TRA--LALALALA.

i'm back,
from wild wild wet.weather was nice today, so wasnt really dark
but the U shaped station was GREEEEAT!!!
though tina was screaming.
i thought i was flying.
HAHA.
and i think after tml we'll be crying
for joy?or..?

got some dumb bursuary agains.from MOE,cos in top 25 %.
OMG.
its like with my type of lousy grades, i was quite amazed that i cld get it.
LOLs.
maybe, its all thanks to e fact that...
I'M IN MI.

hate me for who i am,
love me for who i am.
Dont attempt to change me.

for ONCE.

i hope it wont rain tml,
and neither too hot shall it be.
PLEEASE?

dont know if i'm doing things right,
what will happen?

JUST LIKE SUNRISE, SUNSET, THAT 10 MINS ♥

LIVING IN E DARKNESS OF MY LIVING ROOM....
on purpose.
cos the weather has turned too hot for me.
so, let down all e purple curtains down and get a shady shade tt keeps me cool :))
struggling with my MOB, hopefully to clear it all by today
just a run-thru tt hopfully will pull me thru tues paper.
meanwhile, gg to wild wild wet tml for a prelude to tues paper XD
has fallen in love with skies these days.that magical 10-20 mins each day
from dawn to morning, evening to night
both look like sunrise and sunset :))
its beautiful, try looking for that 10 mins view.



the only remedy to love is to love more.

disregards to As...

i havent been touching my books and notes.
i seem to be alrdy in hols mood.
wanted to study in late afternoon, in end went habourfron and vivo.
HUH, like duh.
i dont seem like one taking e A lvls, gg out almost everyday.
anyway, saw someone i dint want to see, from my sec sch.
sadly, i've ascertained that its him.
and obviously, i walked away in my fastest speed...


not gg to wild wild wet tml with family :((
i waiting for mon, and tues.
THE LAST DAY DONNING THE UNIFORM :) ; :(

JUST...

another PH holiday that doesnt seems like one.
with those NOTES, TYS ,MINDMAPS LYING ALL ARD YOU.
but still, i doont feel like touching them


I'M HATING MYSELF MORE THESE DAYS.
i want to go bk to the times, as far bk as i was eight.
playing ard with pple, guys and gals both,
w/o restrictions and considerations

26TH NOVEMBER

uh-huh.
the so called 2nd last day of sch if i dont go sch on mon.
sees no point in gg in e first place
seems to me that everything has turned cold.
althoughit wld be lying to myself if i said i dint felt anything when i saw u in e front.
literally.
went to town after e 45 mins lecture.
e kitty pics..is with maox la.
the best thing that happened to me wa.
i got 10 percent coupon off entry tickets to kitty lab in town today,
AND I JUST WENT THERE YTD.
:((


starting to understand why pple prefer to be playboys and playgirls.
you wont feel that'ouch, it hurts' that much.

;KITTY LAB ♥

LOVES LOVES LOVES KITTY.
okok, i ♥ stitch too, of course.
went there at ard 4pm, the staff there quite friendly.
then there was this guy explaining to us what happened..e explosion all those stuff,
then told us no blah blah blah allowed, esp video and photography
then he said to us.
however, if the staff are not looking, u can take pics.
then he asked so ''high'-ly
ARE YOU READY TO GO INTO KITTY LAB?
.....silence
he asked 3 times before adeline and me muttered a yes.
HAHA :)
quite fun inside, took pics here and there
in e end, we spent more time at the sovenir shop instead of e exhibition
we got the bages too, despite taking pix here and there.
then went to john little sale, since it was otw bk.
went bk to JP for pepper lunch(got 50% off due to maox staff discount..haha)
ate salmon and chicken set :))
with special ice-cream :D
bk home,
need tuh go bk to sch tml for mgt
FYI, i dint manage to study MOB.
slacked TOTALLY.
sometimes, some pple are seriously not worth wasting your time for your consideration and care for them
its TOTALLLLLLY---
wasted, better spent on others.
what can you do, if they dont want to help themselves?
pukes* due to sth i saw online

will upload e pix at KITTY LAB WHEN MAOX DOES ♥

U CANT IMAGINE.

how fast i can change.
today, i'm still gaga over you.
the next day, after seeing some pics and readings, my opinions have TOTALLY changed.
its ok, get used to it.
my long-time friends have all but gotten used to this swinging pesonality.
then now, reflecting bk.
such time i've wasted.
such tears that fell, just in plain stupidity and naiveness.
huh? SURPRISED?
no, get over it my dears, its only the beginning that you start to know me better :))
although its still in e stabalising stage,where i'll still be wavering.
but when this partcular disgusted feeling arises.
believe me, it'll be over after a week.
afterall,
change is the only constant in life.

