weather crashed...

this whole week...

has been tolling on me.

late night sleep,

rushing assignments....

stress from here and there

pieces of thoughts everywhere.

wow.

i was like halfway to body breakdown

now even my nose protested to me

by giving me a nosebleed during mgt

yayaya.

such a long time ever since u visited me huh. nosebleed.

u visited me like mealtimes when i was young without fail everyday

how have you been?

i know theres' a reason behind that bleeding anyway..

it sorts of hints sth...

asked someone this qns today:
wld u rather be with someone u like or someone that likes you
and the person said neither works.

true to a certain extent.

cos if u like the other, the other doesnt, it doesnt work out.

and if another likes u, but u dont like that other, it doesnt work too.

so i asked again:

is it better to love someone or to be loved by someone.

the person was like ..................

long silence no answer.

what am i trying to prove?

nth actually.

i'm also not quite sure.

sometimes, i just wonder if pple can be void of feelings.

arrgghhs.
my one week"holiday" is gone for good!
that is if u even consider tt a holiday in the first place my days were spent...
mon- AKE
tues-AKE
weds-cut my hair(which i feel like taking a parang gg after the hairstylist nw!)
thurs-AKE(9-ard 6 plus)
fri-AKE(9-7)
sat-no work plus hw to be done
sun- work!
nvm since its syf period.
sch is starting soon AND.
i seem to have lost direction..
after so many things that has happened.

i think prague is lovely and beautiful.

the air and the breeze...
do you know the difference?

when life gets.....

i've been spending these 2 days by...
playing the angkliung.
not exactly boring.
it even sort of relaxed me.
this habit has been there since secondary sch.
those CO days.
currently bore till watching boys over flowers.
its lame, i know
cos i watched the japanese, taiwan version
and now watching korean version.
i know i shld be studying and mugging like hell now
but i just got no mood can.
something is bothering me, and i cant do anything cos i dunno what is it.
maybe it will be over soon after this week.
lets hope so.
i'm bored.
an my friends are abroad..
malaysia, china...
and me
stuck in singapore
in MI.

these few days, i realised..
happiness can be achieved so easily,
even a little gesture does the job.

my latest 领悟

i have learnt of a lot of things this week.
too much.

我发现现在的我已得不到真正的友谊－－很少有几个让我真正体会到他们是真诚的。 星期五的事件或许会让别人以为我太过依赖，胡闹。但是，你们了解多少？你们不知道她的真面目，没有资格说我。我是到了那天才突然领悟， 原来她是那么的重色轻友，根本称不上，也不配做我的朋友， 有人对我说她更不值得我为她落泪。心里想久了， 也觉得没错。反正我的成绩不会因她而改变， 人生也没理由被她影响， 就让她为所欲为吧！我相信因果， 相信她会自食其果，将无法得到真正的幸福。愧她真以为世上的男人都会拜倒在她石榴裙下。

也许我该感谢她， 让我发现有些人对我来说是特别重要的。他们都是我中， 小学的朋友，最真诚，不虚假的人们。在高中的生活中， 发现它是那么的虚假，当然，还是有些人让我感到欣慰，原来在这学校里还有真诚的人， 是真正关心你的人。


我们走着瞧吧，看谁会考得更好。我不会浪费时间在你身上的。如果她的男友看见这个POST的话，劝你不要浪费时间找我对质，好好想想她与你交往的目的。


我累了，好想让一切都停止下来。

u know what?

after these days which have past, i realised one thing.

that is i miss you,

and i know i would continue to.

so what happened last friday
had no mood to do anything.
i got S for my A lvls maths.
which made me so tempted to jump down frm a building
which eventually i dint
cos teacher say my h2 still got chance.
oh so what that means
i have to get triple As.
tell me how to?
depressed.
lost.
plus all the frustrations
and the whoever who has been irritating me
i have my bottom line and limits too
dont push me too far.

as for today
had my cramps, with extra longer timing.
saw my 2 lil juniors frm sec sch cca in bookshop
they still so.......blur and cute.
HAHX.
met adeline, poured all my sorrows and frustrations to her.
feel better now.
like theraphy like that.



i....really dont know what to do
because you wasnt there to give me directions and security

im being so depressed.
over tml and some other factors which i dun even know
i know this sounds super dumb
but i feel so ''stuffed up'' in my heart
gosh.
i just realised that a human with that few hundreds or thousand cells can make everything different
from a colourful to bland world
from a warm to temperature-less world.
so do my results.
getting it in 16 hrs time
its the FINALE.
i wun even know if i'll live to see someone again.
will i?

so what to do now.
i dont know
everything was never this messy
how do i clear all these things up
theres only 3 days left.
when i see blah blah...
i go meh meh.
i dunno what i writing now.
fri get a lvls result feel like tearing it away.
but i think its laminated.
lols
dun care abt me.
i dunno what i writing currently.
pretend you dint see this post.