hmm.
very tired.
leg very suan ahxXXx!
anywae.
was trransferred to bugis last minute todae
stupid lol.
11 45 am call me go bugis there work.
i only jus boarded bus 242 nia.
then wearin slipper n dano de uniform
then wan me go bugis junction de vida.
anyway
there.

then yts uncle jus delivered e new clothea.
n kelvin went tuh check stock
at jp
then todae i c them again
was a bit .
helpless at vida.
cos they arranged e clothes very differently
then had a hard time hangin them bk.
then when i finally more clear liaop
he came n rearrange.
i was there
like a damn blur de gal lo.
still nid tuh wait fer him tuh tell me.
cos i dun tok tuh him.
c me walkin round n round de shop noe i i dunnoe put where le.
then will say.
e only words i replied so far is.
orhx.
n bye bye.
he like very ah gua lyk tat.
very the...
this few days i like alwaes very e sians de.
hopeless ahxXx.
hw tuh work.
the only gd point there
is
got shuai ge tuh c
waahahahaas.
i wan tuh transferr bk tuh jp.
gt sense of belongin.
lame lo.
have a instinct tat
i'll fall sick soon.
heexXx.
then can take mc.
wakakakas
although this few daes dunnno y wan tuh faint
plus headache
but still mus hold on.
had a dream
quite sweet .
haahs.
goin off tuh sleep.

hais.
terrrible!!!
atrium at jp has finally ended.
actually nis tuh go bugis dere work fer 3 daes
in e end.
transferred tuh jp again.
will be workin there fer e last month.
then nid tuh go sch le.
hais.
the pple there ok la
but todae head very giddylike wan to faint like tat
then i had tuh hold on till nine thirty
shop finally closed!
hais.
anyway
adeline's hair now is
horrifyin.
wait till e pple in mo sch c her
wil be shocked ba
highlighted red
plus new hairstyle.
i'm not surprised.
hahaas
cos.
i was there watchin her change her hair.
from start to end.
me only cut hair nia
actually wanted tuh highlight
in e end
decided tuh do it sumtime
cos time ish runnin out 4 mie.
so many pple gib many diff dates 4 gettin e results.
wth.
got 5th feb
9th feb
n e most ridiculous wan is
14th feb.
then we dere sayin.
so sad ahxXx.
hahahaas.
anyway
heaven's will


i finally realised.
he was e one n only.

wahhas
todae jess didnt cume
then adeline teo transfer.
cos only me n li mei nia.
haha
then lady boss was up there
soo many clotes tuh fold n settle.
manager .
uncle n auntie all help us le.
still vy mess/.
then.
haha
sales abt three thousand todae.
wakaas
sians.
tml atrium finish le.
then mon off day
mayb follow adeline go cut n highlite hair.
then tus tuh thurs go bugis dere de vida go work
then fri transfer bk to jp.
wahhas.sians.
feelin stressed.
hard tuh breathe-
in tis complicated situation.

.
nth to say
saw min yee today.
then vy busy ah
suddenly tot of sth
i would have stood at jp for 84 hrs at least
at jp this week.
thats abt nia.
haha
machiam camp overnite
everydae facin delifrance bistro n pizza hut
mornin eat mac.
hhaa
hw i wish i can be void of feelingx.

hais.
sumtimes
i really wonder.
wad is e problem wif me
i dun even know myself.
hais.
so saD right.
nvm.
todae wen tuh work.
n on e bus.
felt my knee wet wet de
then got a bit pain.
then took a looK.
woah.
bleeding til ankle there le
dots ritex.
then took wet tissue wiped it off
pple on e bus tot i was siao de bahs.
hais.
hard day today
no off days
maybe will be transferred tuh jp after jp de atrium
working there
isnt easy.
hais.
facing a whole stretch of fast food restraunts
n shops
distractions.
then saw one of mo classmates todae.
haiyan came tuh find me too.
chatted a little.
the manager very ..
dunno how to describe
like wanna spy us.
then he go mac for his 3 meals plus 2 tea breaks like tat
then he sit nearer n nearer 2 us.
tml he cumin again.
i mux bai him ah
can one whole dae walk ard jp.
hais.
reached home abt 11 le.
sians.
pain.