♥ off to kitty lab soon...♥

autumn's concerto theme song

我愛他
丁噹



他的輕狂留在 某一節車廂
地下鐵裡的風 比回憶還重
整座城市一直等著我
有一段感情還在漂泊


對他唯一遺憾 是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好


*我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來
我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他 不再屬于這個地方
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*



如果還有遺憾 又怎麼樣呢
傷了痛了懂了 就能好了嗎
曾經依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪



我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害
越深的依賴 越多的空白
該怎麼去愛


*我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來
我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他 不再屬于這個地方
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*


如果還有遺憾 是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwn2L3I_KJ0&feature=related
with another nice classical piece that brings peace to one's mind.
BACH--Air on G string
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmsXAgvq0kk&feature=related

THOSE I LOVE,yet left unsaid.

get ready.
its an blog entry with economic terms and theory.

after so many gloomy gloomy, life-less days(due to exam and non-motivational days)
there has finally came a day, an joyous occasion for me to be truly happy.
i'm gg to KITTY LAB ♥
though it doesnt seems economical gg to that exhibition if you do the double listing.
see

PROs
-you get to see hello kitty
-you get to buy limited edition sovenirs
-you get to realise your girly childhood dream
-you get a limited edition card slot and neck strap
-you get e god citizen badge if you complete it within 35 mins.
-you et to create your very own kitty
CONs
-no phototaking allowed(althought many told me its ok to take w/o flash)
-the time is very limited--30sec per game
-your very own kitty may not turn out to be nice?
-it costs 35 bucks.
-the sovenirs are damn ex!
-i'm in the midst of exams
-it just doesnt makes any economic sense no matter hw u think of it

but wait, luckily there are things i learnt in econs that i can apply to.
see.
they have only went to hong kong, japan and singapore
and they are moving bk to jap after this s'pore exhibition ends for permanent exhibition
so think abt the air fares...
using the NPV method.
next, is the 35 bucks for 35 mins issue
to get that badge, u need to complete everything within that timing
it would be $1 per min.
of course, i think i wld most likely take my time in there, take pics here and there and forgo the badge.
so tt wld unlikely apply too
this, is the theory of our econs concept of opportunity costs.
which arises due to choice--unlimited wants, limited& scarce resources
then abt e external benefit that causes mkt failure
i've lots of kitty fans friends.
think they wld like to see e pics?
sovenirs--due to monopoly
HELLO KITTY....its a monopoly.
can restrict o/p thus, prices increase
plus--what matters most is that you enjoy yourself.
money--the value either keeps appreciating, or depreciates over time.
and with that constant rise and fall of CPI.
sometimes i really wonder the value currencies are worth.
so, in the end.
i'm still gg, despite the cost and time that cld had been better invested into studying for MOB.
gg with maox for the 4-6.30 slot at EXPO tml.
maybe by making myself happy, i'll be able to absorb more for my MOB.


and the ans to tt particular qns is:
i used to threaten others with my life, but i've realised that its totally stupid just to die for one whom you dont know whether she really care for you. maybe, out there, there is another one whom you have never noticed who has been caring abt you all this while, just tt u dint realise it.
why forsake the whole forest just for a tree.why not ask her, what she really feels?you might get an unexpected ans that you have been waiting for.though it takes up tons of courage, at least you wld get an ans that allows you to get over it, rather than struggling in that doubt that you have been holding.

explanation found.
for the non-appearance.
after some blog readings.
that qns asked.
.............

another day when

i dont see my 'motivation' when i went sch today
half the reason why i left so early
still had to settle my cheque,
after that watched 2012 with shi
initially wanted to watch my paranormal activity.
but can watch online :)
anyway, it's such a nice movie.
lucky dint go out watch with lit class, it'll be so damn ugly with tears.
after i watch the movie, i've this very stong and intense urge to tell someone sth.
still contemplating whether to or not.
anyway, these events all added up tgt, just adds up to one thing.
a down-down-day.
its ok.
i'm sure to see 'motivation' on thurs.
unless...i dont go.

think its high-time to start my revision for mgt .

