here it comes again...PROMOs

ahhh....

pain...it's painful.

it's draining me..

i cant' go on anymore.

pls stop it!!!!!!!!

wad are u pple thinking....

naughty fellows.

HAHA

no larhs

it's cuming.

its the PROMOS.

and it seems that i'm so 'excited' abt it rites.

nonono...

i hate it

after the mid yr episode when i had a fever

exams=a very good way of killing ur brain cells

promos=u fail it u get out of sch

so..

promo exams= u fail it u get out with ur brain cells dead.

nth to gain at all.

but no choice..have to study.

2 days ago

as usual..celebration in sch for teachers day

3 days ago

had my gp promos where it was a killer paper for paper 1

4 days ago

pon my jjc seminar

5 days ago

went to jjc seminar and almost ended up like dead.

and i can predict

after 1 week

i will look like ne crazy woman

after 3 weeks

i'll br sulking and frowning all day long

after 1 month

mugging for chi and maths

after 2 months

mugging for oral presention

after 3 months

running for my standard chartered 21km half marathon

ohhhh.

i dont have an easy life.

even till now.

it's still there

it was always there,

only that i dint realise

rainy days ^v^

別の雨の日

とても気持ちがニース

ハハ

雨の日大好き

私はあなたと同じように

translation for the para above

another rainy day

feels so nice

haha

i love rainy days

just like i like you

suddenly like jap characters

they are somehw diff with e chi ones.

GOSH.

i just realised i haven done my work.

my chi lit and language comprehension

my mgt tutorial

my econs essays.

il ya beaucoup de choses qui ont couru à travers mon esprit, sans réponses à celui-ci.

j'ai cherché pendant des années pour trouver cette réponse, qui a été s'accrochant à moi --- pour six ans

je n'ai aucun moyen de se débarrasser de celui-ci, et le seul moyen et à la solution je peux penser est de trouver quelqu'un qui puisse me permettre d'oublier ces misérables ... souvenirs

La première fois que j'ai mis les yeux sur vous, mon coeur n'a pas de scintillement.

mais que les jours passés, j'ai compris que je était falling.yet je suis entre la baisse dans les eaux et flottant à la surface.

Je suis tout simplement trop peur de tomber plus loin. sans sécurité, pas de espère mai guérir temps - mais il prend beaucoup de temps.

J'espère qu'un jour j'aurai la chance de vous dire ce que j'ai vraiment le sentiment de cœur.

PROMOs

it seems to me that time just flew past me.

or is it my stupid institution of the world is turning faster?

have been staying for night study for these few weeks.

i also dunno what i doing sia.

i seriously need some patient human being with my maths.

i'm super SLOW AT MATHS.

at least i think its e only subject.

and i need some distractions removed too.

my head is always saying" you must FOCUS"

my heart is also saying" i just cant do it"

so what to do?

DIG MY HEART OUT?

anyway..have been playing the "ultimate number" or zhong ji mi ma.

the forfeit i got in the end was being kissed by edlyn and kissing tina.

on the cheek

luckily only our class in canteen.

today my forfeit was to finish a drinked mixed with orange juice, ice lemon tea and mango madness.

i nearly went MAD.

after that went je lib study.

then found some intersting books..read

then went bk BB to eat SUBWAY AGAIN.

i dunno whow many times i've been eating sobway this week.

i'll grow to be a pig soon.

oh ya.

our sch taugh us tai ji and yoga on thurs

in PE LESSONS.

alreight actually.

just the sleeping fun..a bit~

AWKWARD.

haahs.

then the part where they asked us to relax and let go of everything.

i cant la.

i had reflex reaction...

clenching my fists and biting my lips.

then went home me and tina giddy giddy wan lol.

in e end i went to sleep before i fainted.

its LESS THAN 5 DAYS TO PROMOS.

I MUST SCORE BETTER.

got a few nice quotes~

"How can I love again when I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much?"

"For awhile I thought I would never love or hate anyone, but I have come to realize I have loved and hated the same person."

"Don't try to not love someone for it will only make your love grow deeper; just accept it."

"The biggest mistake of my life is that I said yes, when I had to say no."

whats' more: THEY MAKE ABSOLUTE SENSE TO ME TOO.

I SHALL STUDY HARD FRM TML ONWARDS.

old friends..still friends

I MET TWO OF MY OLD FRIENDS TODAY.

