我们没有在一起;

你一直说的那个公园已经拆了
还记得荡著秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野
你那傻气 我真是想念


那时候小小的你还没学会叹气
谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变
时间走了 谁还在等呢


这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白


可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享


那条路走呀走呀走呀总要回家
两只手握著晃呀晃呀舍不得放
你不知道吧后来后来我都在想
跟你走吧 管它去哪呀


这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白


可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨


我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享


可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨


我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享


我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心 其实更长


when fever decided to spring a surprise attack on me :(
time to kill the germs.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs

its past one in the morning;

hola;
i just cant sleep
today, i broke down half way in the middle of my work
the pressure was simply too....strong for me to withstand.
so, few trips to the toilet and consider the trick done.
after i came bk, i decided that it wld be a face-off with her.
so, when she went to lunch, we hit 300 in a single hr
compared to where we started from 11-5 was only 500
just proven the point that her eight characters doesnt match with mine.
although i dun know how the hell it works.
at a particular point in time,i got that feeling, lost ever since i left sch
the urge to bite.

the mist, when will it clear?
butterflies,when will they reach?


at times, even i myself think i'm totally incomprehenable.

i want apr 7th to reach faster.
i want my pay :(

when the bleeding get serious;

as in, nosebleed.
dunno why i keep bleeding.
but i do know of one occasion which i knew why i bleed, but it sounds lame so i wont spell it out.
the only thing i can say is....its non-physical reason.
pple advised me to go to the doc.
but i'm reluctant to do so.
think it shldnt be anything serious since i had it ever since young
just that it came bk lately these 2 yrs.
its like, what if everything wasnt what i thought


on the other hand, although i only worked for 5 hrs ytd, it felt like days
cos the new girl is so scary
i just feel weird looking at her.
and i feel like she's gonna eat me anytime, or pounce on me and squash me flat with her size.
luckily she's gg bk to wm on mon.
i'll open xiang bing to celebrate
on a lighter note, it feels reat to be bk in JP
stunned some pple by appearing bk
after almost one week MIA.
gonna work in 2 hrs time.
sighs.


miss sch totally, even those PE lessons and taxing chi lit tests :(
and the food there; even though its not exactly fantastic.
its like ..4 mths ever since we attended sch.
but no matter hw we missed it, we're past it.
and there's certainly no way to turn back the clock.
what we can only do now is to reminisce with those sweet, bitter precious memories.
and rmb the fun days we had, and use it,
to look optimistically into the future.
even if we part ways, there's no way to deny that we used to had fun together, worked hard together, did stupid things together



amist blogging this post,
i'm still trying to figure out the reason why.
wished my brain wld be able to stop thinking so i wldnt have to sleep at 3am.

♥ remember me ♥

started the day early, with a mac breakfast treat from someone nice at pioneer.
as a parting gift apparently
i walked there, no direct bus service
then i realised that i hadnt walked so leisurely for a long, long while.
thought abt many things.
then bitched abt that all evil pest cum witch cum too-many-negative-adjectives to describe her
sighs.
so after breakfast, i went over to watch remember me.
for the very very fast time, alone.
and its quite dumb with actually 7 pple in the whole theatre only
best still, only one couple.
the auntie was asking me for another student pass.
i was like..huh?
she said:you only want one ah.
i said yes, and she gave me that damn weird look.
then, watched it
damn freaking cold inside despite a jacket with hoodie while bag-hugging.
the story was quite ok.
but.. no subtitles, so i'd a hard time trying to catch their speech.
eventually was a sad ending.
so..............tragic :'(
anyway, mood was really down under after the movie.
and i swear i wont watch a movie ALONE again.
feels so horrible.
then realised syhira sent a msg to me.
again, i almost wanted to ask her if she gt send wrong msg.
then , realised i sended this msg a lot of times to alot of pple.
and it always turns out tt i'm the one mistaken.
abt tt chalet thingy, seriously, lets say if theres really one..
i'll have to find time to go for it
by.. telling that witch i've got sth on, or
choose to clear my off-day, or
best still, take an MC
anyway, the last time i went for one was like 4 years ago
and we were like really..mad
2 sixteen yr old girls going out to cycle without any guys ard
its not a problem actually.
but, not at 1 am.
plus after our cycling we went to buy drinks and drank at the big stone platform in the sea, at 3am...
of course, there wasnt any problem, except that the drinks were alcoholic :X
but then again, i think after some drinking, i'll break down.
then again, dont ask me why.
cos thats when i'm true to myself, when i just feel like hugging sth(like a big big stitch or hello kitty) and sob in front of it, talk to it.
IT LOOKS TOTALLY STUPID!
arrghs.
gg off to work at 4pm tml.
dont have to see that witch till next weds, then nxt thurs is my off again :)
specially changed the lyrics of 'welcome to my life' to 'get out of my life'
special'tribute' to the witch.
3 years ago, i was too weak.
3 years after, today,i've learnt to be stronger.
anyway, gonna find another avenue to blog abt work.
like wordpress, livejournal or tumbler, recommended by my friend.
to de-stress :S
and is anyone gg overseas......hellp me buy vodka tropical.
cos its cheap, and only exclusively at changi airport :(((
PLSS HELP ME BUY ♥

i hope my guess is wrong, seriously.
if not, i dont know how to accept the fact.

