sch today&ytd

GP period.
was bored.
soo.

I DREW THIS.
was so freaking stoning and bored during GP
all the teachers i get except for my H2 chi lit/lang
are HORRIBLE.
no offence.
but i can see myself falling into some never-ending darkness.




me and my pathetiic nose.*sniff*

i went to eat happy meal to get the 'cinamaroll' toy.

so kawaii'

i skipped econs also

i seriously wonder what i will do during mid yrs.


TADA.

thats all

i gonna sleep.

its a long day ahead.

i hate rehearsals

since my secondary chinese orchestra days till now.

its such a waste of resources, at least in economics terms.

you waste

time,

energy,

which is very precious cos energy equates to food.

and oxygen

and hall's air con

and result in some conflicts some time.

and what do you get?

at the best, smooth running of the event.

so much for practice makes perfect.

such resource allocation inefficiency.
*TSK TSK*

RAIN

it was raining when i went out of my hse
it was raining when i stepped out of sch
in both situation, i got drenched.
and i was so tired that i went to sleep the moment i reached home.
and i cldnt study my mgt test.
the whole few months when i started my year 3,
now i feel so blank.
tml got rehearsal.
ti red

bad day, hot day

my syf grp photo :P

half dead

i'm almost half dead.
my nose is irritating me
and i cldnt get to sleeep last night.
them woke up
decided to go online.
spent hours finding information regarding oblivion.
then e composer
then other versions of it.
it's a really touching song.
just listening to it makes you feel so sad
and everytime after i play it, i feel so empty.
then went to lib to study
so tired now
i can taste the panadol taste in my mouth
when i dint eat any
sobs.

GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO ARE DOING THE RAW DUALATHON TML.
dun be like the video we saw during fri's HT period.
its........................................
i cant find the appropriate way to describe it.

PICS!!!

PICTURE FINALLY
think icy wld finally be happy to see me throw pics on BLOG.
MY SYF PICS.
22nd APRIL 2009@Republic Polytechnic Cultural Centre

WARN YOU FIRST.
I LOOK FREAKING FUNNY.


the RPCC hall


after e performace with amirah :)

in sch preparing...she looks so cute



with belinda :)

i look blur...

and some pple say i look cheena

lols.

what can i do?

we were supposed to make up

i dun wear it usually.

so look quite hilarious to me
HAHAS.

think i'm gonna fall sick soon

luckily dint sign up for raw dualathon

cldnt go also

cos of red flag day and running nose.

have lots of test nxt week.

SIGHS!

MY NOSE GONNA FALL OFF!

miserable day
slept till 6 30 today
so had to take 174
reach sch freaking early at 7 3oam
sians
then my nose started to feel weird
so i rubbed and rubbed and rubbed
its dripping water now(in this hot weather)
and being blocked(i cant imagine how i'll sleep ltr at night =X )
and so we had MIOO rehearsal today
was like half wasting my time
stoning in the hall for 2 hours doing nth
then when i was carrying the angklung...
felt a sharp pain at my 'cramps' area
nearly cldnt take it
so i just leaned on my instrument and stone
saw AM practising in e hall
somehow see till sians le la.
trying to be so prominent by wearing that kinda of bright colour
then had our rehearsal.
was quite disastrous though
for viva and la tem.....dunno hw to spell
i dint go percussion
instead i stone at my place
hehhs
dint felt like moving, no energy.
imagine having to do all these when u feel tired, having blood constantly lost and a nose that doesnt cooperate with u.
such a sad case huh

i heart OBLIVION <3
its the nicest and most touching song i've ever played.
and i wont forget it, as well as the sad story behind it.

and i still cannot make out what exactly is gg on ard me, everything
am i slow?

SYF

WENT FOR SYF TODAY
then my MC come.
misery.
eventually, we only got GOLD.
sighs
siglap sec got GOLD with honours again.
i think...
if our crimson sun wasnt so rushy,
we wld had gotten gold with honours.
sighs sighs sighs.
cramps cramps cramps.
test test test


i realised that it is the SPIRIT that matters.
not anything else.

i don't understand what u are trying to do.

LALOLEH.