ONE FRM SEC SCH

ONE FRM PRI SCH

WAHAHAHS.

and it so happened that somehow my sec sch friends know my pri sch frens in JCs.

LIKE THE CURRENT SITUATION OF MINE IN M.I NOW

hehs.

this is a really small world.

anyway...had lots to talk about =D

well todai i was damn tired and felt like sleeping peacefully forever.

even in econs and mgt.

after that PE had cramps for o reasons.

but PE very fun.

guess what?

WE PLAYED HIDE-AND-SEEK in sch

the whole 1st flr.

SO FUN!!!

haha

hope we can play it again lors.

i guesss i have to mug today, rushing my WR.

JIA YOU~

datelines.datelines.and STILL DATELINES.

OH MY GOD.

TIME IS PASSING TOO FAST

AND...

I CANT SEEM TO HAVE ENOUGH OF IT.

arrghs.

anyway..i dont think its time to grumble now

2008 is a very fast year.

and i have no reason to let it go to waste.

i cant afford to.

i shall tell myself to wake up and stop thinking about things that happened so damn long ago..like 2003-4

it wasnt a very good time.

until now i still dunno the reason, and neither my frens i told can help me find an answer.

GUESS I JUST HAVE TO WORK HARD AND FOCUS.

do the best for my maths and gp as they are like..

the weakest?

so i have lots of things to do to improve.

THINGS TO DO:

1.PRACTICE FOR MATHS.(DO!DO!DO!)die le also must do!!!

2.READ TIMES MAGAZINE MORE.

3.READ MORE MODEL ESSAYS

4.DO MORE PRACTICE PAPERS

5.RESEARCH ON VARIOUS TOPICS.

i dun seem to bein very good mood these days

due to e weather.

so..i get frustrated easily..and the chances of me flaring up is almost 80%

which i almost got into today.

i just feel like biting pple, screaming.

all bcos of PW!

long time nvr gather wif other frens le.

miss them so much~

MY SUPER-DUPER WISHED-WISHES

1.I DUN WAN TO GET ONLY 3 H2 PASSES.

2.I WAN ALL PASSES

3.I WAN B FOR ECONS AND MGT

4.I WAN TO PUSH MY CHI TO C OR EVEN B

5.I WAN TO GET B-C FOR MY MATHS A LVLS

6.I WAN TO GET B FOR PW

7.I WAN TO BE HAPPY AND NOT GLOOMY

8.I WAN MY HEART TO BE EMPTY, NOT HEAVY!

9. I WAN TO BE HEALTHY IN MY PROMOS, NOT LIKE MID YRS.

10.I WAN TO BE PROMOTED WITH MY FRIENDS!

things have gotten to the worst, i think

i dunno what to say or do to prove anything.

or maybe.

its should be better to forget about everything,

treat is as nth has happened?

or to persist on.

whats the point if we can get nowhere but things get even worst?

now, i even wonder all the things i have done is worth it.

truth and made-up

there are many a times when we find out that

what we deem as truth is all but rubbish

well, thats the cruelty and reality of life.

and we also see people appearing to be different at times.

PEOPLE DO CHANGE.

REALITY TOO.

THE WHOLE WORLD IS CHANGING CONSTANTLY TOO.

however, the test for us is to withstand the changes.

adapt accordingly, and not lose our balance.

if we ever fall, we have to pick ourselves up.

human beings are complicated creatures.

they see each other differently.

in M.I, i've seen the real reality.

its really a "WOW" to me.

when you started off with a kind intention, people can misinterpret one.

they might even think that you are being "fake"....

BUT PLEASE USE YOUR HEAD AND THINK.

why would one even waste time and be FAKE with you.

unless one who has ulterior motives , or reasons....

such as being outcasted by pple and thus also wants to drag peopledown

accompanying one so that one will not be lonely

and this turns one outcast into 2.

being tgt, closed in your own lala land wont make much sense.

and WHO KNOWS IF THE ONE IS SPEAKING THE TRUTH.

since that person can betray another person now,

IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT HE/SHE WONT BETRAY YOU ANY OTHER DAY.

if you really want to differentiate people and label them whatever labels

PLS.

pls think and look with your heart and NOT YOUR NAKED EYES AND EARS.

after some thinking, after knowing the fact.

i feel so hurt.

but after that,i'm not angry,offended or what.

i sympathise with the one that has been led in rounds.

because he/she is still stuck in the vicious cycle,

living in deception.

this post is not meant to offend anyone.

it is just my opinion.

you can choose not to heed it.

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