EXACTLY,

what i felt.
tired.
running ard e whole day in sch u,
started with gg to d'marqee for bursuary award.
after that went vivo in aternoon
reavhed home at 6, went IMM and just returned
i'm gg to KITTY LAB <3
with shi i think.
come to think of it, after 3 years...
forget abt it.
just bought cheese kimchi ramen.
asked this damn hilarious clasmate of my sis
u got eat cheese ramen b4?
yes.
after i bought the ramen, he texted..
actually i got eat..i throw cheese inside e ramen.
was stotally left speechless
still wondering whether to go chalet from 25th-27th at costa sands resort.
though only have to pay for 10 bucks, accomodation and food provided.
istill have tuh go sch on 26th
sians.
think of travelling all e way from pasir ris to MI..
might as well not come,


read these article on a newspaper one week ago.

'' have you ever been in love?horrible isnt' it?it makes you so vulnerable.it opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.you build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you.then, one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...you gave them a piece of you.they dint ask for it.they did sth dumb one day,like kiss you or smile at you,and then your life isnt your own anymore.love takes hostages.it gets inside you.it eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like'maybe we shld be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its imagination.not just in e mind.it's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. i hate love''


--neil gaiman



FOOD FOR THOUGHT :))

105 days

if the whole world can abandon me,
i can also abandon the whole world.

what's wrong.

particularly
its bad, very bad.
i'm starting to lose focus
yet its growing stronger.
dint expect the impact to be so great.
after 2 weeks in the rain, it has finally taken its effect.maybe tgt with e impact it became worse?

just another 2 more days at most?
its like parallel lines, they never meet.
always, in the opposite directions


he came, and went.

it's ending...

tired.
not studying
watching autumn's concerto
i wish everything is not real
but its sad.
i'm living in reality


有时
我非常怀疑
''朋友''的定义

went sch, was a nice weather.
the moment i stepped up the stairs,
i saw...
too unbelieveable.
i thought, i wont.
i seemed to get the answer
or at least, gotten close to it.
but now, another possibility is wavering me.

i'm dead, no mood for econs totally.
not studying.

A DREAM WITHIN A DREAM.

A DREAM WITHIN A DREAM.

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow--
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.



I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand--
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep--while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

--Edgar Allan Poe

dint know hw to describe the econs paper.
anyway, i still cant get it.
hope that i can when i go to sch tml
hopefully, can get to know part of the ans, or even try catching e tail of e ans.
anyway, morning was so boring w/o 'my motivation'
and mr wong still can say hi and jia you and gambattex to us :)
when we were drowning in econs :(
was hoping tt nose wont bleed in econs.
cos the weather and body conditions were similar to prelims 2.
maybe the whole 2 weeks in rain 'cooled' me down?
NO.
it bled when i reached home :(

i'm still left with 200 over pages of econs essays :((
i wished time cld stop here--right now, or earlier.



i tried flying to you
but the rain made my wings wet and heavy.
and i cldnt fly.

consulted mrs wee.
for my last dose of econs supplements.
and a boost of security with confidence.
just gonna chew, swallow, do whatever i can to my essay outlines to get it inside me.
and obviously, with my 'double dose' of motivation today(maybe even more)
i'm happier despite this hot, sticky weather.
shall go blast the fan and MUG .
and ya, we are not really banded.
but we are abandoned.
mrs wee agreed to what i said.
HAHAS =X


okay.
lets get this through.
ALWAYS EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED.
this is the best and most useful lesson learnt in MI
rmb to watch the meteor shower tonight :))


trying to find a clue if i'm getting the right message.

i'm wondering to myself what i'm doing online currently.
with my dear free trade notes for company.
someone hush me to sleep!
so tt i can wake up early go sch :))

maybe, its just like this.

tramatised by by econs currently.
went sch early, earlier than e time i was supposed to meet tina, so went into sch 'chop' seats 1st
suprisingly, not much pple today.
was quite sad initially, but when i came bk from breakfast,
*TADA*
caught a glimsp of 'my motivation'
several times, i think
then he vanished :(
anyway, was super pissed off by KFC
waited for my nporridge for 40 mins
ridiculous huh
so much for fast food.
shant talk more.
gg to mug for econs :))


*a day stolen, a day gained.