ECONS.
I'M DOOMED.
CAN HE SPEAK PROPERLY
I'M SICK AND TIRED THAT I FEEL LIKE SKIPPING CLASS.
went to celebrate tina's birthday on sat at JP
pictures in my FACEBOOK.
lazy to upload in blog.
no mood also
tml SYF
my last SYF
wonder what we'll get.
pray for me kaes.
GWH!!!!!!!!!!!
>.<



i dunno what i'm thinking and doing these days.

SICK! x.x

DINT GO SCH YTD
was sick
had fever after the RP rehearsal.
went to BB instead of jurong's one
cause its always so CROWDED.
the doctor wanted to refer me to a specialist.
but i rejected
anyone at my age wolud get freaked out.
then what op.
just wanted to get out of there ASAP
feel so listless and tired and cold today.
my mind is now
BLANK BLANK BLANK

BALLS.

i shall admit all the wrong things that i shldnt have done.
i shldnt have slept in GP class
i shldnt have slept in mgt class
i shldnt have slept in ecoons class
i shldnt have attended PE
cos he nvr take attendance
then...
i need to take my pay.
and the best thing was all the volleyballs,
be it hard or soft, was ATTRACTED to me.
yeah, how nice
head, forehead, shoulder, legs
all kanna hit by them o.O
then changed position, still the same.


tml is irritating day
so is weds.
i'll find my way out
since its gonna be ''monthly sister visit " soon
i'm gonna cramped till death.
eventually have to find doc for painkillers
then i will be super super nice to everyone.
cos i dun have any energy to fight with anyone.
thats when my sister and mum is most happiest
cos i wont 'ding zui'
and shoot them back.
cos i'll be squirming on my bed.

eternally...
her lips sealed,
her lids closed,
thou' shall remember how sweet they were

poked to death

i think i will be poked to death.
cant go for gp mentoring on tues.
cos i'll be excused from 11am onwards.
all the way till ard 7pm.
sobs.
gg to RP for rehearsal.
went o to je lib after sch.
then did mgt.
then rained.
then got migraine
whn is all these nonsese gg to stop?

good friday was ......

GOOD FRIDAY
seems like all my BLACK FRIDAYS was better than this good friday.
had nose bleed.
when it was raining like hell outside the window.
was rubbing my nose..
doing my essay..
then felt sth cold flowing and dripping down
then *drip*
my 3/4 finished essay was gone down the drain
had to write another one.
was staring at the blood
wondering how come i've had nosebleed
i've cut down on chocolates, in fact, i dint eat them lately
i've been drinking water more than usual..
and i dunno what is the thing that my nose is not happy with me
i wanna donate blood, vein too fine..they cant even feel it even after i was slapped on it.
then waste blood like this.

my (ex)in-charge called me
was asking whether i had holidays.
to work in atrium apr 20-26
westmall
was like...der, i have to go sch
though it can earn $$$
i cant even skip sch to do the job cos its..
so near my sch.



still have to go sch tml
ARGGGHS
CAN WE GO TO MID MAY EARLIER?
THEN END OF ALL CCAs and my nosebleed.
yapps.
perhaps my nosebleed cos of AKE
long concentration hrs.
ONE MORE MONTH TO MIOO AND ALL IS DONE
then i can peacefully study my H2s


god, who can save me on the topic of finance.
i' blank where numbers are involved.

bad thurs, good fri, bad sat

i had a bad start today
cos i woke up at 6 50.
was like...rushing
managed to catch my 99 at 7 25am
reached my 174 bus stop
in the end was still sort of early.
HAHA

got our PW results
got C.
my whole class average score.
wasnt too sad.
cos in the end if i add it to my pathetic score of maths(S),
i think i get 1o/2o
at least a pass.
then went to see mrs meya abt my GP mentoring.
was trying to find her ext outside..cldnt find her name
=.=...
then realised her name was the first one..but meya wasnt there.
sighs
was asking me
'are u too traumatised to see me..'
'hmmm.nope'
'okay..then u wait for a moment'
she came out.
and say blah blah blah....
and then said...
'so u are the donkey who passed everything but GP.'
i was like....
speechless
and she said i better confirm with her on monday ...my timing
'if not i'll poke u to death'
so cute sia.
taught by her in year 2.
quite fun and enriching.
stil have to go bk sch for AKE on sat.
*tired*
i think i'm the only crazy creature who gets sore throat, nosebleed, cold and higher body temperature in hot weather.
and sick only in the midst of holidays.
sighs...


i'm getting heavier and fatter
got to go run already..
got weekends.
hopefully the stadium near my hse there wldnt be crowded.


i will never forget how hard i cried,
how sad i felt,
how many tears i shed,
how i felt like leaving this miserable world
when i flunk my maths .