walkin down memory lane;

gonna go wm to work ltr :(
taking 174..
no specific reason
just felt like slowing down the pace
even though this means i have to do a de-tour, walking, and maybe some overhead bridge climbing..
when i can actually reach bb by taking mrt frm pioneer and reach there within like..20 mins?
sighs
seriously dont know why i'm working at this poor, a super gd CS for MOB company.
dunno what to say
feel like calling someone to talk to, but its like....nvm.
seems like when pple have probs with relationships, they come and find me.
yet, when i feel down, maybe due to reasons, such as the one above... nvm.
maybe its time to get independent.
mentally; emotionally.
afterall, u are alrdy 20 yrs old.
time to grow up and stop feeding on reliance.


if that person really matter abt you,
he/she'll change.
i wonder what tt person is doing nw.

bloody day

literally, as it seems
ytd, tt is
nosebleed for breakfast, deep cut in index finger for lunch, menses for dinner
how un-bloody cld it be?
loss of blood :(
sighs, getting bored nwadays.
wished time cld turn bk :(

a plastic weds

blogging, finally.
still haven register for UNI.
not even sure if i can get in with GP-B/PW-C/CHI-A/MATHS-S/MOB-C/ECONS-B/CHI LANG&LIT-A.
god.
i hate my maths.
think i'm gonna stuck with chinese....
LOLS
after meeting cousin to consult abt the chi course, went to meet min
proceeded to SP to do her grad show model.(thanks to that kfc meal months ago and my dumb suggestion)
argghs.
was hell.
tearing, cutting plastics, violence, killing the earth.
penknives, chisels, cuts, broken finger nails, aching fingers
got 2-3 cuts, and nails broken into 3 layers.
after eating at SP, cont' to peel plastic models below my blk
till 11 30 pm...with complimentary 6 bites from mosquitoes.
then went to 24 hr coffee shop to eat, reached home at twelve.
like cinderella.
just that i'm not pretty, theres no carriage, and neither is there mouse and a prince.


i just realised how important TRUST is to a guy.
credits to min.

customers...

are seriously..an irritating bunch
when i was gg to close at 9 30 pm, she came in.
then wanted to buy a cardigan @$23
said she gt VIP card.
forget to bring, an check for her?
i said; sorry, the office closed alrdy.
then she said..thats your company's problem, not mine.
i said; its your responsibility to bring your VIP card
IC no cnt check?
office closed already.
then when she was paying, kept looking at my nametag.
was so irritated, told her i'm xin yi.
she said :: attitude sia!
then asked for todays date, time , and main office number.
i happily gave it to her.
go ahead and lodge a complaint, dear.
most to most, i will just tell the office; its your prob for cosing early.
if not, sack me larhs hors,
but consider your manpower @ the west side 3 outlets.
called my manager; then she said nth will happen..too many types of these cases,
and asked me not to be unhappy over it.
at tt point of time, i seriously felt like slapping that customer
here's one free phrase to you
f*** you, b****




on the other hand, i'm in a dilemma over what subject to choose.
my JC friends were like saying my maths was really a pity, and pretty sad case.
cos if i did pass it, i cld be guranteed a place in uni :(
there goes my econs :((
i really cant imagine studying chinese (concentrated) and focused for 4 years
just those A lvls stuff for the 3 years was scary enough :'(

I MISS SCH, VERY, VERY MUCH.
and those people.

the day of 'A' lvls result release;

simply a torturing moment, you know.
after the principal's talk was practically in gg-to-cry-mode.
then, cldnt stand it anymoree, just went there, then ask teacher not to face e result slip up.
then asked mr sim; gt anything fail?
he said no, felt a sense of relief.
was overall contented with my result; if not for maths, and mob.
i cldnt speak; wanted to cry but cldnt.
i'm so grateful for the teachers guidance, the environment the sch provided us.
everything that has contributed to our success


cos i wan too unsure of myself
went to find min after tt at bugis
watched up in the air, just watched alice in wonderland in the morning.
then she asked me sth, what will i look in a bf, or what type.
my answer is , so long as we can talk to each other, comfortable ard each other, and the chemistry and feeling is there.
you know, like what the movie character said
'you know that thats the person, when you look into his/her eyes, the whole world stops'
i think i found it, but i've got no confidence in myself
and i believe that if we have the affinity, we'll meet again.
whats yours will be yours,
and whats not yours will never be yours.


i saw him before i took the results, then he disappeared.
then i saw him again when i was leaving sch.
on the other hand, i chose to let it go.
just, too unsure.
i'm too overwhelmed by emotions, think i'll cry like hell tonight.
i dunno why,
but i really cant bear the thought of officially leaving MI, not gg bk there everyday like we used to be.
those happy moments, hard moments.
i think, i need time to organise.
and god, if you are kind enough, do sth.

counting down;

to judgement day.
frankly speaking, i havent een sleeping well these days.
on monday night, i slept at 3 am only to be awake at 8 plus due to 2 consecutive nightmares.
ytd, cldnt sleep, and i went to cut my hair.
2 inches off.
argghs.
even though there are pple who treated me to BK and KFC today, i still dont have much appetite.
thinking of tml...sighs.
i dont get it;
who do some pple seem unaffected?
because they are too confident, or they cant be bothered at all.
maybe i shld get ready a box of tissue tml.
:((

gg off to work.
sighs.


sometimes, i really feel that the days in MI was a dream.
short but nice one,
of course.with some...

5th march 2010,

will most probably be a day that i wont forget.
awws.
just thinking of it, i alrdy cant sleep.
sweating....
sighs.
finally off tml, gg to find min.
maybe go trim my grassy-head too.
aaaahs.
i really dont know hw to react :((