
ONCE YOU SEE IN A CENTURY?
i mean the last in this century.
you know, its nice to wake up fresh, knowing that u're healthy
and with no burden inside your heart
it feels so light.
i was amazed, when i saw you in the bus.
but that was for a moment.
many a time, i had imagined the scenarios that i'd met you
and how i'll react.
it's simply surprising that it dint turned out to what i'd expected it to be.
there wasnt much fluctuations.
no HIGHs nor LOWs.
it was calm, just like that, like any other stranger i'd met and seen
with just that little emptiness.
the time was worth it.
it has straightened out everything
and allowed me to open my heart out to others
anyway, it was a experience for life, a lesson learnt
so no matter what happens, maybe i shld just say a THANK YOU
though i cant say it straight into your face.
THANK YOU.
and for one of my friend that fth tells me things that inspires me though u dont know it does thru our random chats, thank you, and i love you to the MAX!!! <3
'to live better, and to show them that we are living well, even better than them, and that they have made the wrong choice then and we made the right choice'

btw,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA :D
have fun , and study hard too.
although i'm slacking now.

and what does it mean by this sentence?
'your greatest danger is you stupidity'
at least tell me in what aspect can?

someone, pls i wan to go out.

WAS WONDERING WHAT HAPPENED TO ME.
when i woke up ,
looking at the skies outside my window
issit early dawn or night?
then heard the sound of TV
has been sleeping thru from afternoon till 2 hours agop
and here i am, wide and awake, not knowing what to do for this--
LONG SLEEPLESS NIGHT.
sighs haven touched any of my notes,
not a single one of them.
its as if i'm already after As.
when i'm actually still in the midst of PRELIMS 2.
i'm bored to death.
SOMEONE TAKEE ME OUT PLS!!!


is life a story, or is story a life?
i think,
its a story a-live

do dreams come true?

wonder if dreams do cometrue
dint know how i got to have this dream anyway.
but anyway,
its too UNREALISTIC.
though its sth that i wished for
maybe it was all due to what i was thinking ytd.
and maybe, i had to exchange my health for this dream?

BODY MALFUNCTION

i think i have body malfunction.
wanted to go see doc today.
in fact, i went to BB polyclinic.
took quene no all that.
but the number damn slow~
they let all the elderly go first.
WTF!
elderly?
so?
u may say i've got no apathy for the elderly
but one eldely who got later than me for ard 2 hours cld just straight to the doc.
while pathetic me still waiting...
for 2 hours, with an exam to rush too.
tell u,ELDERLY?
so?
u pay cheaper than me somemore
something like cut queue in my opininon.
so, i decided not to wait anymore at 11 30
my no was 2145, while that stupid doc was still attending to 2084, 1163...
so much for s'pore's healthcare efficiency huhs?

then was doing my econs essay in the hall
halfay thru the paper,felt sth flowing down my nose.
then i had this very bad feeling.
then *drip*
blood on my skirt.
was like damn it.
cldnt go toilet, cos time was running out.
then tried to hold it bk...
but it cont'...
sighs, lasted for a whole 20mins.
then i also realised i had 2 ulcers in my mouth.
WHATS WRONG WITH MY BODY.
swollen eyes
nosebleed
ulcers

how wld i ever be able to study in peace?

I

i dont know whats happening.
i feel so tired suddenly
i dont have the motivation to study
i dont know what's happening to my eyes!
i dont want to see doc.
i want to score well, but
i know i'm gonna flunk my mgt pp, cause
i dont know how to do it at all.
i know, i know--its SO TIRING :(

the TRUTH that lies within a LIE.

hmm.
the only thing i'm sure of now currently.
I AM A GONER FOR PRELIMS.
not 'will be'
think i'm already one.
although i've been like reading the notes,
nth seems to stay inside that dinosaur brain of mine :(
and i have not even finish my mgt
neither started with my chi
the best thing is, i cant even buy my pen
my 0.28 uni brown/black pen for god's sake
i cant go to exam without it!!!!
jp had went out of stock
so are the bookshops at the mkt.
hope i can get them tml.
wish me luck for my prelims.
i cant even imagine how bad my results will turn out to be.


at some point of time,
i wont bother about these ridiculous matters.
now is this some point of time.

STUFFED.

i am so happy.
after my efforts to drink moree water and fruits
like eating one week's supply.
my eyes finally got better :)
i even went to sch today for consultation.
hehs.
on a second thought, i wonder why i go there cos i only go there to go thru essays.
by right shld be those texts.
sighs.

YESTERDAY
my time was spent at jurong west lib-
was mugging at frontier, had my prata with curry and sugar
then mugg-ed all the way from 12-5.
finished roughly biz environment and pple in org.
dint do anything for econs ytd!
neither for chi!
neither chi lit!!!
i think i'll start studying chi lit after this week or next week.


I'M STUFFED.
cos i just ate my cheap and nice CHICKEN RICE~
(^V^)
FEEL LIKE SLEEPING INSTEAD OF STUDYING, THE WEATHER'S SO COOL AND NICE

what i had today

i had guava, apples, grapes, honeydew, passion fruit for my lunch and dinner today.
OH.
i'm so full now!
supposedly to help with my poor sore eye.
slept for the whole late afternoon.
3 hours gone and wasted.
how to finish the syllabus?!

anyway, went to sch website, they wrote sth like..

Millennia institute is proud to host the youth atheletes from the Republic of Argentina and the Republic of New Guinea-Bissau

wooh, so sad
we wld have graduated from MI, hopefully.
such a shame that we cant participate in this thing in school.
i'm sure it will be fun !!!


saw him downstairs.
not suprisingly though
but it just evokes some memories somehow...
TSK TSK.

RED DAY

BOOHOOHOO.

I'VE GOT SORE EYES WITH MIGRAINE.
was chopping my neck, removing my right lens.
teary teary eyes :((
hard to study with only one functionable eye.
how am i going to survive lahs
god, pls let my eyes resume to normal.

I'LL PROMISE TO STUDY HARD, REALLY.



even if there wasnt a pact between us in the past life,
at least we had affinity this life.

a WHOLE DAY WASTED.

I DINT STUDY ANYTHING TODAY.
was supposed to revise for mkt structure.
then, woke up for 2 hrs...
teary eyes, running nose and puking sensation.
tried to study but cldnt study at all
i've decided.
i'm gg to eat SUKI SUSHI BUFFET .
somewhere during the exam period.
this time will find someone else.
and my haircut.
movies with SHI :)
MUAHAHHAX.
i'm acting as if theres no A lvls.
sighs
i dont care, i'm gonna spend my day tml at the lib mugging.
or else i will really be a goner!


far far away.
so far that it wont come, i wont reach-

OH.

now i wonder why i went for econs class.
he just went thru the essays la.
then for the tips.
just say economic growth dont need study.
then micro sth like esource allocation-which is everthing?!
and macro was saying on intl trade blah blah and what..
also like everything.
and i actually juast realised that my friend went wrong clas, wasnt suppose to be pillai's class
no wonder he looked so surprised.
ah.
woodlands library, i wont go there again.
went there to study, but more like fish mkt sia.
i shalll cont to get stuck on my frontier, where i'll get nice seats and choose,peace and prata!
still have to go on fri for chi consultation.
AAAAAAAHS
i have not even touched my mgt and other subject yet
how to study everything in one week??
>~<


tongue eaten,
lips bitten.
anything,nothing,everything
like,love,hate
lost,found,finding.

it was never my intention.
i dint mean to.

even though there's econs tml, i wont sleep till 1am, no matter what.
tsk tsk, i cant seem to concentrate on studies.
sometimes, i really feel so disgusted by people.