;breathless

time flies.
6 months have past.
so have my job at dano JP.
miss those cool guys in formal shirts.
and my colleagues.
i've a tendency to leave everything when i feel that there's something
anyway,
i'm bk at square one.
i'm..confused, and helpless
not knowing who to seek help from, who to talk to.

breathless.
exactly how i feel.
but i love the song

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special

I only hope that
I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

have to work at wm atrium for one week starting..later?
then habourfront's on 25th jun to jul 1st.
i'm broke :'(
have to buy lappie
aaaahs
hope i wont meet into too many pple.
pple can come accompany me eat lunch :((

PS: i, really miss you so....much.

my thoughts;

on living on this earth for 20 years.
officially bid farewell to my birthdays starting with one-s.
on this day which it first start with two,
suprisingly and funnily,
i dont feel anything
no excitement,
no joy,
no interest.
bah, so sad.
sadly, all i feel , is sadness.
for no apparent reason or circumstance.
just a heavy weight thrown into my heart.
making it even...heavier.
LOLs.
initially just wanted to go vivo with my sis.
then min finally replied me whether she was free ytd night.
when i send her e msg on tues -.-'''
so, i guess i'll be off to marina in late afternoon.
according to min, e fly kite area.
got this place?
i suppose if i'm not wrong shld be e marina barrage.
not a bad choice, at least, i can breathe in fresh air
really fed-up with my manager now.
thinks she knows everything, when i still have to teach her eng
so, lets see.

shall do further emo-posts and reflections later.
and know what?
ytd night when the clock struck twelve, i had a nosebleed.
what a nice present from heaven to mark and commemorate my 20th burfday.

finally;

i go that dumb letter asking me to go study chinese in ntu
of all days but this day, i also lost a very impt item
doubt i can find it bk.
the chance is certain; zero.
still in a low-down mood.
the value, its invaluable.
even though its only a note.

is this really what u call;
u'll only gain sth after you lose sth?
nth lost, nth gained?

know what?
i've been thinking.
maybe it's fate hinting to it that it shld come to a closure alrdy
just that, i cant accept it.

among all those korean craze;

i finally fell for one.
LOLs.
and believe it or not,
i spent my precious off-day today watching it
trying to finish the whole 16 episodes.
quite nice :D
title's called you're beautiful/he's beautiful.
and i went to buy the DVD.
at forty bucks, without hesitating.
quite a hard decision for me for the cae of DVDs
cos i cld watch it online
in fact, i alrdy watched almost half of it online.
but i still went to buy.
dunno why
but as i was watching the show, i had many thoughts.
kinda straightened out.
gonna watch the last episode at 12 30 ltr.
anyway, the male cast is really..cute!
to be able to express himself into a person of different temperaments, by just changing his facial expressions.
aaaaaaaaahs.
why are there such nice-looking pple in this world
and of all places, like korea, taiwan and japan?

想了好多事
看了戏，到好笑的部分时, 笑了。
但我心里比谁都还清楚，
我并不快乐。


感到胸口闷闷的，
笑着笑着，
眼泪也跟着掉了。
不知道为何会掉泪，也不知是为谁掉的。


我也想到十年前的我，
十年后的我，
也试着想未来十年的我。
结果，我还是想不出来。


也许，我还在寻找着那个人
那个人是谁， 我并不知道，也很疑惑。
到底我能不能找到我想找的这人？
那个可以接纳我的缺点，接受我的过去
那个我可以对他敞开心胸，倾诉我的种种感受
那个能让我感到自在，安心的人
那个会让冷静的我，冲动的人

我甚至怀疑这个人根本不存在着世上。
在人海茫茫中，我们还得寻寻觅觅多久呢？


活着的意义， 到底又是为了什么？

WHEN;

i realised it was may.
i realised it was 2010.
i realised it wld be a saturday.
i realised it may be a chance.
i realised everything may had been heaven's will.
i realised i was wrong before this.
i realised i may be wrong again.
i realised it was just another opportunity.
i finally realised, if there's affinity, we would meet again; no matter how small, tiny, impossible it may seem.