OMG.a great discovery(that shocked me out.)

i discoverd sth that i consider a great discovery
and i starting to wonder what he got for his H1 mother tongue
judging from sth i found from the net.
OMG.OMG.OMG.
maybe its because i'm from H2 chi that i feel this way.
but seriously, he reminds me of my sec schmates(particularly,the boys of course)
on the other hand, mayhe his GP is way way better than mine.
the theory of weaker in one of e lang, i call it.
but its okay.
i'm still weaker in my subs.
in overall.
i'm quite certain.
but is this a trait or what?
or am i attracted to this trait?
OMG OMG OMG.
i dont understand
and there gg to be a meteor shower nxt weds early morning.
or from midnight.
500 meteors per hour.
OMG.
and i dont think i can see it.
cos there's econs.
:((
if meteor showers can really grant wishes, maybe i'll stay up
to wish for 'u-know-what'
HAHAS.
i sound dumb.
ignore me, i just completed my income determination and AD&AS
doesnt seem to make sense of everything i say
still got mkt structure, macro topics, mkt failure and intl trade.
sighs.
i'm gg bk to sch tml :))
i'm e only crazy fella who loves gg bk to sch nowadays.



last 3 days?
maybe more if i go sch everyday.

how do i love thee? let me count the ways.

aaaaahs.
just woke up.
woke up late, only to be greeted by angry voices
haveto study econs :(
how i hope so, to never wake up
immerse in a never-ending peaceful dream.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,—I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!—and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
--Elizabeth Barrett Browning


i think,
i think i have to go bk to sch to find my 'source' of motivation back.

home from rain.

just returned home.
actualle, was all the way at home till 3, sleepingdint touch a single econ related thing
at 4, my phone rang.
went down meet min, returned from japan, doing her project, wamted my coments abt e bangala thing.
went down, then had bangala encounter again.
no, he ia an indian, even asked us to print his photo,
asked for numbers, then give it to him so he can contact us or we can give him e photo.
this is like e second encounter after the MRT mass pic taking episode?
agreed to his request eventually.
then went to buy BB tea--my beloved yam milktea as usual.
then continues discussing abt the FYP
just realised our area had been terrorised by bangalas.
and the POSB queue was damn damn long.
then sat in e rain just to take their pics.
i think i'm trying to build up my immune to rain.
overall, the whole thing was like PW process.
had been there, thru it.
of course, with no annoying pple and
its with my bestiex <3
gonna run cos they having nafa test on 19th.
gg to stadium tml to run :)
hope it doesnt rain tml night =X
shall cont bk to econs world :))

always in the rain;

mgt paper was relatively easy.
except for the whatever rubbish laws.
think this year is the 'law 'paper.

i shall reiterate this once and ONCE again.


I .AM. NOT .A.

L-E-S-B-I-A-N


get it clear and done with.
its just my sense of over-inferiority and super low self-esteem ok.
imagine a scenario.
a cut on just healed, then you fell down on the same spot again.
the cut is opened again, and this time its leaving an even deeper scar.
sorry, i cant accept this.
i know this is an utter cowardly act
but what can i do.
unless i can be certain that i wont be hurt
i wont.



needs time to ascertain sth from images of past few days.
shall cont' to sleep today
and think i'm sick alrdy, since just now in e morning when i felt was cold and outside e staffrm when the cheeks were damn hot.
shall go sch study econs :))
with ulterior motive, of course.
who wants to study with me?
i need motivation.
motivation!!!!!!!!
sighs.
i feel like one lonely creature in the world where n one understands me.

i'm off for a breakfast session @ JP
then to sch for MOB paper
cross my fingers and hope i wld pass
cos i dint studyat all practically :(
I'M SO, SO DEAD.

meanwhile, i'm still pondering to find the best word suitable to describe and define that ...
wait ill i eat the whole dictionary then i'll post i :))

GP--nw everything is sealed.