I HOPE THAT MY H2s WOULD BE GOOD ENOUGH.

monday blues....

lalala.
first day of sch
was late for that GP talk
and from what i heard it was good for me to miss e 1st 5 mins
cos its demoralization totally
they said wld come up with dunno wad mentoring programme.
and out of 200 pple , 80 will get it.
most probably those who have their h2s okay.
was wondering why i hadnt failed any of my h2s.
somemore is a B,B,C (oh, the tv channel i c my planet earth!!!)
which means i have super duper uper HIGH chance of getting that mentoring....
and i will die on weds.
cos i have cca from 2 3opm
and e lessons starts from after sch till then


on a lighter note,
today PE session was fun.
volleyball......but i prefer the hard one.
when mr ram was demo-ing.
i was practically staring into blank air...
so..when he tried to 'dig' the ball
i just followed the balls direction and...
it dropped on me...
he was like saying ' dunno how to catch ball ah?'
i was like gg to say sth to defend myself when he said....
'she's trying to process what i said'...
he was saying abt previous lessons skills.....
i was STONING.

OH YA
i want to complain abt that new econs teacher...
or rather the guy who has kindly adpoted us for e future 4 mths.
i dare say my B and C will be gone.
he speaks so so so ....s...l...o...w...l...y.
that i can say a sentece between his words.
i fell asleep halfway =X
not on purpose, i tried my best
wet tissue, toilet...
i want to change class..still prefer selina wee in comparison to him.
OH GOD, DO STH!!!

when mature meets naive,indifferent may not represent that love is shallow

ohhhhhh.
i love my phone.
think its well again :)
works with my com today.
i intended to do revfision and hw.
well...
sadly, i ended up my day sleeping the whole day till 9 plus ytd.
woke up to watch tv.
then sleep again.*oops*
such a pig right...
but forgive me pls.
i have had a sleepless week.
had a great sleep debt.


today..
dint do much things
watched DMC
heard so many f* words.
so.........nvm
i almost vomited blood teahing my sis to cook for her f&n practical
sometimes i wonder if the cooking 'sense' is in her.
in the end, i ended up cooking.
i love the sambal kangkong.
MUAHAHAHAHAS.
tml must go sch earlier for some GP talk.
cos i flunk GP
by 3 marks...and its paper 1!!!!!!

will upload e pix soon.

weekends

its saturday.
its SPECIAL ...
cos its the first sat of 2009 that i dont have to work.
quit my job...bk to full time student.
and i can finally catch sufficient sleep for once.
have lots and lots of things to do.
wanted to upload chunks of pics.
but..
apparently, it seems that my sweet phone isnt so sweet to me today.
cldnt get connected.*sighs*
i have lots of work to do.
draw revision plans.
revising topics.
doing hw
clearing my rubbish
thinking of this and that.
in short, i have a lot of things to do.

death is loss.
'losing people you care about and the thought of never, ever seeing them again, huggint them, hearing them laugh is heartbreaking.
you're losing only one person,
but the person who dies loses everyone.
what if we had never met, never gotten to know each other, laugh tgt, cried tgt, learnt frm each other.
it sure wld have saved a great deal of heartache, but u wld have lost a great deal as well.'

ending.

these few weeks is really tiring
sch and ccas
plus my overdue assignments
which is mostly chi lit essays
rushing here and there for cca
syf, sch opening.
speaking of which i look damn freaking ugly in that syf look alike chinese orchestra cum dance outfit.
and i cant go for MIOO lunch cos i have to perform.
what freaking bloody rubbish is that u tell me!
and i have been feeling very uncomfortable ever since fri
the nosebleed incident
then sunday drenched in rain for ard 3o mins due to work
then having migraine now
want to study so many things
yet have not enough time
not in the right condition
not in the mood.
having too much things kept inside my heart
that i cant tell anyone.
everything is just so wrong.


if something has to end...
i will end it myself