Thursday, June 18, 2009

illusion

suddenly, everything seems like an illusion.
and it may just disappear silently like a bubble


ps: i wished i get quarantined, then i will have more time to study
i think this is the last straw, i cant get anything inside my head
i dont feel like gg to exams, cause i dont have the confidence
i tend to be an escapist, cause i dont have courage to face those problems, issues and people
i tend to get lost easily, cause i think too much
i want to get off everything down from my shoulder, its so heavy
i wished everthing could be undone, like Ctrl + Z, but we cant
because we live between 2 eternities constantly, the past and future
and who knows, if this world really exist in the very first place

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

will u take my hand and lead me through when i lose my way?

Saturday, June 13, 2009

TALK WITH AN OLD FRIEND

today finally talked with my long-time-no-meet friend.
after all the talking, i've realised that i've been wasting my life away
shld live life to the fullest.
and yapps.
we shldnt worry abt tml
and think what we shld do today to be happy.
abt that confidence thing.
i guess i'll have to do sth to it.
tsk tsk.
that will be a task for me.
meanwhile, i feel more comfortable after that talk.
HAHA.
:)

smile, cos it brings everyone and yourself joy.

just like..

there are many things in this world that are destined not to be.
just like the spring flowers and the autumn leaves
just like the summer sun and winter snow
just like the sun and moon
just like the pecan and the fish
just like the sky and the sea
just like heaven and earth.
just like......
you and me.






ps: no mood to study.
i'm dead for PRELIMS
=X

Thursday, June 11, 2009

END OF WORK~

MY ATRIUM HAS FINALLY ENDED.
I REACHED HOME BY 10 30PM TODAY
COS THE UNCLE AND AMY DROVE ME HOME IN COMPANY'S VAN
MUAHAHAHAHAHAS.
SO SWEET AND NICE OF THEM.
sometimes i dont understand why pple can be so self centered.
just like the 'senior' in my atrium.
shall continue tml.
gg off to relax
HAHA

STUDY STUDY STUDY.
FOR PRELIMS.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

wheres' JUSTICE?CX. u're hopeless

OH MY GOD.
I SWEAR THAT THIS WILL BE MY LAST ATRIUM IN DANO WITH THAT CHEN XUAN ARD.
I'VE FINALLY SEEN THROUGH HER.


well, i openly had war with her.
and i declared it first.
it happened ytd
scenario was sth like this..
i was standing at the cashier gg to wrap up things fort customer, wrapping th belt..
then her friend called, asked abt whether i recieved the msg
and she said no.
then i started to walk away, fearing that she wld throw me the phone.
well, anyone who knows her well know what she can be like
so i went to find tina and tell her abt how irritating it was.
when i went bk, she started saying
'everything also must tell ur friend one mehs? u dun wan to recieve the msg delete away la'
then she snatched the belt away from me
i was like...WTH.

SEE WHAT IS HAPPENING.
1.u gave my number without my consent
2. u force me to make friends with ur friend.
3. u are in the wrong and u are being angry?!
4. it seems that i i've abosolutely no right to tell my friends the things i want to say when u can give my number to anyone else.
5. u are late everyday, i help u clock in EVERYDAY.
6. u go out to smoke can, other staff want to smoke cannot??
7. u go eat lunch with another cashier, nvm
8. there were 2 days you went for 2 hours break, might as well not come back right
9. u think u're 'senior' so everyone must listen to u?my foot ah.ur educational lvl how high?
10. not to mention u're a malaysian, i'm singaporean,duh! u're standing on my land.
11. so u think u r very clever? dont even speak eng fluent, basic things.even if i say F**k U ALSO DUNNO RIGHT.THATS PATHETIC
12.so u think u're well-liked? BLIND?almost the whole company dont like u , and the best is they bitch abt u behind ur back
13.the way u sent the apology msg to me, its ridiculous. u're sying sorry on account that we have known each other for so long? SORRY HORS. i dont quite know u and neither do i want to do so
14. so what if u have period?then can mood not good anyhow scold pple?if all the girls in the world are same like u, wldnt it be chaotic and at a state of war already?
15. it is u who is at fault and u have no right to throw a temper when i dint even said anything
16. DONT THINK I'M GOOD TO BULLY. I HAVE MY LIMITS. AND U WLDNT WANT TO SEE ME WHEN THE LIMIT HAS EXCEEDED, I CAN BE SURE OF WHAT I CAN DO TO MAKE YOU FEEL SORRY.