IT'S SEALED, DONE , AND OVER WITH.
i dunno hw to describe my feelings, emotions abt the paper.
i mean...
basically my tears just came out outside the GO just nw, for no apparent reason.
i hope its tears of joy, i feel uneasy
got blessings from 2 teachers today :))
had pastamania for lunch :))
then stayed in sch.
dug out the dictionary, checked meanings of GP paper.
was...sighs.
then turned to definig whats love, crush, infatuation, adore, like,lovesick and blahs blahs blahs
all i can say that we have made utter mistakes expressing ourselves!

found one poem in MI essays.
actually there are 3 which i think are nice and meaning ful, from a lit student POV
afetrthoughts?

'the more you love, the less you burn away'
'it is the analogy that burns,but staying bright,makes the eyes glow.'
'we cannot love, without the idea of love'
'never give all the heart, for love'

i particularly love the poem abt 'FOR STRONG WOMEN'

'' a strong woman is a woman in whose head
a voice is repeating, i told you so,
ugly, bad girl, bitch,nag,shrill,witch,ballbuster,
nobody will ever love you back,
why aren't you feminine, why aren't you soft,
why aren't you quiet, why aren't you dead?'

' a strong woman is a woman bleeding inside.
A string woman is a woman making herself strong
every morning while her teeth loosen and her back throbs.'

' a strong woman is a mass of scar tissues that aches
when it rains and wounds that bleed
when you bump them and memories that get up
in the night and pace in boots to and fro.'

'a strong woman is a woman who craves love
like oxygen or she turns blue choking.
A strong woman is a woman who loves
strongly and weeps strongly and is
strongly terrified and has strong needs.'

'what comforts her is others loving her equally
for her strengths and for the weakness from which it issues,
lightning from a cloud.'

'lightning shuns.
in rain, the clouds disperse.
only water of connection remains, flowing through us.
strong is what we make each other.
UNTIL WE ARE ALL STRONG TOGETHER,
A STRONG WOMAN IS A WOMAN STRONGLY AFRAID'


okay, i shant elaborate more, gota go bk to MOB MUGGING.
ps (to tina if you are reading):dont bother guessing ok..wait for nxt yr mar 5 :))

INFERENCE.

i cut my leg accidentally ytd night, in the toilet.
stepped on sth, tot it was just a small stone or plastic.
when i came to e living rm, lil bro was asking
WHY IS THERE BLOOD ALL ARD?
looked at e trail behind me, saw my trail of blod.
looked at my leg, started to feel painful
plucked out the piece of glass, e blood ..
*drip*drip*drip
was damn painful after i realised it
worse still the day before my chi lit.
had to cripple bl to sch, walking on my sides of legs.
CHI LIT OVERALL OKAY.
but i somehw got no confidence.
TML'S GP.
THEN MGT.
GOD BLESS ME, AND EVERYONE ELSE

the appearance helped.

I KNOW, I KNOW!!!

I KNOW I SHLDNT BE BLOGGING.
I KNOW I SHLDNT BE ONLINE.
I KNOW I SHLD BE STUDYING
I KNOW I SHLDNT WATCH TV.
BUT I CANT
MY BRAIN IS ALREADY FULL AND I ONLY FULLY COMPLETED 1 NOVEL :((



I NEED MOTIVATION AND PERSERVERENCE.
ANYONE CAN SPARE ME SOME?

GET HEATED UP <3

and ya.

still went to sch today again althought i got nth to ask teacher

but i think just taking more looks at her wld probably ease my....

cranked up emotions all wandering ard?

went jp find sis after her work :)

reached home, fell asleep studying halfway, and i was sent to buy a microwave oven.

LG.

was thinking maybe their meaning for LG shld change from 'life's good' to lousy goods

from my phone's experience, at e very least.

had to carry that dumb oven home in bus, carried it all the way from 3rd floor to interchange :((

having muscle cramps nw.

that uncle lied to me!

said it was less than 10kg, turned out to be 18kg when i weighed it.

I'M STILL STUDYING CHI.

left with 10 poems and prose.

and lots of notes to read.

i still llove STITCH ...

THIS IS SO LOL.

blah and blahs.

its okay, some understand others dont.

SERIOUSLY IN DOUBT

I'M SERIOUSLY DOUBTFUL OF MANY THINGS.

MY ABILITY
MY POTENTIAL
MY FUTURE
MY RESULTS
MY LIFE
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH OTHERS
EVERYTHING THAT IS ARD ME.


