after 8-9 months

i'm freaking out.
arrghs
sch starts next week
time flies, really
last year, at this point in time, i was probably mugging ?

i'm currently frustrated on many things.....
maybe practically everything
bank loan, laptop, e syllabus, e one semester in china, e environment.
will i ever survive?
just look at A lvls chi syllabus.
at the end of 4 years, where'll i be gg to?
if my life was a story book, i wished i cld at least see the summary.

oh, and finally my last day of work.
i did one exciting stunt.
gg to the movies during work time.
but dint get caught.
quite scary, but really exciting.
HAHAs

and, i'm still lost.
i dont know what i want.
i dont know who i want.
i dont know about everything.


oh, i checked.
last year on this day,
i had my gruelling chi test without studying anything.
and..ummm.
i was thinking of excuses to skip GP lessons.
which i dint go, and proved to be a right choice.
i got B for gp anyways, thanks to mrs meya's and mr wong's help

what-to-do
T.T

hasnt been able to blog due to insonmia.
sighs.
that, happened all bcos of YOG
i wassleeping soundly, then heard this sound..are you ready.
was like??!!
then, went out to my living room.
opp my blk was like...
wow.
alot of students, cheers.
whatever.
then i finally realized what was happening.
it so happened that it was e yog flame passing thru.
so i wait and see lol.
since i was alrdy awakened, at 8 plus
then i saw it lol.
cldnt go bk to slp.
was damn tired.
then had to go to wrk.
then, i cldnt get my quality slp from then on.
plus, i got my sore throat again :(
such a miserable life i lead.
ahhhhhhhhhs
dont feel like gg bk to sch
esp when i think tt i'm gonna be stuch with ci my whole life...
i dun wan !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sobs
T.T ~~~~~~~~
looking forward to e gathering @ marina barrage this sat ^^

this idea just suddenly got into my head.


maybe we were there before; just that we dint knew it.


ahhhs.
i love the adam couple.
haha

a feeling so great i cant overcome.
the sadness that fills up my heart
the tears that form but cant fall
due to suppression, its even impossible to cry
i finally understand, and hear--that my heart is crying silently.