hmm.
todae special color.
wahaas.
wanted sth diff.
goin tuh work tml.
at jp.
so e sians.
hahaas.
frm 1o 3oam to 93o pm.
standin e whole day.
suddenly remembered sth.
mo faded memoriies ya.
gd tat i forgot all those..
nt to mention le la.
dey say weds wan go sentosa?
nt sure tml then confirm
go underwaterworld.
lol
wth...
nvm
long time didnt go anyway.
realli feel like playin water
find 1 dae go mo hse dere de complex play.
waahaas
tryin tuh make moself happy.
went tuh a website
asked abt regrets.
i wrote down 3.
1. why was i born
2.why must i have emotions n feelinx
3.
why am i nt dead
haha
me siao le la.
say wan tuh cut then in e end everydae no time de.
work work work.
hope tml dun meet into any pple i noe.
heexXxxxx.
tatas.
tats all.
shld i die?

hais.
chaatin wif mo cousin now
abt mo visit tuh her sch
mo dream course.
seems very very far frm me ehs?
goin tuh work in jp.
opp pizza hut
4 1 week.
on is frm 1o3o to 93o.
wonder if i ca survive.
i wanna go bugis tml!!

hmm.
went 2 ngee ann todae.
ohh.
very.
tired.
haahs.
cldnt find mo cousin.
anyway.
i really very tired le.
mo brain all messsed up.
when can i get mo result.
hais.
i noe its impossible.
tats y i dun think abt it anymoree.
but.
where can i find.
really feel like dying.
kill me pls-

hais.
finally got transferred.
to jp.
4 i weeek nia.
omg.save me pls.
this bitch.
no.
she's worse than a bitch
wokinin tat place.
i at least hab 7 of moii fingernails broken.
lols.
then next week the whole week at jp.
atrium there.
got qns.
wad is tat?
hais anyway.
1o am start.
mayb do full time.
to 1o pm.
hais hais hais.
I CANT STAND IT ANYMOREE.
I GOING TO COMPLAIN TO MANAGER.
TRANSFER ME TO JURONG AREA PLS.
AT LEAST AWAY FRM THAT STUPIID PLACEN TAT STUPIID WOMAN.
ACT CUTE ACT CHIO.
U ARE 46 YEARS OLD LE.
NO
SHLD BE 47 YRS OLD!
anyway.
tmr going to ngee ann poly.
nid to find moree info
at least abt chi studies.
hais.
hopex can meet into mo cousin.
wahhas.
bitch.
tat irritating woman cum penguin

...
...
...
...
wad shld i sae
i cant say anythingy.
lols.
feel really funny.
i must be mad.
to miss sch.
or shld i say.
the feeling of goim tuh sch.
i miss moii
classmatex.
frenxXx.
chers.
n ....
nth.
hais
thingys seemed to have changed a lot.
dunno y.
i shld hate tat bloOdy sch.
but i now i missin going to sch.
hais.
must be sumtin wrong le la.
anyway.
i will try my best
tuh leave them as far as posSible.
more than 2 person cnt tok le.
doRts.
wad can i sae ahxXx.
thinking of it now.
the friendships of gals are really fragile.
really.
but who can i blame?
no one
cos no one is right or wrong.
feel very tired.
need to work.
but.
cnt concentrate
in search of mo flown away heart.
where r u...

deperated . at loss-

hais.
hais.
hais.
went tuh call manager todae.
after on weds
cos he sae fri gib mie ans.
then he say
when the office settle all the timing le. then will call n tell me.
then i can transfer.
finally.
but hors.
i hea tat place liaox a bit..
dortsSs...
jp.
i rather go work in OUB.
actually going there.
bcos of stupiid expenses.
adult fare.
hais.
dunno wad tuh sae la.
feel like cuttin agains.
...