just some advice for u.
dont smoke too much. i'll attend ur funeral when u die of lung cancer.
dont flirt too much and wear shorts when u have elephant legs. i wont pity u if u get AIDS.
dont ask pple whether they are virgins anymore. we are not like u who sleeps ard with guys, being so open and shameless
dont tell pple u are the senior, it just proves how pathetic u are when u cant even speak proper eng.
i think the first word of eng u must learn is 'SHAMELESS'.
cos it fits u totally.
trying to say sorry just to make sure i will help u clock in.
then having another cold war with me?
FINE!
it doesnt bother me./
i cant even be bothered to talk to u cos it's an insult to my intelligence

u B***H,S**T,W***E.
so sad.even if u read this post, u dont even know that i'm scolding u right.
i shant waste my time anymore.
off to sleep
TML LAST DAY!

ps: i'm not being cocky not to know ur friend.
but its simply ridiculous.
i'm not as shui bian as u
ur frens cant be better off either.
theres a reason for everything.
but its just too sad that u dont have the basic common senese to understand this.

wheres' JUSTICE?

Sunday, June 07, 2009

4 MORE DAYS TO END OF WORK!!!

AWWWWWWWWWWW.
my leg is awfully painful now
too long never do atrium le
SIGHS.
anyway, theres only 4 more days left for e work
will end on 11th jun
luckily we work at habourfront centre atrium
not vivo.
if not will meet into alot of pple
i thought i wont la.
but in the end adeline they all still found me.
=.=
HAHA.
but nvm..its good~
i had lunch with her.
^v^
today had lunch with tina, miracle!
due to my reasoning which made sense to her
while i eating my beehoon and she eating her instant noodle,
there was this ah pek who came up to me and said
''wo gen ni yi qi share chi hao ma?'
FREAKED ME OUT LA.
i was like ???
thought he was talking to tina,
but apparently , HE WAS TALKING TO ME.
THE WAY WE ATE LUCH TODAY WAS DAMN UNGLAM.



I'M SICK OF MY IN-CHARGE ALREADY.
so many ridiculous things done
1 . come late, opening and set up all i do
2. always go out smoke, ask me do cashier when i'm normal staff, and its like at least 6 times a day without fail.
3. she go out for break for ard 2 hrs today
4. she transferred me to the dano shop upstairs
5. she can go break with another cashier, me and tina today can only bcos i'm the upstyairs shop staff.
6. she gave my number to her friend despite my disapproval.

DUH! I'M NOT DESPO.
nor am i INTERESTED in that guy.
why not save it for urself.
and its not i anti-malaysians.
it just doesnt makes sense.




MY DEAR FRIENDS...
if you are free and back in singapore,
pls come find me at HF. to eat lunch or dinner.
ard 2pm onwards.
its so miserable to eat instant noodle outside the smoking area alone.
SOBS.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

SOBS :'(

SAY SOBS SOBS.
I CANT GO TO CHALET AT PASIR RIS DAD GOT
FROM FRI TO MON
WORKING :'(
i wanna go................
cos i'll be ALONE at home
with my thin and fat hamsters.
and my 5 STITCHs.
SOBS.


have been sleeping a bit too much these days.
last sat slept from ard 7 all the way to 2 plus in the morning.
then continued to sleep till 11am.
next day also sleep very long
and i just took a nap at 6 and woke up at ard 8.


OMG.
how to finish studying my cheena lit test?!

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

MUSIC

just being random.
after puking almost everything out after taking 166
all the way frm amk to clementi to take 99 bk home.
it took me 2hrs to reach clementi.
but the view from sheares bridge totally amazed me.
i was ''stunned'' by the view.


now, some music terms.....


A prima vista:"at first sight"
A tempo:"in time". Back to the original tempo.
Accelerando:"accelerate". Increase tempo gradually.
Adagio:"slow".
Affettuoso:"with feeling".
Agitato: "agitated". Restless and wild.
Al fine:"to the end".
Allegro:"fast and lively".
Andante:"slow".
Andante sostenuto: "slow and sustained". Slower than andante
Cantilena:a smooth, Iyrical melody line.
Clatant:"brilliant, bright" or "blaring".
Coda: "tail". The ending of a piece of music.
Con espressione: "with expression".
Con fuoco:"with fire".
Con grandezza:"with grandeur''
Con moto:"with movement", "with life".
Crescendo:"gradually louder''


a celebrity onced said..
''in this world, anything in black and white would only result in grey. only the piano will result in a rainbow"

TRUE.
hahas.
just being freaking freaking random here



miss the days breathing in air with notes.
notes filling the air, every moment, is beautiful.

ps: shi coming bk to sg.
i'm going to work
we're going to drink and run!!!
yay :)

Monday, June 01, 2009

I'M GOING CRAZY. NO! I'VE TURNED CRAZY!

I'M GOING CRAZY.
OR HAVE I ALREADY TURNED CRAZY?

i've got so many things to study
so little time
and my brain just cant memorise all of them.
with everything messed up,
things cldnt be worst off .



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SAVE ME!!!
SOBS : '(