WILL I DIE BECAUSE OF WORRYING?

a five-star five course meal.

went sch again:)
moved to outside ctrstage.
pillai was treating pizza, but dint bother to get some.
wondered if my eyes were playing tricks on me.
upon a second look, it was really....!!!
had ''5 course meal, all at home''
shall elaborate on it when i've got e time
lala.
took bus home, saw amos board e bus i just alighted.
everytime i see him, he seems to be chasing and running after buses!
LOL.


always see pple i wldnt want to see,
and miss out those whom shld be seen

what i call plain STUPIDITY.

I'M STILL AWAKE!!!



SADLY, AT LOSS TOO.




IN MY OWN LAND.




NTH COMES OUT




NTH GOES IN




JUST NTH




NTH.


:*(

and so do you feel
our sweat and tears?
we'll overcome,
hardship and fear.

things always go against my wishes

LIKE TODAY.
for once in the whole week, i dint bring my cardigan.
and it rained heavily after that
i just got drenched--INDOORS.
the wind and rain was so strong that even though i was sitting outside staffrm, i wa almost wet
in the morning saw sth that made me happy and motivated XD
haha.
and, had consultation with mr wong.
learnt that there was econs today, and tml.
i think he said sth abt charging 200 bucks per half hr on tues, practically scared the wits out of me and the other 2 guys.
anyway, i made a big joke of myself, and mr wong kept on telling pple, teachers that there were only 4 'countries' in the world.
i just made that mistake accidentally mahs!
then went cont study chi lit, went for lunch at mac(again)
went for mrs meya consultation.
then she was like gg to murder me.
haha.
i maade her laugh till..
cos i was doing this AQ abt affluenza, then i did it late night, close to twelve.
i wrote influenza.
and lotsa spelling mistakes :((
having another consultation with her on mon afternoon :))


its worth the trouble
if that smile makes me go for extra miles :)

INCOMPLETE day.

i feel so void.
skipped GP eventually.
so what?
did outlines in LIB 2nd flr lol.
tml cont consulting mr wong and mrs meya.
WHAT TO DO WITH CHI LIT, MGT AND ECONS.
i haven been gg to econs, not bcos i dont want to
but my timetable clashes with chi lit.
and he's so ''nice'' to organise his lesson when i have my lit lessons



我认为，自己最缺的是勇气。



saw A's friend, C's belonging
but the leads nowhere in sight.
sighs.




我受不了你了

觉得根本是在浪费我时间。

我们就来看最后的结果吧。

its always like THIS.

i dont understand, why it always end up in this manner.
i woke up so early, and...
was supposed to go for GP.
then no one gg.
so sians.
the best part was is that despite being very tired, i still woke up.
i think i'll just go for chi lit and do some self studying in sch.
:((

late night random post.

my source of motivation.
and its turning me heels over head

miserable, rainy day

was having CRAMPS CRAMPS CRAMPS.
from GP lecture to chi lit lesson :((

i doubt anyone can figure it out.

commencement of A lvls with a DUMB PAPER, and wet cheeks

IT IS RIDICULOUS , ABSOLUTELY.
i dont understand, at all!
what type of qns is that?
how to apply to modern society?!
we are not living in olden times, dear setters and SEAB.
oops, maybe u pple are still living in that era, and i'm unaware of that?
and that second compre psg was like HELL HELL HELL.
i've got AT LEAST 15 mks gone from that compre.
the last compre, i used 15 mins to rush thru it.
i dunno what to do.
slit my throat, can?
i've already lost hope, on the very first paper.
morale gone way below down, doesnt exist at all.
and the essay qns was also no link, like GP.
otw home broke dwn, and ended up in wet cheeks.
what cld i do, on that 174 looking at the night scenes thru those ulu ulu forest,
exactly seems to be like my future, nowhere


i guess it doesnt helps, even though i've seen two.


and SEAB, I WONT TRUST YOU ANYMORE!!!
NEVER!!!

THE WORST THAT CAN EVER HAPPEN...

tmr the BIG BIG DAY.
and today i'm having the RED RED day
which means tml i'll have to survive on my PLC.
but i cant find it.
just hope my nose wont drip tml.
i'm having the blocks nw.
hw can i curl and squirm like a prawn tml when i'm writing my essay?!
:((



it wld be nice and a miracle if i cld see .......tml :))