uh-oh
wad shld i do.
i jus cant concentrate these days.
feel like floating
headaches.
then giddy.
then tat lady
my ez link card
after work
result
sister n brother
so many stupid thingy to think
then moii transfer.
then i cant find my heart
dunno piao tuh where le la.
jus like a walkin corpse

IDIOTIC WOMAN.
SAY I WORK THERE MY HEART NOT THERE.
F**K U LA.
SO FAT.
WONDER WHO WOULD HAVE MARRIED YOU
HE MUST BE BLIND
BASTARD.
I WORK SO HARD
IRON SOO MANY CLOTHES.
TILL MY THUMB DE FLESH KANNA COOKED.
YOU CBCB.
JIAN NU REN.
BU YAO LIAN
YOU UESELF SLACK NVR MIND
I READ MY NOVEL WRONG
PLS LA
U DUN EVEN NOE HOW TO READ SOME EASY ENG WORDS
STILL THERE TUH SAY ME.
XIAO XIN NI DE FAN WAN BEI ZA LE.
DAO SHI HOU WO HA HA DA XIAO.
YING WEI NA SHI NI YING DE DE!!!!
anyway.
i hate her.
i have finally managed tuh get into my manager de phone
he finally answered my call.
hais
then i said i wanna transfer bk to O
UB there or jurong area de.
then he say ok.
gib me ans on fri.
i'll wait
JUST U C..
OLD BITCH!

hais.
went jp tdae n ytd.
in acutual fact
almost everyday.
n i suay til cnt suay
i was wonderin.
if i saw someone frm mo sch
across e escalator.
ahhs.
anyway
went popular.
saw-
mrs tan asked her some thingyx.
then wm was like..
dorts.
hais.
i almost fainted durin work.
no chocolates
no lunch
no breakfast.
then like no strength like tat.
felt like i was.
erms~
floating.?
wahhaaas.anyway
just helped moiii sis for her chi compo
helped her wrote it.
heexXx
wonder if the cher would recognise.
he taught me b4.
but dun think so la.
hahaas.
after 2 yrs le.
i wld hab forgotten.
anyway.
sleepn peace is all i wan!
and-.
I WAN A TRANSFER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hais
feel very down.
was quite pale for ew days.
n wif moii stupid ez-link card.
suan le.
went je de imm find adeline
went tuh dano
was shocked
beside adidas
hmm.
actually.
wanted to asked manager transfer me go jp or imm de dano de.
then now.
havin second tots.
hais.
anyway.
letting go is so hard!
can i give up those stupiid thingyx!!!!!!!1~~~~~~~~~~

hais
today very sians
me so unlucky de...
went to orchard de kino dere buy book
then after tat went vivO de tenchii.
then went to take a look at the ship or wadeva
banged moii head against the wall
and.
of course.
it created a damn ...
wonderful sound effect.
n all looked at me.
then asked me if i was ok.
i am okay
except for the big bump on mo head.
the wall y so low de ahs?
hais.
then went home damn bloody tired.
a bit feverish.
then was wondering y today go out little while only felt so tired.
tats e reason.
i dunno when mo feet got cut.
CUT!!!!
a pretty big wan too lors.
then infection.
hais.
me bai ka le la.
how..~
i need to worK tml
somemoree standing fer at least 6-7 hrs.
hais
prepared to die.
anyway
janice said wan go sentosA.
then i there
............
nth tuh sae la
she wan weekdaes.
cos adeline weekdays off
i weekends
then adeline ab shedule de
if iwan weekdae off
mus apply leave.
medical leave?
no way
muxxXx hab MC.
hais.
i die die also dun go doc theere de
then jan told me'
sae go bk scch
to take award.
good progresS,
ya i noe she gettin it
but who wil believe it.
until like next weds get it.
lols
she wans to go there very muach,
tats wad i think la.
everytime go.
hais
saw hamster todae.
they were sooo
kawaii nehs
going tuh buy one soon
how m i gonna work tml?